During the Hiatus

Rai's New Day... BYE HIATUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-03T23:13:00.000Z

Well... Hiatus visitors... it was indeed fun while it lasted but... Da Hiatus is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!

It is time for me to Return to Radiance.

I have created a new blog and will no longer be posting on Da Hiatus! It is time for me to shine... you know... get back to the limelight!

Please check out my new blog at: www.return2radiance.blogspot.com .

The fun has just started!

Rai stands and looks around, "Bye Hiatus... it is time for me to be me why being birthed into my destiny!".

The End!

~DaHiatusmademe...nowImustreturnRADIANTLY!

King has been... Dethroned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-03T00:42:00.000Z

Rai pauses... steps up to the ex-boyfriend formally known as King and snatches his crown, "Gimme dat nicca!"

Ah well... after about two weeks of neglect I am back! I am back and I am single! Single! Single!

In all honesty I have always been single. Even when I wasn't I always was. I am so glad I have kept this blog. It is living proof that I was blinded and should have left that situation a long time ago. Often times love blinds us. It distracts us from the negative and focuses our attention on the positive.

I feel so FREE ladies and gentlemen. I can post about any topic I want to. He always made me feel like I couldn't be as open as I would have wanted to be on this blog (due to the fact that telling my business is also telling his). I am so excited because... due to the fact that I am indeed single... who do I have to answer to? ABSOLUTELY NO ONE!

We have been having issues in our relationship for the last month. Actually he has been having the issue. I gave and gave and gave. You all know how much I gave... my bday was wack with him... no Christmas presents because he is not a believer... valentines... NOTHING... never really had time for me... it was always work... work... work. Now don't get me wrong... there were a lot of good things about the relationship. I love the fact that he was driven and determined. It inspired me! I am moving forward in my life because of it.

The Down Fall:

I will now refer to the former King as "X". It all started on our one year anniversary... (this past weekend). He decided that he just wanted to be my friend because I didn't measure up to his ex-girlfriend. I will be honest... it hurt my feelings initially. I have never in life been compared to anyone else... let alone settled on! It was new to me... but I definitely see the message of it all. God was teaching me humility and vulnerability. I am multifaceted and come from a different world than him. It was never meant to work... no matter how much I wanted to convince myself that it was. I think my problem was that... I was so ready to settle down I made myself oblivious to the obvious. He wasn't as in to me as I was him.

X has commitment issues that only he can fix. I wish him the best in all of his endeavours (as I know he will read this to figure out how I am really taking the breakup).

You will always be near and dear to me. I just care not to see are talk to you ever again in life (after I give you your things). It was a fun ride, I learned so much from you. I wish you nothing the but the best with www.lioneyetv.com (his web based TV station... ya'll should check it out! Really HOTT Shows!). Have a nice life with your "Perfect Clan" of a Family (Granny, Mom, Brother and Uncle) . I hope you eventually get your boys! Enjoy your best female friend who get you... and continue to enjoy conversations from ex-girlfriends who want you back... I don't. You were a wonderful friend and man. You have a lot to offer someone, when you decide to.

I will always have love for you,

Rai.

Whew... I can move on... or have I already? You all will have to stay tuned. Don't worry X isn't completely replaced yet, but you all know that there is always someone out there that will treat you how you deserve to be treated in EVERY WAY and you should never settle just for the sake of having a man!

The End.

~Thecrownhasofficiallybeenburnt!~

More Self Expression...

2007-03-19T19:13:00.000Z

Ok... due to some series of events, I indeed received another tattoo this past Friday night. On a whim (AGAIN!) I got a dragonfly on my back (left side- lower shoulder blade).

Some friends and myself went out to Happy Hour after work and got to talking about tattoos. I commented on how I thought I was becoming addicted to them (due to the fact that I had just gotten one). A friend was like... "Hey! Lets go get one!". That was all she wrote.

We ended up at the same Tattoo Shop I had been at 7 days earlier... and I got the tattoo!

I think I am acting out because I have been going through some things lately. For so long I have been living in a box... being deathly afraid to do anything different. I guess I have been dreading judgement. As of now... I basically don't care. I love my new tattoos and I plan on getting more. Self expression is truly priceless.

For once I am living for me and not those who surround me!

The End.

~Whenwilltheinkingcease?~

Ah Enlightenment!

2007-03-16T18:08:00.000Z

I have been truly blessed this past year. I mean truly TRULY blessed. I am at last on the road to accomplishing all of my dreams. God is truly amazing!

I figured out what was of the most importance in my life. As if you all couldn't figure it out by reading my blog for the last year, it would definitely be companionship. When I say companionship, I don't simply mean it in an "I need a man" way. I enjoy giving and receiving love. I want to get married and have 4 more children... and that is ok. It makes me happy. I will never jeopardize my well being physically or emotionally, but I love to love and be loved.

I love God. I love my Sun. I love my Momma (family). I absolutely love and adore my King. I have grown to accept this and not be afraid to air my feelings due to how I feel people will receive me.

I absolutely ADORE my girl pals (the Divine Divas of WHEW). They have truly been my backbone over the last year. I don't know what I would do with out these ladies.

I guess what I am attempting to convey in this post is that I have been enlightened by my Heavenly Father on the things that matter most to me... the people closest to me.

I have put aside hard feelings for my son's father and have accepted the fact that I too had a part in the dismantling of our relationship and Sun is of utmost importance currently. I have accepted the fact that I lost a dear dear friend due to my ego. I have accepted the fact that I am still a child in my Momma's eyes... no matter how hard I try to prove my independence I still have to respect her the same way I did when I was little.

Lastly...

I have accepted the fact that I fell in love with a wonderful guy. Our relationship will not be perfect, but for once in my life I will continue to put my all into it.

The End.

~Enlightenmentopensthedoortohappiness!~

Ooooh... I Got Inked!

2007-03-15T22:12:00.000Z

I am alive and well and enjoying life. Enjoying it so much I got a tattoo on last Friday. It was such a rush. I got it last Friday, March 9th. Me, Bossy and a co-worker of mine went and inked ourselves on a whim. It was actually fun to do something so spur of the moment. I got an open loop cross on my right hip. It is truly symbolic of God’s presence in my life and my salvation.

At the point of this picture I was laughing and talking to the girls about how much the tattoo didn’t hurt. They took the picture with out my knowledge. True fun.

Well…
Hiatus…
The time is dwindling down… I will start a new blog in April… as my Hiatus was only meant to last for 1 year.

The End.

~Ahtothink…IgotINKED!~

Rai's Reveal!

2007-03-06T22:40:00.000Z

Ok… so ya’ll know how funny I have been this past almost year about posting pics of myself on my blog? I thought and thought and I came to the conclusion that I am nearing the end of my Hiatus. It has been right at a year since I started it and I have truly grown as a person. I have had a chance to live life and see all my dreams begin to come alive. I am truly blessed and I know the Lord will continue to take good care of me.

So I had to show the cutest picture of my girls and me at a birthday party I threw for a good friend of mine on this past Saturday. We are (from left to right) Me (Rai), Styles, Divine (in the center), Princessa and last but not least Bossy. We had such a ball celebrating Div’s BDay. I thought this was extra symbolic because of the beautiful red roses we wore in our hair. It’s symbolism is of our growth. We were once tiny seeds and we have indeed blossomed. God is GOOD!

Life has taken me away from my blog but I am indeed heading back. I will spend the month of March reflecting on the last year of my life and how I intend on progressing into the future.

Be Patient With Me!

Imma keep the posts comin’!

~RaiRevelsinHerReveal!~

An Inkful Celebration!

2007-02-28T22:21:00.000Z

Hey Hiatus Patriots!

I am definitely back… Boy do I have lots to tell! The focus of this post will be the Slinging Ink Tattoo Expo (www.slinginginktattooexpo.com). This past weekend (2/24 thru 2/25) King and I headed down I10 to San Antonio, TX. We went to tape a show for his web-based television station. He told me it was a tattoo expo, but I had no idea what to expect. I myself am in to tattoos (though I only have one for now), but it was truly something to see so many walking art canvasses. Truly Amazing!

The production crew and myself spent most of the expo in the VIP tent. There was free food and drinks, not to mention the guy in the corner who did massages. The massage therapist and friends that were there begged me to get a massage. I then walked over to look at the bed. The once white sheets were now brown. I brought this to the massage therapist’s attention and he motioned to one set of clean sheets in the corner. I myself had noticed over 10 people there getting massages (taking their clothes off and lying on these same sheets!). Heck No! No massage for me!

An interesting fact about the expo was that there were quite a few popular porn stars there. I was truly amazed. I would normally not equate tattoos and sex, but after my experiences at the expo, the two walking hand in hand make perfect sense to me. This leads me to the absolute main attraction. Mr. Ron Jeremy himself was there. I am not particularly into porn at this time, especially not the viewing of old stubby men, but let’s face it… this guy is a legend in the porn world. You all can also remember him from the third season of the Surreal Life Reality Show on VH1. Upon meeting me he said, “Hi” and proceeded to stick out his hand (assuming I would shake it). No disrespect to him, but this guy had been with thousand upon thousands of women and I was not trying to introduce my flesh to his in no way, shape, or form. I just couldn’t do it! There was a porn star there who had been with over 900 men in one taping… couldn’t have contact with her either!

There were booths among booths of people selling things and getting/doing tattoos. I really, really wanted to get one, but King was so busy working, we ran out of time. I spent most of the day with Bubbles. She was really good friends with one of the shows producers. What a wonderful lady! She truly was a sweetheart. She got even sweeter after free drink number seven. I was so glad that I only had a couple of spaced out drinks, because I needed all of my brain power to deal with her. I know she had a hangover the following day!

All in all the expo was eight hours of crazy uninhibited fun. I had a chance to experience a different side of life. Interesting.

Want to know the weirdest thing about it all?

I look forward to going back next year!

What a time...

2007-02-20T22:34:00.000Z

What a weekend! It took me a couple of days to absorb everything before I posted again. It would probably be easy just to take you all day by day. A summary of course!

I guess I will start right here…

Friday, February 16th:

I got the bomb tickets to go to the play Issues: Everybody’s Got ‘Em. Leggs was in town for the week touring with the play (she is the personal assistant to the producer. We truly viewed in style. I went with a girl pal of mine and we had front row center seats. All of the ladies were going crazy because of the fact that Darrin Henson was in the play. You all may remember him as Liam on the Soul Food series on Showtime. All I could remember him from his infomercial in the late 90’s. He was showcasing his choreography skills and boasting about how he worked with different pop groups, such as ‘Nsync. I can recall him attempting to teach one of the routines that ‘Nsync had performed and as he motioned the moves as he retorted, “Ain’t no lie bye bye bye!” Too cheesy! I loved it! It took everything in me not to bring it up when I met him backstage. The play was wonderful! A great colorful cast (Kim Fields and Dave Hollister to name a couple)!

I then headed back to King to spend a couple moments of the remainder of the night with him. We had a serious talk about some issues he was in the midsts of and called it a night! It was indeed a good Friday!

Saturday, February 17th:

WHEW…hew… we had our 10th W.omen H.elping E.mpower W.omen meeting at my apartment. It was truly a treat. The group is really growing. We have 11 active consistent members and it feels good. No jealousy, envy, or deceit- just women inspiring one another. We talked about our special gifts and truly empowered each other to reach for her dreams! My girl pal and I went to a B-Day party and it was truly a good time. I missed my best guy pal Senator, as he was in Vegas for All Star Weekend.

Sunday, February 18th:

CHUCH… CHUCH…CHUCH… has never been so good. This was a relaxing day for me. I attended church…ate…and headed home for a nap! Soon Sun was dropped off by the Infamous CK and we ran errands. The little guy and I went to the park, grocery store, and ended the night at Blockbuster. We headed home to watch movies- what a good night!

This is my recap of the weekend.
I am sure there will be more to come.

The End.
~3daysslowlyfadeaway!~

HAPPY WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-16T22:01:00.000Z

For some reason today has been a wonderful day! I had a smooth work day and now I prepare to see mah girl Leggs. She is touring with the play... Issues: Everybody's Got "Em. They have been in Houston for almost a week and I am going to stop by and see what all the fuss is about. King and I will probably hang out later on tonight.

Let's see...

WHEW.. mah girls are coming over for a meeting on Saturday!

So much to say... so little time.

I will catcha later!

The End.

~Whentheweekendsthefunbegins!~

VDay Your Way!

2007-02-14T23:49:00.000Z

Well… well… well… It is indeed Valentine’s Day! Whew freaking hew! Don’t get my tone twisted; I have no problem with today. I actually have had the luxury of having a pretty smooth day thus far. I woke up to tons of Happy VDay text messages and calls. You all know which one made me smile…

Yup. Without getting too mushy… I did receive a Happy Valentine’s Day call from King. I won’t lie, it took me a bit off guard, because he tends not to be the mushy type. He is not too big on many holidays, so the fact that he recognized it as being Valentine’s Day was enough for me. He treats me good through out the year and that is all that matters.

What is the big deal with Valentine’s Day anyway? Should we only take one a year to show our loved one the love we share for them? Is February 14th the only day we have to send flowers, candy and cards to our loved ones? He idea behind Valentine’s Day is great, but we must use all 365 days of the year to show those we love how much we care!

Don’t feel bad if you have no one to share this day with. Take yourself out and enjoy! Sometimes right when we except and become comfortable with ourselves, at that moment the “right” person comes along with us to share “us” with!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

The End.
~Intimeyouwillhaveavalentine!~

A Favor for J...

2007-02-13T18:37:00.000Z

So… I received a text message on Sunday night from a dear friend… J-Bigg. J has a wonderful blog worth checking out- www.jeremybiggers.blogspot.com. Truly creative writing at it’s finest! J had a small little beef with me and my recent blogs. Basically he was tired of all the mushy love and personal posts. Back in the day I use to write about a lot of “off the wall” craziness. I will be honest… I toned it down quite a bit. Not to mention I recently found out that quite a few of my employees read my blog… (HEY YA’LL, HOPE YOU ENJOY!) So, I had to keep it clean.

Long story short…

J-Bigg missed my erotic stories and not to mention CRAZY personal stories I wrote in the first couple of months of me having this blog. So, I challenged him to give me a premise and I would write within it. So here goes…

Disclaimer: This is creative writing. All characters depicted are fictional. The author deserves the right to be as creative as she chooses. If you are offended by the context please exit Da Hiatus immediately!

Sasha’s Erotica

“OMG!, Why are they so loud?” Sasha thought to herself as she struggled to open her eyes. Sasha woke up to what sounded like a party in the other room.

Sash, as friends called her was beauty at it’s finest. Sasha had long strawberry blond ringlets that kissed her mid back. She was racially ambiguous to the eye, but she was born to a mother that was an Ethiopian and German mix. Her father was an African and Native American mix, so she had the best of ALL worlds. Her skin was flawlessly sun kissed. Her eye sockets were home to beautiful gray-green eyes. She had perfectly pouty lips. Her body was exquisitely sculpted into a 38-24-36 frame. Sasha stood 5’8 with a pair of beautiful long legs.

Sasha may have been beautiful but her life was not reciprocal of that. Her mother left her to go on a mission trip to Honduras and was killed by some of the people in the village she was visiting. Sash was only five at the time, so she had very faint memories of her mother. She lived with her father until the age of 17. He remarried and had three children with his wife. Sash was always treated as an outcast so left in the middle of the night never to see her family again. She never completed school and began to rely on her beauty to get by. Modeling, as they called lasted briefly until she began to be asked to take off her clothes. One thing leads to another and she began stripping. Then came the movies. Sasha’s life was spinning out of control and she decided to jump off and put that life behind her.

Prior to her turn around she moved in to a lavish condo with two of the girls that worked at the strip club with her. Their names were Shelby and Asia. They were pretty girls in their own unique ways. Sasha soon grew tired of attempting to get them to turn their lives around so she stopped her attempts. She simply focused on her new life. She enrolled in a GED program and completed it and had just started taking classes at the community college in her town. She had been working a 10hr shift at the department store job that she had just gotten two weeks earlier. This disruption was not happening to her… so she thought.

Sasha glanced at the clock radio on the other side of her room. “Four thirty in the morning! They can’t be doing this now, they just can’t!” Sash stumbled to her closet and threw a silk robe over her pink Victoria’s Secret lace bra and thong set and headed towards her door. She had lived with Shelby and Asia for a year and behavior like this was common prior her to quitting the club but she had to be at the department store at 8am to begin preparing for open. She was set on keeping this job and they were not going to mess it up for her. “I told those heffa’s about keeping up all this damn noise when I have to get my rest!” Sasha mumbled to her self as she opened her door. Sash had the master suit in the lower level of their two-story condo. Shelby and Asia normally “entertained” upstairs and left Sash to her “boring” self as they would often say.

The closer Sasha got to the stairs the louder the voices were. She walked sluggishly up the steps and stood in the midst on her “old” life. Shelby and Asia had brought some ladies home from the club and they were lounging around on the leather sofa sectional upstairs. Shelby and Asia were bisexual so Sasha knew exactly what they had up their sleeves. Shel and A (as they were often called) broke up to make up and continuously had men and women in and out of the house. They had always tried to get Sasha involved but she never obliged. Not that she did not want to explore with them, it just never happened.

“Hey Sash!” the four women yelled as she walked into their game room. “Do you all realize what time it is?” She recognized the two women that joined Shelby and Asia. Their names were Serinity and Isabelle; they were two of the top dancers at the club, after Sasha had left of course. Sasha use to come home with thousands of dollars nightly. Heck the cover charge alone was $100.00! They welcomed Sash to sit down and have a drink. She thought, “Why not, doesn’t look like I am getting any sleep tonight!” They poured her a screw driver (OJ and Vodka) and the night (early morning) proceeded. As Sasha sat down on the couch they began by playing a game, High Card Rules. Two ladies would pull from a deck of cards. The one with the highest card dared the opposite player to do something sexual. If they chose not to do it they would have to take a shot. “What the hell, I’m game!” Sasha yelled!

“I can’t believe this is happening!” Sasha thought as she peered down to see Shelby exploring her valley with her tongue. She looked to her right and noticed Asia and Serinity on the opposite ends of a dildo. They were moaning so loudly that it had her head ringing even louder than it already was do to the numerous amounts of shots she had taken due to the fact that she didn’t want to end up in the situation she was currently in, so she tried to tell herself. Sasha couldn’t lie, the pleasure she felt being with Shel was undeniable. As Shelby came up for breath she placed her tongue on Sasha’s belly button and licked all the way up to her breasts. While she caressed nipple after nipple with her tongue Sasha ran her fingers through Shelby’s short feathered haircut. Sasha didn’t know what came over her as she laid Shelby on her back and grabbed the whipped cream bottle on the floor. She squirted the foam in her mouth and began to caress Shelby’s pleasure zone with her tongue. Just then Isabelle appeared and straddled Shelby’s face as Sasha did her thing down below. By this point it was a full out girl on girl orgy and Sasha had to admit it felt good. Asia pulled herself from the toy she was sharing with Serinity and grabbed her silver bullet vibrator. As Sasha continued to pleasure Shelby who was pleasuring Isabelle, Asia slowly eased the vibrating bullet over Sasha's clit…. Ecstasy at last was achieved!

………...........................................................................

“SASHA! Wake up! You’re going to be late for work!” The words echoed from the hallway. Sasha sprang up from her slumber. As she wiped the drool from her mouth she looked around. She was in her bed in her room. It was six o’clock in the morning and Shelby and Asia had just strolled in from the club. Since she had quit they would always wake her up on their way in so she wouldn’t oversleep for her department store job.

As Sasha got out of bed heading towards the kitchen to grab a cup of coffee she vowed she wouldn’t dare tell her friends about the erotic dream she had. “What for?” she pondered. “It will never really happen!” Not if she could help it. She hoped.

The End.

I hope you enjoyed the tales of Sasha. J-Bigg's guidelines were that the story start off in bed and end in bed. A game had to be played and something had to be eaten. Hope you enjoyed J!

~Amindisaterriblethingtowaste!~

Birthday w/ Sun, Rai, and CK...

2007-02-13T02:41:00.000Z

Well... I had a wonderful... busy.. but nevertheless WONDERFUL weekend! Sun had his BDay party and it went smoother than smooth. CK was there along with Cozy (his GF), not to mention a host of aunts, uncles, cousins and his GaGa (grandmother).

Sun's aunt had it at her house and boy, did he have fun! He ran around and played with friends and family. He was elated to see both of his parents there, and he deserved at least that much for his 4th BDay.

Go Sunshine !
It was your Birthday!
We sho partied like it was your Birthday!
Didn't drink Bicardi on your Birthday!
You know Mommy and Daddy gave you Love on your Birthday!

It was really really cool to see my son so excited. He would look at me and then at his dad and show us the biggest smile. He was really happy on his 4th birthday.

The moral of the story is that as parents we have to ensure that our children are taken care of to the best of our ability. That is what is most important. Who cares if you can or can't stand the other parent. All that matters is the welfare of the child.

Let's just say...

Sun had a BLAST on his big day!

The End.

~Sunsurehadhisbirthdayhisway!~

CK's U Turn.

2007-02-08T21:08:00.000Z

Well… it is good to know that Confused K figured out that someone had definitely told him wrong. I had given the whole Bday party situation over to God. I vented and let it go. By the way… thanks for listening. It was very therapeutic to let it all go and give it over to my Heavenly Father.

Believe that!

Last night I headed home and threw Sun in the bed. I took a shower and washed my hair. I was hanging out under the dryer reading a book when the phone rang. Hum. Did my eyes deceive me? It was Confused K calling my house at 11pm. I figured it was just to check on Sun or something, so I politely picked up the call.

Were my ears playing tricks on me? CK was calling to apologize about the previous night and give me the proper info for Sun’s party on Saturday. He explained that he was in the wrong and it took his mother, aunt and girlfriend to bring him to that realization.

I was shocked beyond words. I conveyed to him that I appreciated the fact that he was adult enough to take responsibility for his actions.

It is important that as single parents of children we understand the importance of the child. Often times we spend so much time bickering with our child’s other half we loose sight of what is truly important. The child. Every action should be in the child’s best interest. It doesn’t matter how both parents feel about one another. A medium should be reached to ensure that the child does not suffer. A child deserves a healthy relationship with his/her mother and father. They also deserve to see both of their parents have a healthy relationship with each other. We often do not like to think about it like that, but it is the truth at it's finest!

It is truly amazing what happens when you hand your life completely over to God! How about that!

The End.
~AuturnhelpsUlearn!~

Somebody Done Told Him Wrong!

2007-02-08T00:48:00.001Z

In the words of my favorite comedian Martin Lawrence... "Somebody done told (him) wrong!"

I mean seriously. About 24 hours ago I was ready to haul of and nock Sun’s father out. I mean… foreal. Nock him FLAT OUT. Christian and all. It was no one but the good Lord that got me through it.

Let me explain.

Whew… I am going to be honest with you all. It was quite a challenge for me to contain myself after the con (versation/frontation) with Confused K (read: My Baby’s Daddy). My wonderful Sunshine will be 4 in a couple of days and despite the relationship of his father and I, we always give him a “joint” birthday party.

I was a bit perplexed this year, because it was a week before his Bday and we hadn’t discussed anything. After a hard 14 hours of work… I awaited Sun’s arrival (his Dad had picked him up earlier in the day from my main job- so I could go to training for my secondary job). While dropping Sun off I asked about his party.

That’s when all …IT hit the fan.

In a cowardly way CK basically told me that I wasn’t invited to MY Sun’s party. He welcomed me to do what ever I wanted to do for him, but did not want me to celebrate with them (read: his mother, aunts, cousins, GIRLFRIEND).

Let’s be real… It did initially hurt. I prayed about it and thought… “Why should I feel hurt?” No one is going to stop me from spending that special day with my son… NO ONE!

The Nerve.

I made a couple of calls and found out where the party would be held.

Let’s just say…

IT’S PARTY TIME!!!

The End.

~ThedayIdon’twatchthisSunshinewillbethedayIamnolonger!~

Da Ramble's of Life.

2007-02-06T22:40:00.000Z

Well… It has been a little while since I last wrote. No, I haven’t forgot about you all the least. I have been so busy attending to life. My cup is drops away from overflow! I can’t complain though, I am truly blessed.

I am currently still working in the fitness industry which is tons of fun! It is awesome to see people reach their fitness goals and know that you had a part in it. Truly amazing. Also, my involvement with HAWC (read: Houston Area Women’s Center). I am currently completing my training to be a Hotline Advocate and Adult Counselor. It is truly WONDROUS to know that you aid in empowering someone to overcome their situation. Truly WONDROUS.

Lets see… what else?

I have just agreed to begin assisting in the singles ministry at church. I am sssssssssooooooooo excited about that. Many people are in such a search to “find” that special “someone”, they loose themselves in the process. Sometimes, they don’t even know who “they” really are. Being single is a true joy. It gives you an opportunity to live life while evolving into the mate that He intended you to be.

Yeah Singles!

WHEW… yup… Just when you thought you knew… WHEW! We are still doing our thing. I am actually in the process of starting a blog for the organization. It is quite an undertaking… so bare with me. I will save the world… I promise… one woman at a time.

Sunshine is almost 4! Yes... indeed people... my dear Sun will be 4 on Saturday. What's a fine Momma 'sposed to do? Let me think... uh... I enjoy the fact that the stretch marks get lighter and lighter each year. Thank God for that!

That is enough rambling for one blog…

How could I forget…

My Bestest Friend Princessa is no longer Pregnant. I talked about her quite a bit in a few of my June posts. She had a BEAUTIFUL baby boy on January 22, 2007. He weighed in at 6.5 lbs. His name is Ryan Kai Gregory (his first and middle names) and he is just as cute as he wants to be. I am sssssssssoooooooooo excited for Princessa. All I have to say is, Keep Hope Alive! He will grow up one day… promise!

I think that is just about it for the updates.

A BIG shout out to Brooklyn! It is a quite a few of you that are up there checking out my blog! Hope you enjoy! Leave a comment every now and again to let me know what you think.

And… waddya know… Sugar Land, TX is checking me out too! How ironic is that? Ya’ll never even mentioned you knew I had a blog! Nevertheless… ENJOY!

I will bring back the juiciness later.

The End.

~Theramblesoflifearealwaysnice!~

Food for Thought..

2007-02-01T02:44:00.000Z

Hey Hiatus!

Today has been a pretty good day. I got lots and lots accomplished and I feel rather good about myself. I would like to send a big WELCOME BACK to my girl pal Leggs. She took her own hiatus from www.leggsndacity.blogspot.com and she just returned today.

WELCOME BACK LEGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSS! Me and JBigg missed you mucho chica!

Ok... what was I saying?

Oh yeah... this past week I have experienced ups and downs but one thing was always certain... I kept it moving!

I received an email today that really brightened my mood.

Check it out...

"Philippians 4:13 --- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a
loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called
Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs.
But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called
Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make
it to a place called Success."

How about that for motivation?

When life hands you lemons... what the heck... make LEMONADE!

The End.

~Likeyourfoodandeatittoo!~

My BDay His Way...

2007-01-30T01:30:00.000Z

Hello Hiatus Readers!

I am back... it is two days after my crossover to 26, and I don't quite know how I feel. My party... well... we made the best out of what we had to work with. I will dedicate a post solely to that later. Back to me...

January 27th! My birthday! For 25 years everyone close to me has been making a "big deal" over my birthday. That day is always wonderful and it is all about me! At least I thought it was. You know when you are in a relationship with someone you like for "them" to make you feel special. Not everyone else.

Ok. I am rambling... let me get to the point.

Though his intentions were good King planned "my" bday around what "he" enjoyed doing. Don't get me wrong, it was really nice. We went to a nice bead store and he created a necklace for me (made with love). We then went to eat. Went back to his house. Went to a Jazz Club. It was a nice evening... however it didn't celebrate me on my day. I spend so much time worrying with life and not taking time for myself. This was the one day that I wanted everything to be about me. We did all the things he likes to do. It had very little to do with me. I was then "chastised" in way about how everyone (my close friends and family) makes a big deal about me... he compared it to a Puffy video with all the dancers, confetti, and trumpets. Lol... there is a tad bit of truth etched in there... if I am being honest with myself. He spent the night on and off of his Blackberry taking business calls. The night wasn't about me at all. I was being "fitted" into a schedule.

We took separate cars and I remember driving back to his house crying hysterically. Best believe I am not a cryer, but my feelings were really hurt. I just wanted his time and attention on MY day and I didn't get it. We have had conversation after conversation about it but I had to share the story with the world.

King is extremely private and won't want this published but this is bigger than him. This is about me and how I need to work through some issues that I am struggling with. So... was there a lesson learned from Rai's 26th birthday?

Sure was.

God has blessed me with a beautiful son, family/friends and a man who LOVES me his way. I love King for him and I would never attempt to turn him in to someone he isn't. He loves the way he loves. I love the way I love. He shared that time with me the way he does when he cares about someone. The fact that he is there when I need him is all that matters.

I am getting older and have more things to focus on.

Lets see...
What's next?

The End.

~26startedprettyrockyletsseewhereitendsup~

A Letter to Twenty Five

2007-01-26T20:22:00.000Z

Dear Twenty Five,

We had such a great year together. I learned so much from you. I had a chance to experience things that I thought I never would. I went places I had no idea existed. I met people whom I will never forget. For once my eyes were open to the "impossible dream". Lets just say, it's not impossible anymore. I let some people go that I thought I never would. Things happen for a reason. I have no regrets.

I learned some things about those around me that I never knew. People can be very underhanded and conniving. But... like Granny use to tell me, "It's not important what happens to you, but you reaction to what happens to you". Twenty five, you taught me how to react. For that I thank you. You also taught me that you can't let people determine your attitude, because attitude determines aptitude... and I am going as high as God has willed for me.

Well... our journey will end at 12am tonight (early morning). I will then be introduced to Twenty Six, I know you have prepared me for all he encompasses and for that I thank you. I will never forget you as long as I live. In comparison to all the years of my life, you are the one that will forever be etched in my heart.

Thank you, Twenty Five. You taught me how to live ... how to love... and how to laugh. You will be truly missed.

Yours Eternally,
Rai

The End.

~GoodBye25GoodLuck26!~

Ahh... 25 was Muy Bueno!

2007-01-24T22:43:00.000Z

Ok... 3 days to go until I turn 21 for the 5th time. Actually... I have no issues with my age. I am a fine almost 26 year old who has quite a few things going for herself. I must say... 25 was a PHENOMENAL year! I had a quite a few discoveries that were truly priceless.

I started 25 with a "Victoria's Secret" style lingerie party. It was truly wonderful. Everyone came and dressed accordingly. I looked at the tape of it a couple of weeks ago and I didn't even recognize the bombshell with the baby pink laced chemise and accompanying thong and strapless bra. I would be 95% less likely to behave or even dress that way this year.

I have an intimate ordeal planned with close friends. We are going to a nice lounge to have drinks and hear music on Friday... and Saturday (after I train at HAWC) it is all about da Kang and me!

I had a lot of issues coming into 25... but they have sorted themselves out. I truly have a better understanding of myself and what I have to offer to the world. It is truly amazing to look back at your growth and be proud of who you have become.

Achievements at 25:
*Regained my relationship with my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ
*Started WHEW (officially)
*Entered a wonderful relationship (still going strong!)
*Began working to empower the battered women at Houston Area Women's Center.
*Began to come into my own style and way of thinking
*Brought the focus back to me and stopped worrying about people's opinions
*Developed really strong bonds with 6 wonderful women (WHEW)
*Began writing my poetry

and last but not least...

Began Da Hiatus.

This blog is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. For once I am able to journal my feelings... and I get feedback from others. I know a lot of you my not agree with my views... especially those of you who know me and read this (thinking that I have no idea) assuming that I am speaking against you... trust... I am not.

Da Hiatus is about my perception of the events going on around me. It is as simple as that!

Well... as I glide into 26... I will never ever forget 25!

The End.

~Turning25keptmeAlive!~

Christianity at it's Finest!

2007-01-19T21:09:00.000Z

I am not one to share forwards (normally) but I ran across a lovely one today. It came from a dear friend of mine... Blessed. She is a sweetheart who always know what to say or do to make one feel good.

It was a poem by Mya Angelou (my favorite writer):

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I 'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Whew! Was that powerful or what? As soon as one gives their life to Christ and accepts Jesus as their Lord and Saviour, the judgement begins. Christians are people as well. We will never be perfect. That is why God gave His Son, for us. Understand that we will fall down, it is just important that we get up!

The End.

~"CauseImaChristiandoesn'tmakemeperfect!~

Ahh Anonymous Audience..

2007-01-18T22:26:00.000Z

In a really peculiar way it has been brought to my attention that I have a lot of anonymous readers out there. I know what you all are thinking...

This IS the World Wide Web! You have thousands of anonymous readers out there.

Duh.
I knew that.

I am talking about all those readers out there that actually know me and keep up with my blog to find out what I am "really" thinking. These people know me from all facets of life. They pass me every now and again and say "hi". I had no idea that these people even knew I had a blog... let alone read it. It puts a new twist on things. Obviously I am an open person, because I put my feelings on blast, but I didn't realize that some of the people I write about (though everything is anonymous) and my interactions with them are actually read... BY THEM!

Too cute.

I will continue to keep a certain anonymity on my blog, but know that these are just my personal feelings about... not YOU, but how our interaction affected my life. I am forever a positive person and I would never demean anyone... there is this thing called freedom of speech and I can view situations however I like. It is my right.

I love Da Hiatus, because it aids me in reflecting on life and the wonderful people I share it with. I want to thank my anonymous audience for keeping tabs on me. When you see me... instead of thinking about some things you read on my blog... ask me about it. I know who you are and believe it or not it is ok. I love each of you, because you have helped me merge into the woman I am today.

Thanks to all of my AA (Anonymous Audience).

May God Bless your lives. He sure has mine!

The End.

~Ahhtheartoftheanonymousaudience!~

Sun = OCD??? Hum.

2007-01-18T15:08:00.000Z

Ok... I just had to post about Sun today. In case this is your first time checking out Da Hiatus, Sunshine in my almost 4 (in 3 weeks) year old son. He is quite the character. A very loving little boy. There is just this one thing...

He is a Perfectionist.

Sun gives a new meaning to "color in between the lines". If everything isn't done to his liking, he totally freaks out. I mean TOTALLY. If he gets a drop of water on his shirt... "Mommmy! Put it in the dryer!". I am seriously talking about lengthy tantrum(ish) fits. Everything has to be in a certain order. When he plays with his cars, he lines them up. He will ask me to play with him, but if I get the cars out of (his) order... OMG! He totally freaks. If anyone looks at him the wrong way, he starts crying and runs to me, "Mommy! They aren't suppose to look at me! I don't want them to."

Is something wrong with this picture?

So, one day at work, during a "fit" one of my staff members kid, "OMG! Total OCD". I thought to myself, "Maybe he could slightly have OCD". I have not talked to professionals and I probably won't until I am positive he has it, but it does seems as though he may have a taste of it.

What is OCD?

According to Wikipedia...

Obsessive compulsive disorder is is a psychiatric disorder; more specifically, it is an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but it is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive, distressing, intrusive thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

They say that perfectionism does not equal OCD. Perfectionism has to be accompanied by obsessions or compulsions alone, or obsessions and compulsions, according to the DSM-IV-TR diagnostic criteria.

Typical Obsessions and Compulsions:

Obsessions are defined by:

1. Recurrent and persistent thoughts, impulses, or images that are experienced at some time during the disturbance, as intrusive and inappropriate and that cause marked anxiety or distress.
2. The thoughts, impulses, or images are not simply excessive worries about real-life problems.
3. The person attempts to ignore or suppress such thoughts, impulses, or images, or to neutralize them with some other thought or action.
4. The person recognizes that the obsessional thoughts, impulses, or images are a product of his or her own mind, and are not based in reality.

Compulsions are defined by:

1. Repetitive behaviors or mental acts that the person feels driven to perform in response to an obsession, or according to rules that must be applied rigidly.
2. The behaviors or mental acts are aimed at preventing or reducing distress or preventing some dreaded event or situation; however, these behaviors or mental acts either are not connected in a realistic way with what they are designed to neutralize or prevent or are clearly excessive.
3. In addition to these criteria, at some point during the course of the disorder, the sufferer must realize that his/her obsessions or compulsions are unreasonable or excessive. Moreover, the obsessions or compulsions must be time consuming (taking up more than one hour per day), cause distress, or cause impairment in social, occupational, or school functioning (Quick Reference from DSM-IV-TR, 2000). OCD often causes feelings similar to that of depression.

(Thanks to www.wikipedia.com for the info listed above.)

So... that was the official definition of OCD. Not sure if Sun has it, or will develop it over time, but he is really too obsessive and compulsive to be 3 (almost 4) years old. We will let him live life and see what happens.

The End.

~Coulditbe?DoesSunhaveOCD?~

BBBBBBRRRRRRRR... It's Cold in Here!

2007-01-17T21:10:00.000Z

Well, well, well... If you reside in certain parts of Texas (namely Dallas, Austin, San Antonio and Houston areas), you are indeed cold right now. It was 33 degrees out this morning (here in Houston) and raining to say the least. We both know what the two add up to. Sleet. Ice.

If you are reading this and you reside in the Northeast, so what? We know that you all see weather like this all the time. The point of the matter is... we don't! We are use to breezing through the winter months with 80 degree highs and 60 degree lows.

This is a bit much, to say the least.

I am probably one of the few that made it in to work today. The roads where I am located weren't too bad. Lets hope the same can be said about tonight. Businesses opened late and are closing early. Schools were out and roads were closed. It is truly a sight to see.

Here is the forecast for the remainder of the week: (Houston)

"Houston Metro Forecast
FINALLY ABOVE FREEZING

TODAY: Temperatures have slowly climbed above freezing in the Houston area, but heading west or north out of town we'll see those freezing temps hang on longer. The bridges and overpasses will remain troublesome in our northern & western counties.

TONIGHT: Houston should stay just above freezing with a few light showers continuing; however, the northern areas will see more freezing temperatures and more of the frozen stuff.

THURSDAY: Our northern counties (Montgomery north and westward) will remain under the ice storm warning until 11am. Temperatures will stay chilly with highs only in the mid 40s.

FRIDAY: Another cold front will sweep through and we'll have more rain chances as a result. This will not be an arctic front, but we won't warm up much through the weekend.

Stay tuned to KPRC Local 2 and Click2Houston.com for more information.

Stay warm and safe,
Jason (Local 2 Meteorologist)"

I pray that everyone is safe at this time. If you know anyone in any of these cities in Texas please check on them and ensure their safety. This is pretty much the buzz today. Everything is really going well for me. I am just continuing to stay warm and take care of Sun!

The End.

~Ooohiceyiceyisn'ttooniceynicey!~

A Day in the Hood!

2007-01-16T15:07:00.000Z

Saturday... Saturday...Saturday.

This past Saturday, January 13th (my older brother's birthday by the way) I spent the day on MLK (Martin Luther King Boulevard). Ok... you assumed right... I was in the heart of the 'hood. By hood I mean I was deep in the midst of a predominately black neighborhood. I am black as well, and raised (by way of my Granmomma) in the same surroundings, so no biggie.

In case you all have never been in a "culturally" black neighborhood, it takes some getting use to if you are unfamiliar. I love my people, I really do, they just have a really "unique" way of doing things. Let me explain...

First things first...

We went to the Beauty Supply House. Don't get it twisted... this is no Sally's or Ulta. Kim and Lin (two Asian women) are working in a building that sells everything from weaves to wigs to cosmetics to hair products to watches to clothes to shoes to designer bags... EVERYTHING. I'll give you an example, I spent $16.00 and I bought the following: 2 hats, a lip liner, a lipstick, a lip gloss, and 4 eyeshadow pallets. Whew... I would have spent quadruple that if I would have headed over to Mac (which I love by the way... I love my friend's 60% employee discount even more!). I was so excited because I had not been into a Beauty Supply like this in so long. It was so good to get out of my suburban neighborhood for a while to remember where I came from.

It was a really good thing!

Next...

We head over to King's Best Market. Let's see... how can I explain it. Those of you from Dallas, would say it is very comparable to Big T Bazaar. It was also featured in a Lil Flip video... I can't remember which one. Basically it is a Flea Market... one stop shop. You can do anything from getting an outfit to finding some new rims to getting some burned Cd's to getting a "piece and chain" to getting your hair done to taking some pictures to getting a grill to getting a tattoo! I was so nostalgic walking through this massive place. It reminded me of home... Dallas.

Reflection...

I live in a very nice suburban neighborhood here in Houston. I once lived in the 'hood my 1st and 2nd times living in Houston, not to mention my visits growing up to my Grandparents in Oak Cliff and South Dallas. It just makes me feel good to see how far I have come and it makes me want to go back and make a difference in the lives of those that are still there.

Ah... the journey of life!

The End.

~It'sallgoodwhenyoutaketimetogobacktotheHood!~

We Are the Dream!

2007-01-15T21:44:00.000Z

HAPPY MLK Day to All!!!

This is truly a day to celebrate. The life of Dr. Martin Luther King was certainly benificial to us all!

Just think over 40 years ago Dr. MLK was fighting for the equality of ALL people. Even after slavery was over, black people were still treated like second class citizens. MLK's dream was that all ethnicities of people could reside in this world while experiencing equal opportunities to pursue life, liberty, and happiness. What a dream. I was not even born during MLK's era, but he lives through me everyday that I walk into my office at work, the bathroom along side white women, and on the bus (siting where ever I so chose).

People of all ethnicities are living Dr. King's Dream. His legacy will live in the hearts of us forever.

In case you have been in a cave for the last 43 almost 44 years and haven't heard or read his I Have A Dream Speech, you should definitely take time to listen to and/or read it. Enlightment at it's finest!

On a Personal Note

Today is such a cold and rainy day. School was out, so there were tons of kids at work today. We are expecting rain and extreme cold. You know what that equals... sleet and it is no fun driving in sleet!

My organization participated in the We Are the Dream Silent March and Rally on Saturday. It was WONDROUS. It was good to pay homage to such a wonderful man.

WWJD? The Telemarketer Twist!

2007-01-12T15:27:00.000Z

Ok... I received a forward yesterday stating (and I quote):

"Just a Reminder---- THE FIRST WEEK OF JANUARY, ALL CELL PHONE NUMBERS A RE BEING RELEASED TO TELEMARKETING COMPANIES A ND YOU WILL START TO RECEIVE SALE CALLS........YOU WILL BE CHARGED FOR THESE CALLS..... .
To prevent this, call the following number from your cell phone: 888-382-1222. It is the National DO NOT CALL LIST. It will only take a minute of your time. It blocks your number for 5 years.
HELP OTHERS BY PASSING THIS ON TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS OR GO TO: http://www.donotcall.gov/"

I paid little attention to this, because I had never had to deal with Telemarketers on my cell.

Until this morning!

While hard at work, my cell phone rings. There is clearly a 1-800 number on my caller ID. I answer it only to hear, "Congratulations! You have been entered to receive a 25,000 cash prize, or a trip to Jamaica!". I then had two options, hang up the phone (or not answer it initially) or listen to the lady. I thought...

What would Jesus Do?

So, I listened intently to her. At the end of her spill I politely declined the offer. I was so nice and cordial, she had no choice but to respect my decision. She thanked me for listening. I wished her a good day. All was great.

The moral of the story is to treat all people with dignity and respect. Telemarketers and bill collectors are simply doing their job. They are trying to make a living just as you are, and they deserve respect (unless they get out of line!).

The End.

~JustwhenyouthoughtyouknewyourememberedwhatJesuswoulddo!~

Soooo... thats what happens when you have F A I T H!

2007-01-12T02:41:00.000Z

Faith changes EVERYTHING! I double dog dare you to believe. People spend so much time worrying about what is wrong with the world, they don't spend time enjoying life. I too can be added to the list at times. Life starts to get stressful and we begin to give up.

No...no...no...

That is not the way it works. (As stated in the previous post) Faith does not deter us from experiencing hardships, it gets us through those hardships. I am a single mother with limited funds. I did not come from the best personal situation.

You know what?

I still have faith that there will be a brighter day. You know what the best part is? I actually believe and is living in it.

I was so stressed out earlier this week because I would have to train to volunteer at the Women's Shelter two evenings a week, that I normally work. I was afraid that my boss wouldn't understand and would make me choose. I prayed and trusted in God about the situation, and guess what?

I spoke with my boss today and he is behind me 100%. I have my priorities in order and I will not neglect my obligations in any way. Nothing else matters when you believe. God puts ideas in our hearts for a reason. We need to follow him and allow him to push us into our destiny.

We can do all things through Christ!

Just think about it!

The End.

~OoohIaminlovewithfaith!~

Pennies in My Pocket

2007-01-11T18:07:00.000Z

What a night. Yesterday was truly something to recall. I have been "stressing" (not really, but in a way), about the added responsibilities of my job and working at the Women's Shelter. The training will be really intense and take me away from my usual working hours, only for a month. I trust in God and have faith that everything will work itself out. Yesterday evening I found myself getting over it when mayhem erupted at work.

I absolutely LOVE my job. I work in the fitness industry and it has truly been a blessing to see people attain their fitness goals. I manage 25 females, and let me tell you. It is not easy. Not to go too much into detail, one of my employees went COMPLETELY OFF on another one of my employees. It was in clear view of patrons of the establishment, and truly embarrassing for me, as the manager, and for her has the "disgruntled one". It truly put me in a not so comfortable position. I am strong and can endure anything that heads my way. This was a bit much to say the least.

But, I view it as...

A Penny in my Pocket!

We have to understand that certain life experiences gets us prepared for our destiny. The event proved to me that I am a natural born leader, and I can handle obstacles that come my way. Faith doesn't stop you from having certain experiences, but it certainly gets you through them. The staff member in question is a young woman, who is just beginning to experience life. She hasn't came into the woman she was predestined to be, and is having growing pains. It happens to the best of us.

While I am understanding. I am not a fool. You must behave professionally when you are at your work place. Who doesn't know and understand that? I took the necessary action in this case. You figure it out!

I consider my handling of this situation as "pennies in my pocket", because it is my confirmation that I am headed towards greatness. The fact that I was able to calmly assess and handle the situation says TONS about my character.

1 Penny Down.
Millions to go.

The End.

~OhhhIlovehavingpenniesinmypocket!~

Baby Blues...

2007-01-10T02:12:00.000Z

Ok... I turn the BIG 2 6 in 18 days and I officially have the Baby Blues!

Actually it should be more appropriately titled, the Family Blues. I always said I would spend my 20's having children and my 30's raising them. I am a couple of weeks short of 26 and I have 1 son, 1 baby daddy, and a boyfriend.

Whoa... did I get lost somewhere?

I so want to have the husband, kids, house, cars, trips, picket fence, and dog. I have four years to get the ball rolling. I am officially not getting any younger. I just found 3 more gray hairs hiding around the crown of my head. Best believe I am beautiful... I just see my youth slowly diminishing. Maybe it is just me. At any rate... I am indeed ready. I would never consider being ready to the point of settling. And believe me... I am not settling. Ok... ok... I am rambling!

Here is what I want. Promise me you won't tell King. I don't want to scare him. I can be a bit much at times...

By 26 1/2 I want to be engaged and planning my wedding. My Non-Profit will be doing great and I will be self-employed. I will walk down the isle shortly after my 27th birthday. By 28 I will be pregnant with the 1st of three children with my husband (Sun was a bonus inheritance).
I will spend the next 3 years pregnant and having babies. That will put me at a husband and 5 kids by 31. Not too bad. King has a son and so do I, so that’s 2... I will add the three after marriage.

I want to spend my thirties enjoying my husband, children, and life.

Man! I vented indeed. I guess I just took time to think about my future. I am so ready!

Enough mushiness.
The End.

~Ahthebabybluesarerulingmerightaboutnow!~

Exciting News!

2007-01-10T02:05:00.000Z

Well, well, well...

Twenty four hours ago I experienced the ultimate. For me at least. Next week I start my training to work at the Houston Area Women's Center (www.hawc.org). I went to the orientation last night. I convened around this time last night. I am so excited about helping my community.

HAWC aids victims of domestic and sexual abuse. I so look forward to empowering a woman to change her situation.

Let's See... what else...

More to come soon.

The End.

~Whatadaywhataday~

Hard Timez

2007-01-05T02:58:00.000Z

I called my bank today and they told me of the $10.84 I had left in my checking account. I began to panic. I have no groceries and working with a half a tank of gas in my car. Not to mention the fact that my check engine light is on. God is going to make a way. I am sure. It is just a trip to look at my financial situation.

I am so broke those pennies in my astray gives me hope.
I am so broke I actually ate left overs (4 days old).
I am so broke I haven't ate a full meal in 48 hours.
I am so broke I go visit King in anticipation of a good meal.
I am so broke I actually thought about eating that meat that has been in freezer for four months. I am so broke I haven't went any where other than work to save gas.
I am so broke the $5.00 in my savings account looks appealing.
I am so broke I thought about just taking the mold off of the bread and eating it anyway.
I am so broke I get excited at seeing the corner of cereal left in the box.
I am so broke I can't pay attention.
I am so broke I had to swim up the creek 'cause I couldn't afford the paddle, let alone the boat!

Simply, I'm just broke.

The End.

p.s.
I get paid on the 9th!

~Beingbrokegivesyouhopethatthereissomethinggreatyettocome~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-05T02:44:00.000Z

Ok... ok... I know we are four days into the New Year, but I hope it has been nothing but prosperous for each of you. NO, I didn't disappear off of the face of the earth. I have just been getting use to the New Year. I could tell that a few of you all (at least) missed me, because I received a couple of calls and emails from a few people that I rarely talk to, but always keep up with me via my blog.

Awe... I feel so special.

So, I am not down with New Year Resolutions. We always resolve to do something, but just like soda, our desire loses its fizz around March. I work in a gym, and lets just say, some of the people I have seen come in, I hadn't seen since around March ('06). I'll give them all props for attempting to get the fitness right!

I resolve to do nothing! I am continuing on my path of financial freedom, a wonderful family life, and a BANGING BOD! All of these things are in the works, and have been since last year. I am just keeping it moving.

Ok...ok... Ya'll broke me. Without even trying. There are a few things that I do want for myself here in the new year. I would like to be headed towards marriage by years end. I want to add to my family. Yup. I want to give Sun a little playmate "Joy", in '08. I also want my Women's group to prosper and begin to get closer and closer to my destiny.

Ok... I don't consider those "wants" resolutions in no shape or form. They are simply things I am going to continue pushing for in the New Year.

I will make it my duty to update this blog more often then I have.
Bare with me.
I am making moves here in '07 (Already!)

The End.

~ThisNewYearwillbeHappyevenifitkillsme!~

"Rai"diant Confessions.

2006-12-29T02:26:00.001Z

Hello Faithful Hiatus Followers...

I have so much to say and so little time to stuff it into. Lets see... where to start?

Spirituality...

I am so in love with God right now! This past year has been such a blessing for me. Even though it hasn't been easy all of the time, I have learned so so very much. I have evolved into the woman I was intended to be. I spend my nights meditating and thinking Him for being Him and for all that he has blessed me and the world with. Sunday is solely dedicated to the worshipping of my heavenly Father (going to church). There is no such thing as "luck", God orders our steps. Believe that!

Relationship...

I am still madly in L O V E with King. It is complicated... ok, not really, I figured it out... I UNCONDITIONALLY love him. That is the problem with a lot of relationships. People love with conditions. To truly love someone is to accept them unconditionally, while giving them the utmost respect, and ensuring that they are reciprocating the exact same feelings back to you. There will be times when you don't understand them, but that is not solely important heck, I don't understand myself sometimes. How can I expect someone else to understand me? When you love and find unconditional love... it is truly blissful.

Friendships...

I have three really... really... close friends. They are more like fam and I love to pieces. Two are males and one is a female. These three have truly showed their love for me over the last two weeks. They have had my back, and shown me the reason why I call them true friends. It is WONDROUS indeed. All of my WHEW members are also close friends indeed.

I have recently embarked on a new friendship. Let me preface the following by saying, I am not the "Hi, I'm Rai, lets go home and bake cookies" type. I am really careful about who I call friend. I did meet a very interesting lady... I will call her Little Bombshell, she has a BIG personality in that small frame of hers. We met at church quite a bit ago. We didn't talk much until we ended up riding to Dallas together for the holidays. I learned so much from her. She is from the Chicago/Indiana area and has few friends down here in Houston. I really look forward to embarking on a friendship with her.

WHEW!...

I am so EXCITED about my Women's Network! It is going so well thus far. I look forward to all good things in the up and coming year!

Family...

It was so GREAT to spend time with "Momma Nem" (read: mother, brother, grandmother, aunts, uncles, cousins etc...). I ended up going to Dallas by myself this Christmas season. Sun stay with CK and his family. It was really weird to spend Christmas without my dear Sun. He had a blast though. He was showered with so much love, not to mention the G I F T S! This season has truly been a time for rest, relaxation, and recuperation!

Fitness...

Due to the flu, I have been out of commission for awhile, but I do still teach my strip tease aerobics class. I will go back into full throttle at the beginning of the year!

This totally recaps my being for the last couple of weeks.

The End.

~ImustconfessIamtrulyBlessed!~

Eleven Days... and I'm Back!

2006-12-27T22:38:00.000Z

Hello Hiatus Members!

It is so wonderful to be back! I spent almost 2 weeks on a Hiatus, from "Da Hiatus". So much has happened in the past 11 days... Everything, from the flu... to chasing Sun... to a road trip with a new friend... to an evening with old friends... to QT with Momma G... to an evening with the Fam... to an express flight... to being stood up (again) by King!

WHEW!!!

Where to start... where to start?????????

I will spend the remainder of the year (4 days to go) reflecting on the past two weeks and I will count down my top ten blogs of the year! I will need your help... check out some of my past posts and comment on them (it will send me an email) and I will include them on my year in review!

Ok... I will find a place to start.
Check out the following post!

The End.

~Oooohhitfeelsgoodtobeback~

Men and Women and Sex Outside of Committment

2006-12-16T18:48:00.000Z

Hey Ladies!

I was pondering life awhile ago, and it hit me! I figured it out.

Ok... I know what you all are thinking, "Figured what out?".

How men and women view sex outside of committed relationships .

Men:

Men want It (sex) and once they get It, they don't want it anymore (the replacement journey begins).

Basically, curiosity is the best way to really know if a man is truly interested in you. Once you give up the "goodies", regardless of what he may say, your worth lessens. He may want to "hit it" occasionally, but soon you will become replaced by the next unsuspecting woman. Make him wait ladies. Embarking on a sexual relationship too soon opens the door to confusion. I will explain more later.

Women:

Women want It (sex) and once they get It, they want more (a relationship, plus more sex!).

Regardless of what we may say, once we give ourselves to a man intimately we begin to develop feelings for him (if they were not apparent prior to sleeping with him). We long for someone to love and take care of us. It's ok ladies, it is in our genetic make up. Whether we want to admit it or not, that is how it is. We attempt to change men that may not be what we want him to be upon initially meeting him. I will be the first to admit it. As soon as the panties drop to the floor, we began to explore the relationship avenue.

Confusion's Door...
Now, I see why there are so many people involved in jacked up relationships. Men and women are obvious on two totally different pages of two different books when it comes to sex, outside of committed relationships.

Women think they can handle simply being a "booty call", but the fact of the matter is WE CAN'T. WE are not men. We value ourselves too much to spend life as a "booty call". We may say, "Girl, I don't care!" or "I just want him for one thing!". It always begins that way. Then we can't explain why we are checking his messages, and firing 21 questions his way. But we don't care. Yeah right!

Men get with women and "keep it real", by telling them that they are not ready to be exclusive, but they behave in "boyfriend" ways. I actually have to commend those men who are 100% honest with women about their intentions. Women... when a man shows you who he is... BELIEVE HIM! Stop living in your dream world. There is a man out there destined to be with you... wait for him.

At the End of the Day:

Men and Women possess equally opposite opinions and ideals about relationships. We will never totally understand each other. What is most important, is that we stop leading each other on. There are millions of people infected with STD's, children who grow up with out their fathers, and marriages destroyed by sex outside of commitment. There is a bigger picture people. Let's be the source of change, and begin to respect ourselves, and each other and enjoy sex in the confines of marriage or (for those of you that just can't wait) a committed relationship.

Be Safe.

The End.

~Sexissomuchbetterwithcommitment~

That Darn Dorothy D.!

2006-12-15T00:09:00.001Z

I recently watched Carmen Jones, and just loved Dorothy Dandridge! What a beautiful and talented lady. I just had to post a pic.

The End.

~GottaloveDorothyD.~

The "Sun" Shines

2006-12-14T22:54:00.000Z

I think I neglected to tell you all this ... but Sun really showed his behind, about 2 weeks ago.

*Prefaces this story by stating that CK entered into a relationship with "Cozy" (as she seems to be the warm, cuddly, and snugly type).*

It was a typical Sunday evening, and I had expressed to Confused K that I would be picking Sun up around 10pm, as I had an engagement that I was attending. CK agreed and everything was set up. Well into my evening (about 8pm to be exact) I called to tell him I would be a tad bit later than the agreed 10pm. Time would be pushed back to 11pm. CK obliged, and upon the conclusion of our conversation, I hear Sun in the background screaming, "Mommy! Mommm! Is that Mommy?!? I want to talk to my Mommmmmmmmmy!". I was immediately startled and asked CK to put my Baby on the phone. And so he did.

Sun: "Mommy?"
Me: "Yes baby?"
Sun: "Cozy's here!"
Me: "OK baby, that's good. Are you all having a good time?"
Sun: "Mommy, you want to speak to her?"

Before I had a chance to answer. Cozy is clearly audible on the other end.

*Let me further preface the remainder of this statement by saying, I have clearly moved on from CK. I appreciate the fact that he is Sun's father, but that is it. I harbor no "secret" feelings for him.*

Cozy seemed to be a very nice young lady. She complimented me on doing such a good job "raising" Sun, and seemed really kind, and peaceful. She stated that she couldn't wait to see me, and that was the conclusion of the conversation.

Later that night I met her.

I must say... she seems like the perfect fit for CK. She is the total OPPOSITE of me (we are equally beautiful- in TOTALLY different ways). I would describe her as being "warm" and "cozy". I would be defined as more "hot" and "spicy". CK definitely could not handle spiciness... warm is a better fit for him.

I wish them nothing but the best in their relationship...

as long as it doesn't interfere with Sun's 20%, that's all that matters!

The End.

~TheSunShinesonceagain!~

Cough...Cough...AACCCHEEEEEEEWWW! I'm Back!

2006-12-13T23:47:00.000Z

*Sniffles as she snuggles close to her keyboard.*

Hello Ladies and Gents.

I am indeed back. Sooooo much to talk about, sooo little time. I have spent the last 48 hours with "Flu-like" symptoms. I dare not claim having the flu.

Screams in my best "Church Preacher Voice, "THE DEVIL IS A LIE!"

I have really missed you guys. It is really therapeutic for me to write. I have figured out a lot of things, as far as my future is concerned. I have really had time to reflect on life and the reason He put me here on the earth. I will chill out on the relationship posts for awhile. It is coming up on the end of the year and I will reflect on and nurture me. That is where it starts. We spend too much time worrying about relationships. I am the first to admit it. I have so much that He has placed ME here to do, I need to focus on that.

So, nothing but fun, uplifting posts from me (for awhile at least). I am spending time working on my Sister Circle and getting things off of the ground.

I will end this post with something OUTRAGEOUS, that I figured out during my 48 hour bed rest.

I found out that Houston is one of the stops along a train track (www.amtrak.com), that takes passengers to various cities throughout the U.S. I am going home (Dallas), for the holidays, so I thought it would be fun to catch the train (since Sun won't be with me). I called the 1-800 number to get more info. The news was amazing!

Now, from Houston (TX) to Dallas (TX), it is about 295 miles, which adds up to a 3 1/2 hour car ride. As I sat listening to the automated lady tell me the itinerary I was truly AMAZED! The only available train would depart at 9:50pm Wednesday night (12-20-06), and would arrive in Dallas at 3:30pm (12-21-06). Now... call me sheltered... call me ignorant... but how in the heck is it going to take 17 hours to get 295 miles by train!

Best believe that idea was 86'ed before "she" could finish her sentence.

I would love to ride Amtrak one day, however I would have to be accompanied by someone and be going out of state (for the Adventure of it).

I am tired...

The End.

~AAAACCCCCCCHEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW!~

1214 Monica Street

2006-12-05T20:41:00.000Z

I have to spend this post reflecting on a moment in time. While spending the day with my Mom and Sun (Sunday after Thanksgiving), we pasted by a new subdivision of houses that were being built close to her neighborhood. We decided to stop and look in a few of the houses.

First Stop...

1214 Monica St.

Upon getting out of the car, I was consumed by this MASSIVE Castle-like house. It was truly astonishing. Sun ran up the steps screaming... "Mommy, is this MY house?". He was so excited. After opening the HUGE oak door we looked up only to notice an extremely high ceiling, peering downward we were greeted by beautiful hard wood floors. To the right was an office. EVERY thing in this house was MASSIVE. The office had ceiling to floor built-in wooden bookcases. There was a circular window that accented the room.

After exiting the office, the was a formal dining area with a beautiful chandelier. The den area was across the HUGE walk way. The kitchen was BEAUTIFUL with stainless steel appliances and an "ole school" gas stove. The Master Suite (located downstairs) was WONDROUS, the best part about this room was the closet. You all have seen cribs, correct? The closet was split into "his" and "hers" sides. There were built-in drawers, and clothes racks up to the ceiling. The closet was the size of a small bedroom. All in all downstairs was great! Two bedrooms (Master and Guest) 2 1/2 baths, kitchen, formal dining room, den, formal living area, kitchen, two stair cases (front of house and in kitchen). A HUGE backyard with a long porch for stair gazing.

Everything upstairs was really nice. Three bedrooms, two baths, a game room, balcony, and... a theater. From the game room I noticed steps leading up to a door. I walked up and opened them. A theater room, equipped with a square of wall for the projector (for watching films). There was a small refrigerator and microwave for heating up snacks. The room could fit about 15 comfortably. After exiting the room I noticed a balcony. I walked out and took in the sunshine. It was truly relaxing.

Momma G, Sun, and myself headed back downstairs, and out the door. This 6,000 square foot of a house would have to remain in my dreams...

For Now.

I took so much from 1214 Monica Street. I left there believing in myself, and my dreams. With hard work and dedication to my craft, I too can enjoy luxury as such. This was more than just a house to me. This house was symbolic of my life. Anything worth having is worth working for. I can't wait to have my 1214 Monica Street one day. I know that God put me on that street, on that day for a reason.

I will be birthed into my destiny!

The End.

~OooohIwantmyplaceonMonicaStreet!~

I'll Stay with You (Him)

2006-12-04T20:48:00.000Z

After a roller coaster weekend, I am back. The song in my head nowadays, is Stay with You (John Legend's; Get Lifted Album). I spent the weekend thinking about the relationship King and I have.

We have a WONDERFUL relationship. Yes, he is busy with his career. He does put me off sometimes. But, he is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me (relationship wise). We get it. We understand each other 110% of the time. I am just a spoiled Princess, who wants to be acknowledged 110% of the time.

I went to an event of his (on Sunday) and it was AMAZING to see him. I missed him so so so very much. I will give a brief recap of our interaction this weekend.

Friday, December 1, 2006

King shows up at my house (not planned).
We talked and planned to hang out the next day.

Saturday, December 2, 2006

I hadn't heard from him all day, so I made plans with friends.
He called after my plans were made.
I didn't change them.
We had "a talk".
A relationship evaluation "talk".

~Pause~
Thanks to all Da Hiatus readers for hearing me out while I vented, in the previous posts. I simply needed an ear (eye lol!). I love King more than anything, and I appreciate everything that he has brought to the relationship.

Don't get it twisted. King is my SOUL MATE. Our relationship is bigger than us. God had so much to do with it. We were predestined to be together. God brought him to me, but it is up to us both to continue to nurture what we have so graciously been given. So what. He puts me on hold to take control of his destiny (by nurturing his career). I am a Big Girl. I am not going any where.

Sunday, December 3, 2006

I attended an event of Kings.
It felt so good to see him.
We hung out and grabbed a bite to eat.
Had a "real" conversation via the phone.

All in all. It's kinda like (what I call), the "Balloon Affect". I was all "blown up" (happy) initially about the relationship. Then slowly air leaked out. I slowly became deflated (by lack of time spent). After seeing, and spending time with him, I began to fill up again. But going through the last "rocky" month taught me a lot.

It's ok to vent.
Love and Respect really matter.
Intent is EVERYTHING.
Don't sweat the small stuff.

How could I get truly get mad at someone who is creating a future for themselves (for me to share with)?

A girl gots to vent though.

Enough relationship stuff!

(Walks off humming:)

Ooh I will stay with you

Through the ups and downs

I will stay with you

When no one else is around

And when the dark clouds arrive

I will stay by your side

I know we'll be alright

I will stay with you

The End.

~OohImmastaywithhim!~

He Must Not Know 'Bout ME...

2006-12-01T00:48:00.000Z

I had to start this post in ode to Beyonce's new joint "Irreplaceble". It talks about being in a relationship, that you don't feel 100% fulfilled by, and having a man treat you great, as if he is the only man in the world who is capable of aiding you in achieving those feelings.

Let me explain...

I guess this is "vent" week, 'cause I have been doing quite a bit of it lately. I am just TIRED...so, so, so TIRED. I am in a relationship, but NOT. I am so use to not spending time with my "mate", that I feel single. No, I haven't cheated on him, but how can you cheat on someone you aren't even with. We rarely talk, haven't spent quality time in about a month. I am attempting to do some major things in my life and he is too. What does that mean? If we are too busy for each other now, what is going to happen in a couple of months when things get even more hectic? I keep trying to ration with myself. I won't cheat on him because I respect him, and myself too much for that, but what is a girl to do? It is a no win situation. There is no point in cheating on him, because I couldn't care less about the rest of the men out here in the world. King isn't perfect... but he works... I am such in a place right now.

Two options...
Break up with someone who I feel completes me, only because he is in love with his career.

Stay with someone who totally ignores me and checks on me occasionally, to be "cordial".

We will have a conversation tonight. This is starting to bother me.
Enough of my problems.

I am a beautiful, intelligent, and caring individual and anyone would love to be involved with me. The only question would be, "Would he be the One?"

Feelings that King and I share are truly irreplacable. But...

He Must Not Know 'Bout Me!

The End.

~Itwillallmakesensetomorrow.~

Lonely in the Middle. Where she at? In the Middle!

2006-11-30T02:37:00.000Z

You all have to remember the hit in the late 80's, "Monie in the Middle". It was a really cool song. I use to sneak and listen to my brother's cassette when he was out. That is the topic of this post, because, it definitely describes my life right about now.

I have a wonderful relationship with God. Yes. I'm in a relationship. Yes. I am starting a Women's Movement to create social change in the world. Yes. I have a beautiful "Sun", and loving family. Yes. I am in peak physical condition. Yes.

What is missing.

Nothing really. I just feel like my life is extremely mediocre right now. God and me are GREAT! WHEW is in the Grass Roots phase- we are just starting. "Sun" is great- the typical 3yr. old. I am in GREAT physical condition, but I have room for improvement.

My Relationship...

I am in Love with a guy who is in love with his work. I understand and respect that. Too many women complain about how their men are complacent and fail to strive for financial freedom. I am dealing with an opposite situation. I continuously get ignored and left on the back burner. Why am I still around? I respect his ambition and drive. I am still a woman. I like to held, talked to, caressed, cared for. I believe "we" can have it all in a relationship. Why settle? Do I honestly feel like I am settling... Yes. and No. King is a wonderful man. It is just hard for me as a woman to be involved with someone who shows very little interest in me. I get all kinds of attention elsewhere. Do I care? No, they aren't important to me. My relationship is. I will continue to make efforts to communicate. I am only human though.

Ladies and Gentlemen!

There is this little thing called BALANCE! Women do it everyday. We CAN achieve it. We do not have to neglect certain things to achieve others. I understand and respect what King is doing... but, I don't have to have a man to feel single.

What to do? I continue doing me, and pray that God will lead and guide me in the right direction (He has thus far!).

The End.

~I'mgettingtiredofthemiddle!~

Chicken Chamber

2006-11-29T01:33:00.000Z

Hey Guys...

I have to share this story, as it is near and dear to my heart. I would like to share my story, so those of you all out there will not make the same mistake that I did.

Sorry King. I won't go into too much detail, as I understand that you are an extremely private person.

I really haven't spent any Quality Time with King in the last (almost) 3 weeks. I understand he has so much going on with work and all, so I have learned to adapt to it. I am actually cool with it. I have gotten acclimated to not spending much time with him.

Well, any who...

He came by (to nap) briefly on Monday, after I returned from Dallas. I had since came form good ole' Wally World purchasing some groceries. I knew he would indeed be tired and hungry, so I planned to prepare him a WONDROUS meal.

I seasoned and placed the Chicken Wings (I had purchased) in the oven. I then began to prepare the corn (on the cob), and broccoli. I slow cooked the chicken, so after about an hour or so I took it out to simmer. Pretty soon King woke up, and was indeed ready to eat.

I prepared his plate (I felt so Domesticated!) and placed it in front of him. Sun and I had eaten earlier, so we were not hungry. We sat... I talked... He ate. and ate. Then, out of the Blue he stopped me, and said...

"Bay, you didn't fully cook the chicken. It is still pink inside."

Two seconds later, that statement was followed by,

"I don't feel to good!"

OMG! Could I have just poisoned the Love of my Life? He felt terrible. He immediately left my house and headed home.

I don't know if I felt more embarrassed, or concerned. I am still honing my cooking skills. I must master Chicken Preparation, I would hate for someone else to get caught in the Chicken Chamber!

The End.

~OMGIcouldhavepossiblypoisonedmyman!~

Thanks to Giving!

2006-11-29T01:17:00.000Z

HELLO HIATUS READERS!!!!!!!!!!!

I am indeed back at the fore front, and I have lots to share! I won't go into massive details in this post but, I will "gently" recap my wonderful weekend with the fam! I will confess. I missed you all terribly. I have LOTS to share!

Let's get started!!!

Thursday, November 23rd
Arrived in Dallas 2am on Thanksgiving Day.
Woke up and relaxed my hair (Momma G wanted to do it).
Head to Grandmomma;s House.
Need I say more?
Ate...Ate...Ate!
Spent quality time with the family!

Friday, November 24th
Woke up and headed straight to Yoga at 8:15pm
Spent the whole day with Momma G, (Ry-Ry: my niece) and Sunshine!
Ran random errands, and tucked in for the night.

Saturday, November 25th
Woke up and took a run in the neighborhood (boy was it nice!)
Went to lunch with a ex-co-worker/friend.
Took Sun for some fresh air.
Ran more errands.
Headed to Head's Loft Downtown (my BestFriend since 5th grade!)
PARTY TIME! (I actually chose one day for a night out on the town. It was truly AMAZING.
Headed to BUZZ BREW's for some late night (early morning grub: 4:45am).
Ended up at Head's and called it a night (morning ;o))!

Sunday, November 26th
Woke up.
Showered.
Momma G and Sun picked me up.
Headed back out to MG's house.
Grubbed.
Played with my niece.
Senator picked us up as we headed back to Houston.

In a nutshell, Dallas was fun as usual. For once, I was able to relax and spend some QT with the fam. It was truly invigorating. My family saw Sun for the first time in 6 months. Let;s just say, spoiled isn't the word.

This is just the tip of the ice berg. I will elaborate more in later posts.

The End.

~Dallaswasfunasusual!~

It's Almost Time to Say Goodbye...

2006-11-22T02:17:00.000Z

At least for a couple of days! No, I am not ditching Da Hiatus (though, the months are numbered, as I will be propelled into my destiny, thus putting me back in the Lime Light!), I am heading....

Up 45North AGAIN!!!

Ima see my Momma, Ima see my Momma, Ima see my Momma!

As Thanksgiving Day rapidly approaches, I can't help but to feel elated about seeing my family for the holidays. I will be heading on up to Dallas to See "Momma Nem" (read: my mother, brother, niece, grandmother, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc..) I am too excited!

I have some really interesting things to post about, but due to the time restraints I am under tonight, I will not be able to. Don't worry! I am taking notes, and will update you when I get back. Don't expect an update post any time before Monday, November, 27th.

I want to wish EVERYONE reading this, a happy, safe, and blessed Thanksgiving. May you enjoy spending quality time with your loved ones.

In the mean time. I will prepare for my:
Greens/hotwatercornbread/dressingwithcranberrysauce/yams/friedchicken/Grandy'srolls
poundcake/ and we can't forget... Grandmomma's Sweet Tea!

The End.

~HaveaHappyThanksgiving!~

He Thought He was Gonna Get Some

2006-11-19T21:38:00.000Z

Ok... here's the deal. I was totally ELATED about getting the DBA for WHEW this weekend, so I decided to go out and celebrate. The girls would be coming over for a meeting on Saturday, so I decided to go out and kick it with the fellas (Friday night). Let me preface the story by saying, for years my closest friends were males. I rarely hung out with women.

So I call up the guys and we plan to hang out at a really fly Sushi spot in the Galleria area (a really great mall in the Houston area). I met up with them at the spot around 9pm. Among the guys there was one by the name of Doc. who came along as well. We went to school together, and I hadn't seen him in years prior to "bumping" into him in Dallas during one of my visits this summer. He explained he was living in the Houston area, so we exchanged numbers. We had only hung out once (at a group event) prior to me inviting him out to the event on Friday. He is a really cool guy, who will make someone a wonderful mate one day.

Back to the story.

We (all of us) kicked it there for awhile at the Sushi bar, and then headed to a popular Houston late night hot spot. We kicked it, had drinks, and just when we thought the night was over, the fellas wanted to hit up a Gentleman's Club. I'll say we were there all of 30 minutes (it was truly painful to see those girls (formally myself- mentally! I have never stripped) placing a monetary value on their self worth and dignity), till we decided it was time to go. On my way home I called Doc. to thank him for coming out, when he showed interest in "coming by". I, not being in 100% me (mentally), figured he was drunk and didn't want to drive home, so I ok'ed him coming over.

The moment he walked into my apartment, I felt weird. We sat on the couch and something just didn't feel right. As he scooted a tad closer to me, I felt as though I would be physically sick. I LOVE King and I would never A. disrespect myself or B. disrespect him. I let Doc. know that I was in a relationship and if he was truly drunk, he was welcomed to stay the night on my couch. You know what he said...

"That's ok, I'll go now."

What does that tell me?...............

He thought he was gonna get some!

Did he really think I was about to have sex with him? I mean really. I value myself and the relationship I am in too much to do anything like that. I will admit ladies, you shouldn't even place yourself in certain positions. I will say this, it was not intentional. I sincerely thought he needed a place to crash, so he wouldn't in turn crash on the way home. I'll know next time, never mind, there will be no next time.

The moral of the story is, it is important to know and value yourslef first and foremost, before you expect someone else to do it for you.

The End.

~Thatniggareallythoughhewasabouttogetsome!~

WHEW... We are OFFICIAL!!!

2006-11-19T21:22:00.000Z

On Friday, November 17th, 2006, a received my DBA for my Women's Network. It is a single step towards getting all the things accomplished that I have longed for. I am ssssssssssooooooooo EXCITED! about all of the wonderful things that the Network is doing. God is truly blessing us. We are definitely on our way.

The group has been meeting for the past 7 months, but we were focusing on the empowerment (counseling) side of the organization. Now, we are getting down to business and it feels... GREAT! We have elected officers and now, the work begins!

I hope you will join me on the journey of a Lifetime, as you experience the evolution of W.omen H.elping E.mpower W.omen.

By the way... did I tell you all what it was about? If not... here is the spill:

What is WHEW?

We are a group of women who meet monthly to embrace, inspire, and empower one another. Words cannot express what a wonderful experience we have in Sisterhood! I founded WHEW with hopes of using everyday women to empower other women based on similar experiences they had lived through. I was inspired by all the stories of triumph I heard, as it pertained to the overcoming of everyday obstacles that we all face as women. I felt it was important that we unite together to create the change we ALL would like to see in in the world. Guess who it starts with? Us! In case you all have forgotten, Women Helping Empower Women is an organization whose main goal is to promote the physical, emotional, and mental balance in Women's lives. It is Women getting together to support, empower, and embrace each other. Ultimately we ALL have something to share with one another.

I have been just about EVERYWHERE and done just about EVERYTHING. I want to be a voice for that woman who is either too scared to or doesn't know how to speak for herself (I was once there). I know there are some of you who are reading this post now, who don't have anyone to talk to and are scared. I want you to relax and know that I am here. Feel free to shoot me an email at awhewthing@yahoo.com for an ear, or for further info on WHEW. We are based out of Houston, TX, but we fellowship via phone and email as well. We are Real Women Empowering Women.

The End.

~Justwhenyouthoughtyouknew...WHEW,comegetadose!~

?A Woman's Completion?

2006-11-17T00:41:00.000Z

I just have to pose this question to all of the faithful Hiatus readers out there. As you all know I am all into the business of Empowering Women. I mean, that's just what I do. After reviewing my life and past relationships, along with those I love and adore, I have one question for you all...

Does a woman only feel (totally) complete (with her life) when she is in a relationship?

I want you all to really think about this. I mean, let it marinate for a minute people. I am talking about feeling totally completed. I know women aspire to do things other than get married, but how important is marriage (relationships) to women? How much of the equation (in the completeness of life) does a relationship occupy?

I truly look forward to your feedback.

I spend so much time stating my opinion, it's your turn!

The End.

~Imeanthinkaboutit,doeshecompleyou?~

Off Da Chain!!!

2006-11-16T16:32:00.000Z

OMG! Forgive me for acting so "Brand New" in a way, but I saw the most interesting sight today on my way to work, A Chain Gang! I always pass a local prison on my way to work in the mornings. Other than the, "Don't Pick up Hitch Hikers" sign, you would have no idea that it was even a prison area.

Sooo... I am sitting at the light waiting to proceed to work, when I notice men on horses, suited with Cowboy Hats, and... yes... Guns! This peeks my interest, so I looked further in the distance and that's when I saw it! The CHAIN GANG! There were about 50 prisoners (in groups of 20) lined up with hoes, (not the one's they had before they entered the facility ;o) - the ones used for farming) manning the fields. They didn't wear stripes, and didn't have any physical chains on them (that I noticed), but they were indeed working hard.

I saw the look in their eyes as they watched us cruising in our cars. It was a certain sadness, that lacked hope. I truly felt the emotions they were conveying. It reminded me of a couple of scenes from the movie, Life. The only difference, was this was real life and it wasn't funny.

The End.

~Sometimesbeingoffdachaingetsyouonthechaingang!~

It Was A Hoax!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-16T02:36:00.000Z

King DID NOT, I repeat, DID NOT BREAK UP with ME! Bare with me, the last time someone told me, "We need to talk", he confessed that he had a wife (they were going through a divorce) and a illegitimate child (with someone else, not the wife). It was a true mess! I guess that is why I prepared myself for the worse.

King wanted to talk to me about a habit I have, that he could care less for, and the fact that I am a procrastinator. Can you believe that? He wants me to be a better person. Who would have thunk it? I dunno.

This proves that he is the man that I thought he was. I just need to step my game up and show him that I AM the woman he fell in love with. He brought up valid points. There are definitely things about me that need to change, in order to propel me into my DIVINE DESTINY!

The End.

~Humphthatwasit?~

Those 4 Words Women Despise...

2006-11-14T23:54:00.000Z

King and I spent the weekend together (as usual) we had a good time (I thought) the first half of the weekend. The second half started ok, but got weird later (Saturday Night). I remember it vividly. We were cleaning up and preparing for the nights shoot. I went upstairs to get dressed. He soon joined me up stairs. For some reason, he became one for little words. He normally would make conversation with me, but he said nothing. Seriously, he said all of ten words to me from the time we left the house, till we arrived at our destination. It was odd to me. This really "funny" feeling came over me. King and I communicate with out words, so I knew somethings was troubling him. I didn't make a big fuss because, he had work to do. But, indeed I felt it.

We preceded with the evening, which turned out pretty well. I had fun, meeting new and interesting people. King got the job done. I feel like, maybe he was uncomfortable with me coming along with him to work. I am not sure why, because I am not an overbearing (smothering type) girlfriend. I left him to do his work, while I mixed and mingled with the crowd. Well, the night ended, with little conversation. He was the most distant he had ever been (mentally) since March 26th (the day we met). He didn't hold me like he usually do when we fall asleep. He woke up early in the morning prepared to leave giving me a "half-a**" hug. He left, and I as well in preparation for church. I didn't hear from him till 11pm that night. We had a 2 min conversation and that was it. He didn't call me Monday (yesterday).

I won't lie! The count down begun yesterday. If I didn't hear from him today, it was going to be over, no questions asked. I admit it sounds childish, but I value you my feelings and self worth more than anything, and I refuse to "run after" ANYONE. I love King, I truly do, but I love myself more.

So I received a call from him today, and he said it. Those 4 Words Women Despise...

....................WE NEED TO TALK................

So, I'm sitting there like, "Uh.. ok.". He would prefer we talk in person, so he is coming over tomorrow night to talk. I must say, I did not see it coming, but who knows. I will say, that this was the best relationship I have ever been in. I have learned so much from him. If we do have the "break up" talk tomorrow, I can say, that I gave everything I had to make it work. There is a blessing in every lesson. I am so glad that I met someone like him. I am a mature woman who has a lot more than a "relationship" going for me. I appreciate every thing the past has taught me. I am in no rush for companionship, but it sure was good while it lasted (assuming it is the "break up talk"). If not, I know we can overcome whatever is plaguing his mind.

When you know you have given something, ANYTHING, your best, that is all that matters. I am still headstrong and a relationship will never define me.

Yes Ladies and Gentlemen... the "Rai"diant one did (after almost 8 months) hear those words. I try so hard to keep my private life private (as much as possible), but I just had to release my feelings!

I will keep you posted though!

The End.

~Bewareofthetalk!~

Heart Song...

2006-11-14T00:34:00.000Z

Ok... after a WONDERFUL Weekend (Mentally), I had to post about this. As humans, there are times in our lives when our situations (occupations, relationships, bills, family members) get us down. Why? At least that is what I had to ask myself yesterday. Why do we allow others to influence our day? Our happiness.

I was listening to Joel Osteen (Pastor of Mega Church, Lakewood, here in Houston), yesterday (before I left to attend my own church service) and he compared human beings to inflated balloons. We start our day (typically) all excited, happy, and ready to go. Then, we let "life" poke small holes in us. It's inevitable that eventually we will end up almost deflated by the end of the day. What could possibly revive us?

Osteen had a great point, a (what I would call) Heart Song, this is a positive song that aids us in enjoying life (by being positive) and helps us get through the day. I had to really think about it, but I have always had my heart song. It is a WONDERFUL song by Kirk Franklin titled, Imagine Me, a truly wonderful song (worth checking out the lyrics!).

All in all... God never ever EVER gives us more than we can bear! Look in your heart and find that song that guides you through your day. Believe me! It is worth a try!

The End.

~Isingsongsoftheheartandmypositivedestinyisinevitable!~

Rai Presents... the You've Gotta Be Kidding Me Awards!!!

2006-11-12T14:18:00.000Z

Hey Peoples...

It's been a few days and I just don't feel right not posting about SOMETHING! Actually, it is not so hard to choose something at this point. I am rounding up an AMAZINGLY insightful weekend. There is so much to say and only so little time. So.... I created....

The...

YOU'VE GOTTA Be KIDDING Me AWARDS!!!!!!!!!!!

Over the past 48 hours I have bumped in to quite a few... "characters", and I just had to give them some recognition. So, sit back, relax and I will guide you (day by day) through all the "fun" personalities I have encountered along the way. I will give you a little background on the reason behind my visits by enlightening you on the fact that I spent the weekend hanging out in Kings World. Too much fun, let me tell ya!

Friday, November 10th, 2006

Begins as any Friday would.
Woke up.
Got the kids fed and dressed. (Sun had a friend stay over- I will post more later)
Went to Yoga Class.
Stopped by Tarjay. (read: Target)
Took the kiddos to Chuck 'E Cheese.
Confused K picked up Sun from there. (Sun's friend's Mom picked her up as well)
Stopped by Happy Hour with a friend. (YoYo- will tell you more about her later as well)
you knew it was coming...
Headed over to Kings!

He told me about this industry mixer taking place. It sounded EXTREMELY interesting. It was where anyone who wanted to eventually be someone showed up to mingle with producers (in the TV industry). Any who, (not to get to deep into it) as King walked around talking to people, I was forced to adapt to my surroundings and relax. I met a couple of really interesting women and men to say the least. Models, actors(tresses), producers, screenwriters, and then it happened. I met the character of the night....

The YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING Me AWARD for Trophy Girl goes to..................................

"Blondie" (as I will call her) the, and I quote, "Professional Girlfriend!!!!!!!!"

I was too through when she told me this. I met her as I searched the room for King. He was talking to two guys and a girl. As I walk up, he introduced me to them and her. She immediately pulled me to the side and wanted to talk. The AMAZEMENT began there. Apparently, she is use to going to functions as such. She accompanies her boyfriend, looks really cute, and smiles and nod most of the night.

Saturday, November 11th, 2006

Starts out like a typical Saturday.
I wake up.
Shower.
Head to work.
Work.
Head back to King's House.
Prepare for the evening.

Let's see. I was invited (actually I volunteered) to go on a shoot with King. It was extremely interesting. It was shot at an Art Gallery, which was WONDROUS! I will dedicate a post to it later. It was a charity event that was truly AMAZING! I had some good wine, and met yet another interesting person....

THE YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING Me AWARD for Socialite goes to.........................

"Stuby"(as I call him), the (and I quote) "Professional Mingler!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Stuby was the cutest little guy I had ever seen. He stood about 5'1, and weighed in at around 175 and was around 45+ years old. He had a cute little balding head (he had the "comb over") and the cutest round face. He was telling me about his book on the Art of Mingling, and all his interesting endeavours. It was the most AMUSING 30 minute conversation of my life!

Soooooooooooooooooooooo.......... we leave the spot around 11:30pm and it was pass time to get some grub, so we headed to the one, the only International House of Pancakes (known as IHOP).
This would have been a regular late night meal if it hadn't been for my third and final Award winner. We were seated (by the hostess) then SHE came...........

The YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING Me AWARD For Coo Coo Bird goes to.......

"Loopy", the "Inebriated/High Waitress at IHOP!!!!!!!"

Talk about dilated pupils. This chick was obviously under the influence of SOMETHING! She talked to me for about 5 minutes a
bout some hair conditioner she got from the Dollar Store. Let's get real! Then she brought me a platter that had about 10 french fries on it. I assumed she ate the rest on the way to our table to drop them off. She was truly a character.

Well......... That's all I have for now from the YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING Me AWARDS. Tune in next time, when I go check out some more Houston Hot Spots!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The End.

~Thefunnypartaboutitwastheyweren'tkidding!~

Sunshine Attempts to Put Me Away for Good!

2006-11-09T02:42:00.000Z

I so thought I posted about this, but I guess I neglected to. The funniest thing happened last Friday, November 3rd, 2006, at around 5:30pm, while I was waiting for Confused K (Baby Daddy) to pick up Sunshine (Baby).

Sun is a fiery 3 almost four year old now. He is learning new things daily and test boundaries as well. I spent the whole Friday with him, just him. We didn't do the usual "work thing", I went to a Yoga class earlier in the day (leaving him in the play area at the gym for about an hour), then we headed to the library, Mickey D's, and back home. I was soooooo exhausted. Sun was begging to go to the park. Can you believe it? After ALL of that. The park! I was like, "No, Sun, you have done enough today!" He beg and pleaded. I reassured him time after time that his dad would pick him up shortly and they would have TONS OF FUN! After giving up the fight (so I thought), he settled for Dora the Explorer and a snack.

After getting him settled I figured it would be the best opportunity to shower (as I was going out after his departure). As I jumped in the shower he was running back and forth (I guess Dora was boring him), I kept yelling his name, to ensure that he had not left the apartment. After about ten minutes, I noticed it was very quiet. I yelled for him, "SSSSSSSSSUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNN!!!". No answer. I panicked. Jump out of the shower, soaking wet (naked). Ran to the bathroom door. I realized he had A. closed it and B. locked it. I unlock the door and swing it open. What the heck?

Sun had stacked my ottoman, dinning room chairs, his suitcase, and tons of toys in front of the door barricading (attempting to at least) me in the bathroom. I pushed all of the items out of the way and ran to my room. What did I see? Sun sitting on the bed with a granola bar in his mouth watching Dora. He took one look at me and said...

"How did you get out?"

Apparently my 3 year son was trying to get rid of me!

The End.

~Ohhhwhowouldhavethoughtmyownkidwouldtrytogetmecaughtup?"

Buuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... I Relasped!

2006-11-08T01:23:00.000Z

I am too too through with the "high and mighty" act with you Hiatus readers. It is far past time for me to start back keeping it real with you all. After I got my "Man" and everything, I started acting like, Bullet was a done deal.

Not the truth at all.

I have a couple of confessions to make. It is only right that I share them in this post. I am a person. I attempt to keep my life on track (what ever that means) but, I am still a person. Here's it my issue... A while back I discovered what a true orgasm was. For the first time I acheived one... get this... WITH OUT A MAN! I talked about this in my post, back in May titled, "Ode To Bullet " , where I just let myself go. I told about how I enjoyed indugling myself.

Just when I thought I had rid myself of the habit of BBBBBBBBUUUUUZZZZZZZing the evening/morning/mid day away, the thought crept back to me...

and...

I made myself comfortable. I remember it like it was yesterday (probably because it was yesterday)...

Sun was sitting quietly in the living area watching his morning PBS cartoons. I was running around attempting to finish breakfast, iron clothes, and pack my workout bag. I went into the bedroom, and check my top dresser drawer looking for something, when I noticed it. Yes, IT! It was Bullet IV starring up at me. He had a shine I had never saw before. It was truly WONDROUS. I immediately thought of all the good times we had, and I immediately went back into the living area to check on Sun. He was really into his cartoons and breakfast, he payed me no mind. With that, I quietly tipped back to my room (as not to startle him), closed the door, took out Bullet IV, and eased under the covers. ..............................................................

BBBBBBBUUUUUUUUUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

That was the only sound that could be heard. I achieved the ORGASM of my life! It was AAAAAAAAMMMMMAAAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZINNNNGGGGG!

I promise I am gonna chill out, from this point on.

Promise!

Bbbuuuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

The End.

~Bullentistrulyhypnotizing!~

ATTENTION LADIES!!! Your Health Starts with... YOU!

2006-11-07T01:06:00.000Z

I have been meaning to post about this topic FOREVER!

LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEESSSS!!!

When will we take responsibility for our physical health and fitness?

Time out for all of the excuses. You must take responsibility for you. We spend all of our time blaming it on the husband, kids, career, and everything else we can think of. When will we put the responsibility on ourselves? We determine our destiny. No one but Us.

I will tell you my story.

I gained upwards 100 pounds after the birth of my Sunshine. After giving birth, loosing a little of the weight, I stood 5'7 and weighed in at 190 lbs. I wasn't in the least bit of shape. I thought being big was my destiny. I figured, I had had a child, and my time to shine was over.

That was until I started working for a MAJOR fitness gym. While working there, I noticed there were women 10 to 15 years older than me, with 3 to 5 children, who were in IMPECCABLE shape. It was surreal. I looked at myself (then 22 years old) and thought, "I have no EXCUSE". I then began a work out regimen which included working out 5 times weekly, I changed my eating habits, and made more time for myself. Six months later... I looked at my 5'7 frame with 70 less pounds on it! Truly remarkable.

I received tons of "crackhead" jokes from friends, but I felt good about myself. That was 2 1/2 years ago. About 2 months ago, I noticed I had put on about 15 pounds (new relationships will do that to you if you aren't careful). I had to make a change in my life. AGAIN! Now I am a firm, toned, 135, size 6. It feels good. Though I am not as small as the fitness model above (Sara O.) We have similar body types.

I talk to and see women daily, who want desperately to make changes in their lives. They want to look and feel good, but don't know how. Let it be known that the point of this post is not to tell women what to do. Rather, I would like to enlighten you all on what work (ing) s for me.

Rai's (ways) of Fitness:

1. WILLPOWER: Ladies! You must want to change your body!

2. MIND over MATTER: It all starts in your mind. If you believe you can do it, trust me, you can! Changing your way of thinking is the beginning of the transformation.

3. NOURISH your TEMPLE: Be EXTREMELY selective about what you put in your body. It is really simple... EAT HEALTHY... not processed and or fried food, sugary junk food, high sodium foods, and too many starches. Try grilled lean meats and fish. Vegetables. Fruits (substituted for sweets). Leave the red meat ALONE. And PLEASE...PLEASE... DRINK WATER! Say bye bye to the sodas and a lot of the juices. It is too much sugar! You will notice that H2O hydrates you longer than anything else. Why waste time?

4. KEEP it MOVING: EXERCISE! EXERCISE! Ladies! You should be working out at least three times weekly for about an hour each session. "Working Out" consists of cardio (anything that gets your heart rate up... running, walking, jumping rope, etc...) and some form of resistance training (weights... start light and build up from there). If you are reading this post you must have Internet access. Get online. Check out fitness sites. Get a membership to a fitness center. Go to the park. Utilize the workout facility in your apartment complex. Do something!

All in all... It starts with YOU! I can write forever about changing your eating habits and working out more, but... you have to WANT to do it! If you don't aspire to look and feel better about yourself, it will never happen. Always remember... Any thing worth having is worth working for! You can earn a Million dollars by sitting on the couch eating "bon bons". A healthy happy body is worth far more than that.

Don't get it twisted. If you are 240 lbs, and reading this post, know that you don;t have to look like the model above. You maintain a weight that is healthy and right for YOU! Get a work out buddy, someone who is as adamant about weight loss as you are. Hold each other accountable for work outs and healthy eating habits.

You can do it!

For further info, check out these sites:

www.womenshealthmag.com

www.healthywomen.org

www.fitnessonline.com

www.fitness.nettop20.com

http://oxygenmag.com

The End.

~Ahealthyyoustartswithyou!~

Comments Any One?

2006-11-07T00:25:00.001Z

Ok! I have been on my Hiatus for the past 8 months (almost), and aside from a few Anonymous comment posters and my girl Leggs and buddy J Bigg, I hardly ever receive comments on my posts. Now, this has typically been ok, since I post from my heart and genuinely enjoy enlightening peoples lives.

But...

The craziest thing happened. The last post I posted (read: Panocha Pecking), was written from the heart. It was truly a random article that I happened to fall upon. Well, whatdoyouknow? The author of the article actually read my post and left a comment. I am assuming this was was either the Gustavo himself, or someone who has all of his log in information for OC Weekly, which by chance has AWESOME articles worth checking out.

I then came to the conclusion that (assuming he found my blog prior to the posting of the article) sssssssoooooooooo many of ya'll read my work, my life, and don't bother to comment. This could be a good thing or bad thing. I notice how many hits my counter has attained in the last 8 months, but there are no names to match the numbers with.

So...

I have a proposition for EVERYONE...

If you are reading this post now please comment. Nothing major, just let me know who you are.

This should be interesting.

The End.

~Commentingopensthedoortoanothersreality~

Panocha Pecking... Lacking on the Mexican Scene!

2006-11-05T01:36:00.000Z

First of all... you all know I am not the one to be down with all the stereotypes... but... I read the funniest article EVER!!!

This is how it started.

I took Sunshine out to Mickey D's on Friday. Prior to we stopped off by the library to pick up a few books. On the way out I picked up a Houston Press (a really cool weekly paper, featuring all things "hip" going on in the city). I threw it in my bag because I knew we were on the way to Mc. D. Well, as Sun sat there and munched on his french fries and nuggets (which he gets a couple of times tops monthly), I opened the paper and began to read.

They have a cute section titled Ask a Mexican. There are "Mexican" related questions, with a humorous twist. Well, one of the readers asked about a statistic he had heard, that stated that only 20% of Mexican men go down on their women. At this point I had a HUGE grin on my face and wanted to hear more. Basically, the host of the column stated that actually the percentage is more than that. More like 74% (of those surveyed). He also threw out the fact that once Mexican men come over to the U.S. (illegally or not), they are more likely to engage in the act of oral sex with their women.

Reasons (according the article) that Oral Sex isn't a big deal in Mexico.

Most Mexican women have sex to simply procreate.
Most Mexican women are ashamed of their bodies.
Mexican men would just "rather not".

Ok. I know I made some huge stereotypes. But, remember, this was simply a article I read. The hosts name is Gustavo Arellano (who is a Mexican). It is probably one of those things were he can talk about "his " people, but all others are encouraged not to. You know, the same way black people do. We can talk about our own... you better not!

I will say, I have a good friend, Leggs who is half Mexican and she has NO problem getting her Panocha Pecked!

The End.

~Anarticletoofunnynottopostabout!~

The Wal Mart/Convenience Store Debate. Which Would You Choose?

2006-11-03T02:33:00.000Z

Ok... I just had to post about this! By the way... HAPPY NOVEMBER!!!!!!!! I promise to post more this month. I took a Hiatus, for real last month, so now I am all rested up! Believe me!

Here Goes...

A dear friend and myself had a in depth conversation about relationships. We were talking about women (who would have thought?) and why they settle (in relationships) for less than what they deserve. My girl Leggs compared relationships to a Pizza (with all the toppings you like) and other foods (that we tend to settle for). I compared it to...

Wal Mart... and a Convenience Store.

Let's talk about good 'ole Wally World. I mean GOODNESS! How many times have you went to Wal Mart to get one thing, and end up leaving with two baskets and $200.00 less in your bank account (or charged to your credit card)? Why? Why is this? I will tell you. It is because Wal Mart has EVERYTHING you need PLUS more. How many places do you know that you can go to and get tampons, paint, a t.v., wheels for your car, cd's, a stroller for your baby, flowers, groceries and an outfit! I mean, all this under one roof! It is ssssssssooooooooo AMAZING. Those are the type of relationships that fulfill a women. She feels safe in the arms of someone that meets her every need (vice versa) AND more. We want the perfect fit for our lives. Some one we can be with and not even worry about the rest of the world and the goings on in it. We want a lover, best friend, and confidant. We want it ALL. Do we search to attain it?...

No.

Do we search for the "Wally World" (fulfilling) relationship?

No.

Guess where we head?

To the...

Convenience Store.

Lets discuss the Convenience Store. This is a place that has %10 of what we actually need, the other %90 is JUNK. Stone Cold Junk! Yes, the Convenience Store has food and drink, but they come in small quantities, and cost OUTRAGEOUS amounts of money. Since when was a liter of water $1.89? A cup of coffee $2.00. A small bag of chips (junk anyway) a$2.00. This segues me to the amount of JUNK they offer. The candy takes up a whole isle. And... (if you're in Houston, or other "wet" counties) there is MUCHO beer and wine. You can purchase swisher sweets and cigarettes at the counter, even get a lottery ticket or two. The short short version, is we settle for Convenience Store situations %75 of the time! Either he is good in bed, rich, or a loser who is a good person! Why? Why do we attempt to mold our "mates" into something they are not? The fact of the matter is, Convenience Store romances are fun while they last, but typically don't last long.

What do you choose?

I choose good 'ole Wally World! I want an all inclusive relationship! Someone who will be understanding and meet my EVERY need ( and me his). I want someone who can be EVERYTHING to me, and understand my wants and needs.

I have that? Do you?

If not, he (or she) is out there. Don't settle!

The End.

~TheyalwayswearasmileatWalMart!~

When Doves Fly...

2006-10-31T01:20:00.000Z

I had to dedicate this post (I am so in the dedicating mood), to a WONDERFULLY AMAZING RELATIONSHIP. King and I have been in bliss for 7 months now, and words cannot express how excited I am to be in a happy, stable, relationship with my best buddy. Ok... I will not disclose too much of the biz, as he is a private person, so bare with me.

Imagine this...

I beautifully breezy afternoon. Temperatures in the low 70's. You are surrounded by green, healthy green grass. You hear the faint sound of children playing. You see generations of family members gathering. You are in the park, on a blanket laid out in the grass. You both lay there, him on his stomach, you on your back, starring at the sky. He is reading a story to you. As each syllable rolls off of his tongue, you say a silent prayer of thanks to God for placing you there with him. Soon the book is cut short and he wants to talk. You all engage in conversation, but the scenery is too beautiful to be ignored. You all lay under a tree, that slightly whispers words of confirmation to you, that you are following Gods path correctly.

You notice a couple of things in the sky. The first (most obvious) attraction is the placement of the Sun and Moon. The Sun is moving gently to the west, while the Moon is creeping up from the East. For a moment, they occupy the sky at the same time (from your view point). It is so AMAZING, you look to your right, and there is the Sun. Directly in front of you is the Moon, hanging out, as if He had gotten to that very place in the Sky early and was waiting on the Sun to make its departure. As if that wasn't enough, you notice a plane, that looks as if it is a rocket jetting a million miles away to outer space. It leaves a slight trail through the clouds as it wonders to an unknown place. Then, it happens... you notice something, even more WONDROUS than that...

Two Doves!

As King and I looked up and to the left we noticed two Doves jetting across the sky. It was so symbolic. They were each beautiful, and flying in sync with one another. Ok, I'll admit one was a bit of a straggler but, he was trying to keep up, (notice I made an assumption that is was a male;o)). I felt this was symbolic of the relationship that King and I have.

We are both refined and "different". We have our own unique styles and we march to the beat of our own drum, heck, we are the only two people in the band! The Sky is definitely the limit for us. We understand and respect each other unconditionally. During a recent conversation with him, I reflected on the fact that so many people put on their nice clothes, and head out on the weekend in search of what we have.

At this point in our relationship, we are really flying, and guess what? It feels GOOOOOOOOD!

The Flight of the Doves

When Doves fly the world stops,
When Doves fly no hope is lost,
When Doves fly the sky smiles,
When Doves fly the race is not limited to miles,
When Doves fly, they create their signature pattern,
When Doves fly only eternity matters.

No one understands the flying of the Doves unless they have a first class seat on their wing.

~Rai~

I have truly found my Dove, and we are flying high! Ok. I am through with the mush, romantic posts for a while. I just had to share the happiness I am feeling currently with the world!

The End.

~Whendovesflyyoushouldbepreparedtoaccepttheunknown~

Pregnant Princessa

2006-10-26T18:06:00.000Z

I just had to dedicate a post to a dear, dear friend, Princessa J. She is a childhood friend of mine who has blossomed into quite the woman. Princessa found out she was expecting about 5 months ago. It was quite a shock to her because she is a career driven, spunky little lady. She had her hopes set on taking New York by storm (she aspires to work in the entertainment industry managing artists). It was such a shock to her when she found out all of that would have to be put on hold.

It was around the early part of June ('06) when I looked at PJ (noticing she looked a little "juicey" and had a glow to her). I asked, "When was your last cycle?". She replied, "April." I was like, "Girl, could you be pregnant?" She replied, "Girl, I am just stressed out." I was like, uhm hum... that's what I though 4 years ago.

I remember thinking the same thing while waiting for my cycle to arrive around June 11th, '02 (my last menstruation was May 11th). Before I knew it, June 12th, 13th,14th... June 21st... OK, at that point it was important that I take a pregnancy test. I did, and guess what? I was pregnant with my Sunshine. I gained pound after pound, while eating steak after steak. Gained so much weight, I didn't know what to do.

So... 8 months and 100 pounds later (February 10, 2003), my Sunshine was introduced to the world. Oh, what a moment it was. I have since slimmed down to a sexy and toned 135 (at 5'7) as the stretch marks continue to fade, I am reminded of what I endured every time I look at my Pretty Pregnant Princessa.

I don't think I am going to do that again. If I do, Three things must come with the deal...

A Husband
A Trainer
and...
A Nanny...

The End.

~IloveyouPrincessawithyourPrettyPregnantSelf!~

Hurtless Love

2006-10-25T20:23:00.000Z

I had to put this out there. I just had to post about relationships. Ours with men (a woman's perspective). We put up with sssssssssoooooooooo much from the opposite sex. Why? There has to be a hidden meaning behind it all. For years psychologists have been attempting to figure it out. Pastors have been continuously preaching about it in their sermons. Are we listening? Where does it all stem from?

Us.
Us.
Us.

You must first have complete self worth, respect, and direction in your own life before you attempt to begin a relationship with anyone. Believe me. I have been there, done that. There is no such thing as "molding" any man. It is extremely healthy to "grow" with someone, but that takes compromise (on both ends), sacrifice (both ends), and open communication (both ends).

Ladies! In the words of Maya Angelou, "When a person shows you who they are, believe them."

When the person that you are in a relationship with continues to show you that he has no respect for you or the relationship... Let Him Go. You must make a choice ladies, it is either you or him. You must first and foremost take care of yourself. This brings me to the root of the whole topic...

Ladies... spend some time soul searching. Learn more about your self. Your likes, dislikes, hopes, fears, etc. Get a hobby. Work on that business you have been attempting to start. Go back to school. Clean your house. Read a book. Work out. Do somethings to enhance your state of well being. I promise a man will come. God created Adam and Eve. You will have your time to be a Help Meet to "the" man that God created for you. Relax and wait on Him. You will know when he comes. It will be easy. For years I was brain washed to think that women "had" to struggle to keep a relationship. Life has proven the untruth of that. When you are with the person you are supposed to be with, it all makes sense.

Love doesn't hurt.
Love is patient.
Love is kind.
Love is giving.
Love is understanding.
Love lacks judgement.
Love is the unexplainable bond you share with someone you care deeply for.

My challenge to single women.

Spend a full week doing all the things you aspire to do, alone. I challenge you not to answer when that familiar guy calls or knocks at your door. Spend your week in solitude. Take a yoga class or run in the park. Go to a fancy restaurant alone, or simply have a glass of wine and good book on the patio. Nevertheless do something for YOU! Have and enjoy having "you" time. The perfect guy will come soon enough.

I also challenge you all to stop attempting to make every male you come in contact with "the one". It is OK. When "Mr. Right" comes along, beyond the shadow of a doubt, you will know, honey trust me. Enjoy meeting new and interesting people. Please do. Just appreciate the moment and stop your attempts to see any further into the future. Mr. Right will come, and when he does, he will have all the attributes you want in a man. You do not have to settle. I repeat, you do not have to settle.

All in all...
Know and understand that love doesn't hurt. We do not have to endure hurt and rejection. God didn't intend it that way. What we need to do is perfect ourselves. Once we do that, we will know which direction we should go, thus making it inevitable to meet the guy of our dreams.

Be still Ladies.

The End.

Ladiesdoyouwhenthetimeisrightsowillhebe~

Decisions

2006-10-25T00:08:00.000Z

October 12th, 2006, I cheated on Blog Spot. I put a blog entry on another website. I was so ashamed. I didn't think I would even be able to admit it to myself, but hey! I am human. I just want to preface this entry by saying... No, King and I are not breaking up! We are deeply in love and that will never change. I was going through some things at the time and I decided to let it out in a poem.

I have overcame that which I was going through. But, nevertheless it was a deep piece and I really would like to share it.

As I sit here pen and pad in hand,
I wonder about my master plan,
Things must change,
Life always presents us with a range,
Of options that is,
I was too busy with my own perception of the relationship,
I forgot about his,
I had it planned out to perfection,
Never did I realize his perception,
Of it all, I was so eager to fall,
Creating personal love songs to sing,
I had our wedding planned before any mention of a ring,
Then it came to me,
I'm so busy worrying about "we",
It's time for me to follow MY master plan,
Which is about ME and not a man,
Its a hard decision to make,
But hey, you can't cheat fate,
I have to let it go,
The best thing for me if I want to grow,
Defining myself with nothing to hide,
Getting tired of the coat tail ride,
Now that I've stated my position,
I begin to make my hard decision...

Goodbye.
~Rai~

~Sometimesthehardestdecisionsbringoutthebestoutcomes.~

The 45 Scare... Do I Dare?

2006-10-24T21:49:00.000Z

Ok... back to posting.

Last week, Tuesday, October 17th, myself and 9 other managers from my job headed up 45 North to prepare for a leadership conference in Dallas, Tx. Upon hearing about the trip (a week before hand) I was immediately excited, because I am from Dallas. It would be a familiar fun time.

We soon were piling in three separate SUV's in preparation for the 4 hour drive. We (obviously) cliqued up for the drive. I ended up riding out with a wondrous female "prick", who I love to death, hum... let's call her Bluntness and a sweet and sensitive "gay guy", who I love even more, let's call him CoolFlame. Let's just say... all three of our personalities combined was truly something. CoolFlame started out the drive from Houston, hacking (coughing) away. He was getting over a cold. He coughed us down the freeway while Bluntness and I talked away.

Soon we got to the half way point between Dallas and Houston. Centerville. We stopped... pee'd and picked up some treats. I proceeded to drive the rest of the way to Dallas. Immediately CoolFlame began talking about my driving. First of all, I was driving an SUV that I wasn't familiar with. It always takes awhile to get use to driving an unfamiliar car. Instead of using the brakes consistently, I just ease off the gas sporadically. It causes a light jerk of the car. CoolFlame made it his business to annoy me with the fact that I was doing this (which I do in cars I am unfamiliar with to keep from slamming on the brakes.

2 1/2 hours later... we made it to Dallas.
Got checked in to the hotel.
The gang (co-workers) went out to Dinner.
Momma G came by the hotel.
I ate the peach cobbler she brought.
I took a shower.
I nestled snugg in my bed and went to sleep.
I woke up.
Got dressed.
Checked out of the hotel.
Ate breakfast.
Attended the Leadership Conference (all 9hrs. of it).
Headed back to Dallas.

Here Goes...
45 South get scary!

Wednesday, October 18th, 2006 (6pm)
CoolFlame, Bluntness, and myself spend an unnecessary 30min at the gas station attempting to get gas. After that was settled... we headed back to Houston. It was me in the driver's seat, CoolFlame shotgun, and Bluntness behind in in the back seat. I was the chosen one to get us out of Dallas, because it was familiar territory. The weather was a really cool 55 degrees (for Dallas). It was really cloudy and it was apparent that the weather was about to get really bad. I was at east because we were leaving the city.

8pm
(Imagine a narrow two lane highway, surrounded by a wooded area with no lights, not to mention numerous 18 wheelers flying by)
We had been in Dallas traffic for awhile, but had finally made it out of the city limits. We were roughly 70 miles out of Dallas when the weather made a turn for the worst. It started with a slight drizzle. Then it came down slightly harder. Then, before we new it, the rain was consuming the windshield. It was dark by this time, and I was driving a car that I wasn't use to. I began to get a little scared the more I drove. Soon it was raining so hard that I couldn't see anything in front of me. CoolFlame was making jokes about my driving and the fact that I was slowing down, and asking him to put on the defrost for the windows. Bluntness was unusually quiet. I, with my hands gripped tightly to the wheel, prayed prayer after prayer that we would be ok. The 18 wheeler trucks were dashing by us at high speeds causing more and more water to consume the car, thus enabling me to be able to see clearly. We drove for about 5 miles, with me having hardly no vision of what was in front of me. The only thing that guided me was the faint line of the lane dividers and my headlights. I even swerved a couple of times. I prayed and prayed, while CoolFlame teased and teased. I even thought that my life was about to come to an end. I just thanked God for my son and that he wasn't in the car with me. I prayed that he would be taken care of.

9:30pm
We had made it to Centerville finally (the halfway mark). I was exhausted and ready to be home with my son (he had stayed with his God parents). We went in, pee'd, got snacks and I gladly gave the keys to CoolFlame, so he could drive the remainder of the way home.
Whew!

The rain had let up by then, but I could help but rejoice in the Lord because only hours earlier, I didn't think I would live to see another day. I am thankful for all I have and all I have been through, because it has aided me in appreciating God and life.

12am
I made it safely to my apartment that night. As I got into my blanket I couldn't help but reflecting on that night and my life.

Thanks God for having mercy on me!

The End.

~Sometimesyoudon'trealizewhatyouhaveuntilitisjeopordized~

All in a Month's Time

2006-10-24T18:04:00.000Z

Hey Guys.

It's been a tastey second since I last blessed my blog. I could come up with tons of excuses as to why I haven't wrote, but, I won't waste your time. I have simply been preoccupied with life. So much going on. It is truly a lot. I had to take a break from SOMETHING, so I chose my blog. Best believe I will try my best to continue to update sporadically.

Know that I have got that off of my chest. What do I talk about?

Hum.
Hum.

Friendships.
That's a cute one. I have been blessed to have a handful of friends, who are truly that... actually, they are more than that to me. They are my family... my sisters. I met a new one (which is so not like me) I tend to be "standoffish" at times, but I couldn't help but to be drawn to her personality and spirit. I will call her Beauty, because her beauty shines from the inside out. She has a son- Cuddles (that is what he loves to do), who is a few months short of two, and he is a sweety pie. We met at work and hung out a couple of times. We are continuing to grow as friends, but I am so excited about the possibilities.

My Personal Relationship.
King and I are doing better than we have ever been. I finally get it. I mean I really get it. This whole "relationship" thing is about two people coming together, all while embracing their unique personality traits. Love is about God, giving, and growing, with out one of the three there is no true Love. Most people are in love with the possibility of being in love. That is not true love. Contrary to popular belief, love doesn't hurt. Love feels good, even when the roads are rough. I am in love with a wonderful human being, and it feels good, I won't deny it. We have been growing together for the past 7 months and I look forward to the next 7 months... years...etc. I have found my counterpart and it feels good. You should watch what you ask God for, 'cause you just might get it.

WHEW (A Sister Circle).
Women Helping Empower Women, is my baby. It is my sister circle. A group of wonderful women get together once a month to embrace and empower one another. It is truly a blessing that God has blessed me with such a unique wonderful set of women in my life. For that I am truly thankful. We are in the process of creating a T.V. show for the group that will be featured on www.lioneyetv.com , this website was created by a dear, dear, friend of mine. My other half. I am so excited and looking forward to sharing WHEW with the world.

Family.
Everyone is doing wonderful. My mom is good. She just started caring for my 2 month old niece during the day, while my brother and his girlfriend work. It is truly a blessing that she is able to do that. My brother is enjoying being a father, so that is wonderful in and of itself. I am truly blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful people.

All in a month's time. Things are looking up. The Sun is shining on me!

The End.

~Allinamonthstimeyoubegintoacceptyourpurposeandliveit!~

Did You Miss Me?

2006-10-04T00:20:00.000Z

Hello Fellow Hiatus Readers,

Hopefully you all haven't given up on me. I truly have been going through a lot lately. Not necessarily "bad stuff" but "stuff" nonetheless. I have had a pretty tame October thus far. Nothing drastic has happened in my life since my last update. I have a few "fun" things coming up though, let's see;

WHEW Oct. Meeting:

My Sister Network is having it's 5th meeting on Saturday. It is so exciting to actually see my dream come together. We will finish our relationship trilogy with the topic of, Unconditional Sisterhood (Women's Relationships w/ Each other). It will be at Princessa's house. It should be truly an interesting meeting to say the least. I have talked about friendships in previous posts, so it should be extremely interesting to have open dialog with other women. Oooh the Anticipation.

QuiteStorm... Returns:

I don't think I have ever formally introduced you all to my dear friend QuietStorm. We have known each other since the 9th grade. She usually comes from Dallas once a year to visit me here in Houston. I call QS, because from the outside she is this soft spoken sweety. Don't let that fool you. Storm is quite that! It was really good to see here nevertheless.

This is pretty much it.
There will be more to come!
Trust.

The End.

~OoohIknowyoumissedme!~

The Humiliation of Inebriation

2006-09-22T01:52:00.000Z

Ok. I am by no means and alcoholic, but I was in deep contemplation one day (night).

Let me start from the beginning. I am an EXTREMELY outspoken and up front person. I speak first and think about what was said later. I do this with my friends all the time so they know, and accept me for the "crazy lady" that I am. But, I will say, when I drink, it is COMPLETELY OUT OF CONTROL. I blurt out random, crazy, hurtful (at times) things. I don't mean it. I mean, the completely sober Rai wouldn't dare open her mouth to say anything half as hurtful.

But, The CrunkDrunk Rai Did.

I won't re-live the night by telling the story, but I hurt someone I truly love and care about. I know that they fill the same about me because they forgave me for it. Unconditional Love. Unconditional Love. Unconditional Love. Unconditional Love. I had to repeat it over and over because, it truly makes my heart smile to know that someone cares about me enough to accept me for my faults, as well as the positive attributes I have.

Long story short.

I am through with drinking excessively. One...two max for me. If it is coming to the point that I could potentially damage something that means so much to me... I am Good. Foreal. I am Good.

No Spirits (but the Holy Ghost ;o) for Me!

The End.

~Inebriationleadstohumiliation~

Awhile Since I Wrote...

2006-09-22T01:29:00.000Z

Whoa...whoa... Don't be too mad at me.

I know it has been awhile since I wrote. Let me tell you why. After another wild and crazy (fun filled Dallas Weekend), I had to regroup. Go on a Hiatus from Da Hiatus. I am a faithful blogger so, don't give up on me.

Let's See, What Have You Missed?
*My Account of the Black Affair on Labor Day Weekend

Synopsis:
The Sunday Party was a BLAST. Leggs, NadiGurl, and Myself got all dollied up in our All Black and hit the town. We drank and partied it up to "till da break of dawn". I had a chance to hook up with Essence (a good girl pal of mine). We hadn't seen each other since the college days. Found a new drink of choice... Sexy Alligator boy! The best thing my lips have tasted in a long time. Best believe I wasn't drunk though (post coming soon). I had a WONDROUS time and headed back to HTown on Monday evening.

*The Evolvement and Da Kang and Me

Synopsis:
For once I am at a loss for words. It has been 6 months since I met my Soul Mate. King is truly the love of my life. I know it sounds corny, but he is all that I ever wanted and needed in a partner. I won't go into great detail, because he is a private person, but things are going great. Each day he shows me why he is in my life, and it makes since. God, was listening to me. It feels good. Six months down, a lifetime to go.

*A Stroll Down Memory Lane

Synopsis:
This past weekend I attended the party of friends of mine (A Virgo Affair). It was a pool party at the University I use to attend. And guess what? King came with me! Yup, I know. He really didn't know how to take me in that element. It was a blast though. It brought me back to a place I had been years before. I must say, I have indeed grown.

The rest of the past couple of weeks I will uses in later posts as, "general topics".

I am alive. The rai of warmth shines on!

The End.

~JustwhenyouthoughtIwasghostIhityouwithanotherpost~

Su-Nadi-Rai: Three Divine Gems

2006-09-07T23:54:00.000Z

Okay... Okay... I know you guys are wondering, what is up with the title? Who is SuNadiRai? Let me tell you...

Su-Nadi-Rai, is an entourage including Myself, Leggs, and NadiGurl (a good friend of ours). We are three exotic bombshells, and when we get together, Oh Boy!

Pause:
You all know I usually don't do entourages, but, when I am in Dallas, I bend my rules, for fun's sake.

Let me explain. I rarely go out when I am in HTown. Now Dallas, that is a totally different story. I always hang out with Leggs. NadiGurl is a friend I met through her. We are all three beautiful (internally and externally) in such unique ways. Together we complement each other. There is no need for jealousy, we hold each other up in support.

Fast Forward.

We went out on Saturday and Sunday this past weekend. I will dedicate a post soley to Sunday, but I will talk briefly about Saturday in this post.

After hanging out with Momma G, I had her drop me off at Legg's loft in Downtown DTown. I immediately relaxed and pondered what I was going to be wearing that evening. Due to the fact that Labor Day was approaching quickly, I chose all white. Leggs and Nadi wore green and blue jeans (a good look for them). We stepped out and boy... what an eventful night.

We bumped into a clique of guys we went to High School with (Leggs and I). They are 24 now and two are in Med School, while one is in Law School, the other is becoming a Fireman. I am so proud of these fellas. They are indeed on the path to do great things.

The Birth of SuNadiRai:

Leggs and Nadi are a normal duo on the party scene in Dallas. But, however, when I come to town, that all changes. The three of us get together and it is over from there. We are three extremely beautiful, intelligent ladies, who expect nothing less than the best for ourselves.

Leggs came up with the name, after we got dressed for the evening and I commented that we looked like a singing group.

Thus the name...

SuNadiRai

The End.

~WhenthecloudsaregrayjustthinkofSuNadiRai~

Auntie's Baby

2006-09-07T23:45:00.000Z

I met my baby, my niece Ryenn, (Auntie's Baby, as I call her), this past weekend. She is such a sweetie pie (at the tender age of two weeks).

I spent the first two nights of my journey back with my brother, his girlfriend, her daughter (7), and my new niece. It was truly amazing to see my brother interact with his "own" child. He has always been the one to attempt to run the lives of others. What a sight it was to see him with his very own offspring.

My two nights I spent on the couch, with T Baby (her nickname) in my arms. She looked at me, and listened intently to my voice. For those of you who don't know me, I have an extremely distinct voice. It's low and raspy (many people think I either A. Rap/Sing or B. Smoke). By the end of the weekend she knew her Auntie Rai extremely well.

It was such a pleasure and honor to meet my T Baby for the first time.

The End.

~OooohAuntieBabyisgonnagrowuptodriveAuntiecrazy~

Flying Out of Control

2006-09-04T00:04:00.000Z

The date was Thursday, August 31st, 2006.

I had planned a "short" day at work due to the fact that I was fly to Dallas for the weekend to visit friends and family. I left work at 4:45pm, in order to drop Sunshine off at his God parent's house. We arrived there around 5pm. I was at ease because I still had two hours before my plane would be leaving for Dallas. Yes Ladies and Gents, I actually flew this time. I came across an offer I just couldn't refuse. Gotta love Southwest Airlines (http://www.iflyswa.com).

An hour and a half later (6:30pm)

I am still about 15 mins away from Kings house. He lives right by the airport, so it made the most since for me to leave my car at his house and have him take me to the airport. I spent an hour and a half in traffic. I was so frustrated I didn't know what I was going to do. I make it to his house and he wasn't even there yet. I had to take a couple of deep breaths because, he didn't live that far so, things still seemed fine. My flight was scheduled to depart at 7:30pm. After pulling up at his house, I remembered he was going to let me borrow his suitcase. After parking the car I ran inside to grab the suitcase. As soon as I layed eyes on it, laughter crept across my face. This bag was sssssssssoooooooooo old looking, it could easily been mistaken for the bag of a slave back in 1865 after emancipation. It was HILARIOUS! My poor King is such a "different" kind of guy, with his own style to match. Soooo..........

After throwing my things in the "old school" suitcase, King drives up. He has to run in and do some "things" so, I had to wait briefly on him. I jump in the car with him around 7:09pm and we rush to the airport. I get to the Sky Cap and throw him my bags, he takes them and looks at me funny (awaiting a tip). Unfortunately, I had no cash on me, so I wasn't able to tip him. I rushed off so fast I left my Drivers License at the Sky Cap. After running back to retrieve it, I headed for the screening line. After waiting 10 mins and putting back on my shoes and hat, I ran for the gate.

After sitting down, I realize the plane was delayed until 8:20pm. I was happy and mad all at the same time. "Oh well." I thought. Let me run and grab something to eat. While standing in line a lady came up to me and told me that her "friend" thought I was attractive and wanted to talk to me. I said, "OK", and continued to wait in line to order my food. When I went to order I noticed a tired overworked woman (who obviously was a lesbian). I cracked a couple of jokes with her about her attitude, and preceded to order my food. While waiting in line, the guy who sent his friend up to me came to talk.

Mr. Lawyer, as I will call him explained his profession (obvious, by his name), and why he was so attracted to me. I entertained him for a minute or so, and then it was time to cut the convo short and prepare to eat my food. As we said our goodbyes, I walked towards the terminal (to wait in line of course). On my walk over, a short stubby chick (from the food counter) runs over to me and explains to me that her "homegirl" (the lesbian) wanted to "talk to me", so could she have my number? First of all, any one who knows me knows that I have never been down with "studs" (read: gay chicks who assume the "guy" role. They typically dress like men and assume the male role in relationships.) I could do nothing but laugh. By the way King is my world presently (and always). After achieving a HUGE laugh, I walk over to take my seat in the waiting area of the terminal.

While sitting, I kept glancing upwards (to take note of my surroundings), and continued to make eye contact with this guy. I kept looking at him because he had long beautiful locks, and a perfect edge up. He kept catching my stares (at his hair). As fate had it he ended up sitting next to me on the plane. Asked me the usual questions (name? kids? relationship? purpose of the flight?). It was truly weird. We landed in Dallas. We said our goodbyes. Obviously no exchange of numbers.

The End.

What an eventful journey back home.

~Dallasisinthegenes~

Dallas... AGAIN!!!!

2006-09-03T23:53:00.000Z

Hey guys. It has been awhile since I posted, but don't think for a second that I forgot about you. I have been in Dallas, AGAIN, for this Labor Day Weekend. It is a good friend of mines Birthday Day (which includes a LAVISH party). I had to come out and support.

There has been so much that has happend in this weekend alone. I don't know where to begin. Of course I am residing with Leggs for this latter part of the weekend. I started the weekend with my brother, and new niece. I have been here since Thursday night, so lets just say, I am dividing my time evenly between the peeps.

This is just an introductory post dedicated to all the craziness you will soon read about.

Sit Back.
Relax.
Enjoy.

The End.

~Therewillbemoretoenjoysoholdon~

The Meaning of Me

2006-08-30T01:59:00.000Z

For those of you that think you know me... but have NO idea, I took the time to breakdown the true meaning of Radiance (Mentally).

Here Goes.

Rare
Absorbed
Divine
Instinctive
Adamant
Nurturing
Alluring
Cultured
Eclectic

Rai in a nutshell.

Any Questions?

The End.

~Radianceflowsfromtheinsideout...atleastminedoes!~

Josey B and Me!

2006-08-30T00:50:00.000Z

I was having one of my self reflection days today. I thought (in Ode to my changed profile), if I could relate myself to any woman in history, who would it be? After thinking briefly, I came to the conclusion...

Ms. Josephine Baker...
Josey B. as I will call her.

Yes... Ms. J did have more "appropriate" pictures, but I absolutely adored this one. It shows how she appreciated her body, and did not mine showing it, by using the art form of burlesque dancing. No... not the "stripping" that can be seen in any given strip club. This was seductive and erotic, but in an artistic way. It was true entertainment of the time.

All in all... I salute Ms. Josey B., for being true to herself, and a true example of a woman who embraced herself and did not let society choose her destiny.

Thanks JB!

The End.

~OooohIseealotofJBinme~

Tequila and Salt

2006-08-30T00:38:00.000Z

Okay... here's the deal. Normally I am not too keen about the forwards I get via email daily. For some reason I really liked the one that appeared in my inbox this week. I feel every one should realize all of the points displayed in its purpose.

Here goes...

You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die
for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want
to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they
don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes
from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take
another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received.. Forget about
the rude remarks.

Just when you thought life had given you more lemons than you could handle...

Take them and add Tequila with Salt, and lets hang out!

The End.

~GottaloveJoseCuervoooohya,andyourselftoo!~

God's "Rai"diance In My Life

2006-08-29T01:29:00.000Z

The font color is changed due to the Glory of God. He truly Shines!

I wanted to dedicate this post to my Heavenly Father Above. He has been there for me in so many different ways. Just when I wanted to give up, write something (one) off, or do something detrimental to my well being, He was there.

When you truly have a relationship with God, you only seek acceptance from Him. Everyone else here with you on earth is imperfect (as you are as well). God is the only perfect creature. When we decide to open our hearts and soul to him, we will know true abundance in our lives. I am in know way here to "preach", or convert non believers. What I am here to do is to share my life with those who care to know, and demonstrate God's forgiving grace.

I am human. I make mistakes. My days aren't perfect. Guess what the beauty of that is? That is EXACTLY how He intended it to be. If we were perfect, we wouldn't need God's grace or mercy. We would have no need for Him in our lives. That is why it is important to praise God during the good and bad times. Just when you think things are going good and you don't need Him, He has a way of showing you otherwise. It's obvious, that when things are bad, he is the first one on our minds. That is how I developed my relationship with Him, I was at the breaking point, and I had NO WHERE to go, but to His arms. Pray hard and be strong. God will deliver you from whatever you are going through in your life.

I am a living testimony of his work.
Always remember this, it is not about a religion, rather a relationship. Your personal relationship with God is all that matters. It is not about a church, domination, or pastor. It is about you and Him. The Holy Bible is the only prerequisite for a relationship with God. That is so you can educate yourself about Him, and His will for your life.

Be strong and know that God is always there for you.
When will you recognize and appreciate Him?

The End.

~GodisgoodallthetimeallthetimeGodisgood~

The Changing of Seasons

2006-08-29T00:54:00.000Z

In an attempt to be unlike my blog counter parts (Leggs and Essence Unknown), I will post something today. It's not like me to go too long with out posting SOMETHING. I know a lot of my "anonymous" readers have (due to certain events) really been looking forward to something new.

Let Me See...

This past weekend was great for me. I have began to get back in touch with my spiritual side. Not that I have ever lost touch with it, but I haven't relied as much on it as I usually do. People will come in and out of your life, but GOD will never leave you or forsake you. Circumstances in your life can be one way, and then change, all because of Him. King has been learning that valuable lesson over the last couple of months. Friends will come and go, as seasons do change... hum. . .

As summer slowly leaves and fall creeps upon us, I realize that the atmosphere is not the only thing that is changing.

That leads me to the topic of this blog.

As Seasons Change...

As seasons change, I accept those in my life for who they are.
As seasons change, Friendships I thought would last fall apart.
As seasons change, I am birthed into my destiny.
As seasons change, I finally decide to take full responsibilty for me.
As seasons change, I began to truly appreciate my counterpart.
As seasons change, I stop making excuses for coming up short.
As seasons change, I began to blossom into womanhood.
As seasons change, I stop my quest to be understood.
As seasons change, I appreciate my reality.
As seasons change, With no inhibitions I celebrate being me!

Real talk. We should all celebrate ourselves, life, and those we care deeply about!

The End.

~AttheendofmyseasonIrealizeitisn'tasimportantasIthoughtitwas~

All in a Day's Work!

2006-08-24T01:42:00.000Z

It is at the end of my work day and... I am ttttttttiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeedddddddd! So much for me to do tomorrow. I can't wait till it's all over. I have done so much today, it is unreal.

This whole "working" thing is surreal to me. I thank God every night for my job, health, and strength, but boy, I can't wait till I am financially worry free. I know things happen for a reason. I can't wait to officially know what that reason is.

A Recap of Today:

Woke up and did the morning routine with Sunshine.
Arrived at work around 11:30am.
Scheduled interviews for potential new hires in my department.
Had a meeting with the managerial staff in my company.
Work in the Child Center for a couple of hours.
Fed Sun lunch and dinner.
Worked a little more.
Headed home for the evening around 9pm.

Boy! What a day.

I have to wake up and do it all over tomorrow.
Good thing I am off on Friday!

The End.

~Whenwillalltheworkpayoff?~

Anonymity At its Best

2006-08-23T01:08:00.000Z

This is probably the "realest" post I will ever write. It is truly astonishing to me how people that don't communicate with me regularly keep up with me via my blog. Don't get it twisted... I have never been, and will never be, a messy person, but this is truth.

I don't really know how to take it. Should I be flattered? Upset? Used?
Let me see...

I have always done well with flattery. It is so funny and amazing to me. The "anonymous" comments. The same IP addresses. It is really something. I would think, if someone was interested in the goings on in my life (assuming they are close enough to me that they have my personal numbers) you think they would call personally and talk to me about the happenings in my life. I will never truly understand women... heck! I rarely understand myself.

I guess it all boils down to this...

For all of the anonymous readers of this blog, who actually know me personally, and don't talk to me on a regular bases but, check my blog daily keeping up with what is going on in my life and the lives of those who I care most about, thank you. Thank you for caring about me enough to actually check up on my blog to know about the recent occurrences in my life. I welcome any of you who know me personally to give me a call. I have never held a grudge in life and I have not started now.

Forgiveness is beautiful.
Words to live by.

Ok. P.S.... here goes. After posting this wonderful work, I had a revelation, so, I had to edit the post and add to it.

I know the exact reason for the anonymity of a lot of my readers, that I may actually know personally. It is actually my fault. I am not exactly an "approachable" person. My ego gets in the way 90% of the time. Know that I truly mean well. I just choose not to get hurt in any type of relationship. My life is EXTREMELY exciting. Everyone who has ever hung out with me understands that. I am pretty sure that those that are not close to me anymore miss that aspect of my friendship. I have chosen to disclose EVERYTHING on this blog. I am honest and those who know me know the extent of my honesty. It is never ending. So... there it goes.
I figured it out all by my lonesome.

Thank you to all the anonymous readers for still being there(in some form) for me. I still love you the same (from the bottom of my heart).

~Rai~

The End.

~Anonymityistheresultofsensitivity~

"Rai"diant Strength.

2006-08-21T23:53:00.000Z

I was having a conversation with a near and dear friend of mine, not too long ago. She was telling me about how much she admired me and how she wish she had a third of my strength. I was astonished, just by talking to her (hearing how she really felt). I have never really thought about my strength. But, I had to take a pause and just think about it.

I am an extremely strong (in EVERY aspect) woman. People's opinion (that aren't close to me) do not matter at all. I attack every task with victory in mind (it's the only choice). I am extremely comfortable in my own skin. A lot of people (women) are intimidated of this but, it is all based on their own insecurities. I am doing pretty well being me.

I thought about it, an I will share my findings with the World ;o)!

Why am I so strong?
~Because, no one else is responsible for paying my bills on the first.
~Because, I am the only one who determines my happiness.
~Because, I was raised by a strong mother, who would accept nothing less from me.
~Because, I am sole responsible for the upbringing of a man child, who tests all of the limits.
~Because, I was brought into this world alone, and I must work hard to get to where I am predestined to be.
~Because, no one puts clothes on "our" backs, food on "our" table, or gas in "our" car (but me).
~Because, people will treat you how you ALLOW yourself to be treated (I deserve only the best).
~Because, life is what we make it.
~Because, God is the only one with the proper credentials to judge or condemn me.
~Because, I have been "hated on" by jealous, envious females since Pre K.
~Because, I surround myself around only POSITIVE females (when I see they are driving towards Jealoustown or Enviville, they are 86ed out of my life).
~Because, I am the only "me" I have, and I must take good care of myself.

Basically, I am so strong because, Momma G (my mom), would have it no other way. The important part about having a strong personality is, knowing that everyone won't understand you, and you know what? They weren't meant to. You should surround yourself around your equals. People that have similar personality traits as you.

Embrace yourself ladies. Define your own reality. Don't let life define you.

The End.

~OhhI'msostrongandstuff~

The Arrival of Little Diva... the Saga Begins

2006-08-21T23:27:00.000Z

Today, August 21st, 2006, marks the birth date of my very own niece (my brother's Daughter). Her name is Ryenn Alexandra (middle name after me), and I can't wait to meet her. She was born (by C-Section) this morning around 8am. Not sure of the hospital, but she was born in Dallas, Texas. My mom called this morning to tell me all about the Precious Princess.

Ok... Little Diva? Where'd that come from?

For the past nine months I have been known as "Aunt Diva". I received this name due to my nature to do things "fancy". The hair is always together (when it counts), clothes layed, accessories matched perfectly. I always do things fancylike. You know, the delayed entrances, witty "fun" personality. "Diva", in the positive way, thus Aunt Diva.

I plan on spoiling this baby. Remember, I have a little boy. I am not used to fancy frilly girl stuff. This is going to be quite an adventure. I plan on spoiling my new niece unbelievably. The official "Girl Time" saga has begun!

The End.

~Thisnewbabyissoexcitingtome~

WHEW... What a Saturday!

2006-08-21T20:26:00.000Z

I am sssssssssooooooooooo excited about this whole Woman's empowerment journey I have spent the last four months embarking on. It has really made me such a strong, positive (even more than I naturally am) person, it has also shown me true (lacking envy and jealousy) friendship. All of the women involved in the network are truly on each other's side. They are uplifting and loyal, in each and every way.

We had our fourth meeting this Saturday (aug. 19th), and let me tell you! What a time we had.

We met at a really good friend, Bossy's house. She definitely lives up to her name, and you know what? We love her even more for it. We had lots of food and drinks. We brought our relationship trilogy to the middle, by talking about our relationships with our Mothers or as Mothers for some of us. We had a new member join the network, so that tops us off at a total of nine committed members. It brought such joy to my heart to see everyone believing in the vision I set forth months ago.

All in all the meeting was a blast. I see us going so far in the near future.

The End.

~Itissogreattohavesisterswhoaretrue~

p.s.
No worries. There will be more juicey topics to come.

The Count Down Has Begun... 10!

2006-08-16T21:43:00.000Z

Okay...okay, I know you guys are wondering? What is the count down for. Well, I will tell you. This is my 90th post on the here blog. I began my Hiatus in April (5 months ago) and I had NO idea where this whole "web journaling" would actually go.

Well, well, well.

I soon found out that it is so soothing to be able to log your thoughts at any given time. My growth has been tracked and can actually be looked back on my CRAZY endeavors. I am looking forward to logging on in 20 years and laughing my butt off.

It's official.

Entry 90 is completed. Let the count down begin!

The End.

~Thishundredpostthingisprettycool~

ATTENTION WOMEN!!! HPV is Real.

2006-08-16T19:43:00.000Z

Hey Ladies!

I felt it was extremely important for me to dedicate this post to you. Now, don't get me wrong. This is an issue for men as well but, the majority of women will find out about this condition before a man would (it is easier to detect it early in women, before the symptoms occur). What am I talking about? Let me tell you.

It is called Human Papilloma Virus and it affects roughly 60 million women around the world. Papillomavirus are a diverse group of DNA-based viruses that infect the skin and mucous membranes of humans. Some HPV types cause benign skin warts, or papillomas, for which the virus family is named. HPVs associated with the development of common warts are transmitted environmentally or by casual skin-to-skin contact.

A separate group of about 30 HPVs are typically transmitted through sexual contact. Some sexually-transmitted HPVs, such as types 6 and 11, can cause genital warts. However, most HPV types that infect the genitals tend not to cause noticeable symptoms. Persistent infection with a subset of about a dozen so-called "high-risk" sexually-transmitted HPVs, including types 16 and 18, can lead to the development of cancer of the cervix. HPV infection is a necessary factor in the development of nearly all cases of cervical cancer (Walboomers 1999). Some cancer-causing HPV types (particularly HPV-16) are also believed to cause a substantial portion of other genital cancers, as well as some cancers of the mouth, throat and anus (Parkin 2006).

Cervical Pap smear testing is used to detect HPV-induced cellular abnormalities. This allows targeted surgical removal of pre-cancerous lesions prior the development of invasive cervical cancer. In the absence of Pap testing or treatment, about 1% of women with genital HPV infections will eventually go on to develop cervical cancer. Although the widespread use of Pap testing has reduced the incidence and lethality of cervical cancer in developed countries, the disease still kills several hundred thousand women per year worldwide.

(Thanks Wikipedia!)

Ladies, this is serious. You can have this virus and not even know it. This is spread through sexual intercourse. Most women do have the virus, but the immune system fights it off so, the symptoms(warts *obvious* and dysplasia *detected on a pap smear, causes cervical cancer*) may not even occur.

My point is... GET A WELL WOMEN'S EXAM. You need to know what is going on in your body. It is very important. We spend so much time worried about "common" STD's, we need to be aware of HPV. Cervical cancer is serious. If it can be stopped ahead of time, it needs to be.

Be Safe.

The End.

~Itisimportanttoknowthatyouknowthatyouknow~

For more info on HPV, check this site out: http://www.thehpvtest.com .

Dallas... Mi Familia Time

2006-08-14T20:47:00.000Z

Once again... Another "fun-filled" weekend in Dallas, TX. This past weekend I found myself in my backyard again (DTown). This time, it was not a great occasion that landed me there. I came to Dallas to mourn the loss of my Grandaddy. If you guys have read any of my posts prior to this you would know that I didn't grown up with that particular side of the family. This was my father's father. We all know, that up until a little while ago, I've always considered myself a "test tube baby". But... there is another person connected to me.

I saw cousins I hadn't seen in years. I had a chance to soley spend the whole weekend with them. It was truly wondrous. I will recap the weekend below.

Mi Familia Time

Friday, Aug. 11th, 2006

Drove up to Dallas with my uncle.
Went to my grandmothers house to prepare for the wake (for Grandaddy).
Drove my uncle, aunt, and grandmother to the wake.
Met cousins and family I hadn't seen in years.
Took the crew back to my grandmother's house.
Went to my cousins house (I spent the weekend at her house).
Went back to my grandmother's house to meet up with the other cousins.
We went to the bowling alley to bowl, hang out, and play pool.
Ended the night at 3am.

We were tired!
Time to prepare for the funeral.

Saturday, Aug. 12th, 2006

The "Cousins" and I woke up and prepared for the funeral.
We headed to the church to set up the sound (My cousin Nique prepared a song for the viewing of the body)
We headed back to my Grandmomma's house to meet with the rest of the family.
Funeral Time.
Headed to the burial site.
Heading back to Grandmomma's house to change.
Off to Grandmomma's church to eat.
Headed back to Nique's house to rest.
After waking up, more cousins flooded the place (25 of us total at her house).
We had fun in Nique's music studio (I didn't realize I could rap ;o))
Headed to a hole in the wall (club)- had fun nevertheless.
Sleep at 3am.

Whew...

Sunday, Aug. 13th, 2006

Woke up and ate breakfast.
Chatted it up with other cousin's that spent the night.
Prepared to go to my Grandmom's house (Momma G's mom).
Went over to grab some greens and hot water cornbread.
Got full and head to my "other" Grandmother's house (Dead Beat J's mom)
Hugs and kisses to relatives over there, then scooped up my aunt and uncle so we could head back to HTown.
Dropped the fam off.
Awaited the return of my Sunshine, he had spent the weekend with Confused K.

The End.

~Itwasatruejoytoseemethroughthem~

Confused K... At it Again.

2006-08-10T22:39:00.000Z

I have been so careful about posting about my BD (read: Baby Daddy). I just figure, let lying dogs ly. But, today I had to vent. You guys know the routine. Here goes.

I am going to my "Daddy's" funeral this weekend. Thus meaning I am traveling back to my hometown, Dallas, TX. I chose to leave Sunshine here with his family. There is going to be so much going on, that I didn't want to have to deal with a 3 year old.

Confused K is off tomorrow, so I thought it would be perfect, because he could pick Sn up from me (we work next door to each other) when he got off, in anticipation of keeping him the entire weekend. CK gets off at 5pm. It is now coming up on 5:40pm and I haven't heard a word. It would take CK (on a good day) at least 2 minutes to come over to pick Sun up.

To top off the whole situation, he doesn't even want to keep him tonight. He is taking him over to his God parent's house. I want so much for him to take an active part in the life of his son and stop pawning him off on family members. I try so hard not to say anything, but it gets hard sometime.

I know I do all I am supposed to do as Sun's mom, but I am only human.

The End.

Enough venting for today. More good, spiritual stuff to come.

~IfonlyIcouldgetawaywithalieviatingmysituation~

Blahzay Day for Rai...

2006-08-10T22:25:00.000Z

Today has been so blahzay, to say the least. Things have just been steadily moving along.

I came to work and had a meeting with my boss. It went pretty well considering, he is one of little words. I basically told him I had things under control, due to my absence for the burial of my grandfather.

King called me with GREAT news. He had just been offered a position with this company that he was extremely excited about. I am happy about it too. Always good to see loved ones preserver through rough times.

I went to find an appropriate outfit for the funeral of my granddad. I looked in my closest and was shocked to find out I have few "church clothes". When I go to church, I am extremely laid back. I rarely dress "fancy". I had to amp it up in respect of my grandfather.

I am about to head upstairs to teach my group fitness class. It is always a fun experience for myself and the members involved. Afterwards, I plan to head to happy hour briefly and then home. I have so much cleaning and packing to do. King is coming over, so that is something to look forward to.

Random Thought
I think that is about it. You know what? I am going to have to watch out how much info I divulge on this blog. There are a lot of you all reading who actually know me! ;o) If that is correct, as you can see NOTHING has changed. ;o)

The End.

p.s. Maybe I will post again before I leave for the night.

~Alwaysgoodtohavetherighttosayyouentertainedablahzayday~

Donde Esta Mis Pantalones?

2006-08-09T01:47:00.000Z

Once upon a time there lived this sexy fly chica. She went by the name of Angelica. Angelica was really amigos bueno con (with) Jose. Jose was muy muy interested in Angelica romantically. Angelica did not reciprocate those feelings for Jose at all.

One night after hanging out and drinking, Jose attempted to kiss Angelica. She was not feeling it at all so she moved out of the way of his puckered lips. He then began to caress her. Gently on the shoulders, was the approach he attempted first. He hands then began to move vicariously all over her body.

Before she new it, Jose's head was between her legs. He was gently licking her ever so sensually. As Jose's tongue lapped her clitoris, prior thoughts of him being simply a "friend" temporarily vanished. Jose stayed down on Angelica for what seemed like hours.

He then looked up at her. Still on his knees, her sweet juices were slightly dripping from his lip and chin, he assumed sex was next. She quickly shot that thought in the foot. He then suggested she go down on him. That was also a negative for Angelica. Jose spent what seemed like eternity attempting to get some reciprocation for his effort. Angelica, then came back to her senses. She had won the battle and wasn't giving in. She just had one question,

Donde esta mi pantalones?
(Where are my pants?)

The End.

Quite the lust story huh? My imagination is truly something. Seriously, I have been pondering writing erotica, with a spanish twist. ;o)

~Angilicagothers...poorJose~

A Peculiar Situation

2006-08-08T22:36:00.000Z

Something cute to think about.

There we were .
Finally being honest with ourselves.
Inhibitions lost.
The drinks began to do the talking.
We began to let go.
Indulge ourselves.
Forget about the world and her boundaries.
We were in our own world.
That of sexual exploration, with little to no contemplation.
You grabbed me and pushed me down.
Opened my shirt and began to nibble gently on each of my breasts.
Your mouth moved downward.
Kissing a trail to my valley.
Then you did it.
You took the forbidden fruit.
It was indeed pleasurable.
I saw the ocean, sun, moon, and prairie.
This was what I had been contemplating on all that time.
This was the summation of my thoughts.
Hum.
I came and went.
Then, taking a deep breath.
I whispered.
Okay... my turn.
The prior was reciprocated and I was pleased.
What did all of this mean?
I had just birthed my fantasy.

I have a creatively vivid imagination. Good stuff huh?

The End.

~Beingfreeisfreeing~

Dallas in a Nutshell

2006-08-08T21:46:00.000Z

It seems as though so much happened in my life with in the course of three days. I went to Dallas the weekend of August 4th-6th. This was a Friday to Sunday situation. So much happened during those 72 hours.

I stayed with a girl buddy of mine, Leggs. We had such and interesting time. I hung out with friends that I hadn't seen in, let's say years. I learned some interesting things about myself. My grandfather passed. My mom felt neglected. There is a ton more.

But... in a nutshell.

Friday, Aug. 4th:

Saw my first drug transaction.
Saw my father for the first time in 10 years.
Saw my grandfather alive for the last time.
Spent time with my aunts, grandmother, and father (on my father's side).
Spent some QT with my mother.
Met a really cool person (Bigg) face to face after writing and conversing via the phone and texts.
Saw a special friend that I hadn't seen in awhile.
Saw my bestest guy friend (Head). Man it had been awhile since we hung out.
Had an interesting event occur that was indeed pleasing.
Went to sleep, finally at 6am.

Saturday, Aug. 5th:

Couldn't erase Friday out of my mind. I really went out with a BANG!
Leggs and I got dressed and headed to my brother's baby shower.
I went to the shower and saw friends and family that I hadn't seen in awhile.
Spent some time hanging out with Leggs, spending priceless "girlfriend" time.
Went to a bar with Leggs, and her friend Tatt. His girlbuddies were there as well.
Went to a known gentleman's Club and had tons of fun.
Ended the night meeting up with Smokes. Truly interesting. We had lots to catch up on.
Went to sleep around 5am.

Sunday, Aug. 6th:

Received a call at 5:45am (shortly after I went to sleep), that my Grandfather had passed.
Hung out with Smokes, Tatt, and Leggs briefly.
Went to brunch with Leggs. Wrapping up the weekend.
Went to my grandparents house to grieve.
Headed back down 45, to HTown.

I will repeat the trip this weekend, considering that will be when they will be having the funeral and wake.

I know you guys would LOVE to have the juicy details, but, there are certain things I will keep to myself... for now at least.

The End.

~Toomuchgoingonforoneweekend~

Grandaddy's Gone

2006-08-08T20:42:00.001Z

This past weekend I went to Dallas for two main reasons.

1. To attend the baby shower for my new niece (my brother's baby).
2. To visit my Grandfather who is ill with cancer.

Upon entering the metroplex, I went directly to my Grandparents house. As I entered the house I saw my father (after 10 years), that was emotional in and of itself. I gave hugs and hellos to my aunts and grandmother. I entered the room where my grandfather was and, let's say, I wasn't prepared for what I saw.

He was lying in his hospital bed. His skin had turned slightly gray. He had an oxygen tube in his nose. His eyes reminded me that of a newborn baby. I felt sadness when looking at him. I had to immediately leave the room. Let me explain a little about my grandparents.

These are my parternal grandparents. I grew up in a single parent family. It was soley, my mom, brother, and me. My brother and I had different fathers. He grew up extremely close to his side of the family. Me, on the other hand was strictly with momma. I would go by every holiday to see my grandparents. Sometimes, aunts and cousins would be over, and I would catch a glimpse of them. Mainly it was my grandmother and grandfather that I had interactions with.

I loved "Daddy" (my grandfather- as I would call him). He was the closest piece I had to my biological father. I would always see him around town. He represented that side of the family. When I became an adult (with my own child), I always said I would make an effort to visit and learn more. I would extend the effort to make up for 25 years.

That was cut short the morning of Sunday, Aug. 6th, when I received a call from my aunt saying, "Granddaddy's Gone".

The way I feel inside, well... words cannot express. I will miss Daddy Roc ssssssssssoooo much. I will miss what wasn't, what was, and what could've been.

The End.

~Youwillbemissedmorethananythinggranddaddy~

Hey DALLAS I'm BACCK!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-06T00:30:00.000Z

OkAY. Rai is back in Dallas and just let me tell you, I have had an interesting trip thus far. Right now I am tipsy as I type and ccelebrating day 2 in this wonderful city. I am not even going to use spell or grammar check because I want this post to relect my sate of mind right now. Let see, what happened first.

Friday, Aug. 4th, 2006

As I drove intp my grandparents neighboorhood I saw my first drug transatction. I "white" guy on a bike rolls up to this black guy. They talk briefly, then BAM! That quick hand to hand transaction. I was on the phone wit my girl Essence (by theway she has an awesome blog ya'll need to check out: essenceunknown.blogspot.com). I paused long enough to noticce it. I couldn't believe it! My first actual viewing of a drug transaction. It was truly something.

Then... we pull up to my grand mothers house... (my aunt and uncle whrer with me). We nock on the door and wham... My father answers the door. For those of you that don't know, I haven't seen my father in 10 years. /I grew up in a single parent family. I kept clse tabs on my grandparents and aunts/uncles, but never saw my dad. It was emotional and happy for me. We embraced for what seemed like forever. We just looked at each other in shock. Do to my mental state right now I will dedicate a whole post to it later so I can really express how I felt.

I got a chance to see my grandfather, who is extremely ill. He has cancer and is expected to go any day now. He is 80+ years old so, he has lived a long life. It won't make it easier, but it is fact. He was lying in his hospital bed with a tube up his nose. It was sad to see.

Then... met up with Momma G (my mom). We hung out for awhile. I briefly told her about King. It was wierd 'cause we have never really talked about us. She was supportive. Who would have thunk it?

I then headed to Leggs' apartment downtown. It was sssssssoooooooooo good to see my girl. I am actually typing this post from her computer now. I always hang at her spot when I come to the good ole DTown. When I arrived at her apt. Bigg was there. It was really interesting to see him, considering, we met through this whole blog thing. He actually knew Leggs personally, so thats why I was cool with meeting him. He is a really cool cat. Obeys all the rules. Lives life right. Makes, little to few mistakes. Really cool... too "good guy" but cool all the same. I am an edgy chick. I disobey all the rules. So, it was interesting. We talked while I did my hair (Leggs and I went out). Cool artistic cat...with a cool artistic blog.

Let's see...

Net stop... the club!

Too much to post here. There will be more to come on a later post.

The End.

This alchol is really getting to me. I have to pause for the cause. I will be back sooner then you think.

~DallashasbeenAMAZINGallready~

It's August... and I made It... WHEW!!

2006-08-02T18:23:00.000Z

Hey Hiatus readers. I am back, black, and alive.

Tuesday morning (Aug. 1st, 2006) I woke up feeling HORRIBLE. I had a horrible cold sweat. My head was throbbing, and stomach bubbling. It was indeed "not pretty". I thought I could shake it off but, I couldn't. It was then that I knew I wouldn't be coming to work. It just wasn't achievable.

Sun and I spent the day lounging around. He probably watched 30 movies yesterday (probably more like 7). I was in and out of sleep. Couldn't stand for more than a few seconds with out getting dizzy. Then the tricky part came, preparing Sun something to eat. I made it though. I was able to hook him up some red beans and rice. It was nothing but God. Nothing but.

I ran out to get me some meds (around 7pm). King had called around 2pm to check on me. Said he would come by to make sure I was ok. He arrived around 9pm. I am not complaining... I really appreciate him caring enough to drive 45mins. out of his way to check on me. I am just a spoiled little princess, that's all. I'll write a post about it later. At anyrate we hung out... watched some tv, I took my meds, and went to sleep.

I woke up this morning and... good thing I feel better now, I totally despise being sick. Just thought I would fill you guys in on what was going on with me. I will post a little more later.

The End.

~Ooohitfeelsgoodtofeelgood~

A New Rai Day...

2006-08-01T02:26:00.000Z

It is official. I am starting back with my work out regime. Due to work, Sun, and the sister circle situation I took a Hiatus from getting my "fine" on. Well... I am back. I teach a group fitness (aerobics) class at my gym, so I have to be consistent with my workouts. So... today marks the official...

Rai Work Out Day!

I ran a mile on the treadmill. Did upper body on the weights (a little lower was included). Then, I brought it home on the stair master (cardio my friends). I feel so much better by just taking those small steps.

I am in pretty good condition as I type this blog, but let's face it... I can get a tad bit closer to perfection. I am staying true to my regime and I plan to lose 5% body fat and 10 lbs. That would put me closer to competition condition.

I can't wait!

The End.

~Mytempleindeedhastobeasbeautifulasmymind~

Out of the Mouths of Babes

2006-08-01T00:42:00.000Z

After a 10hr. stint at work, Sunshine and I prepared to take it in for the night. As we were walking out of my place of employment he suggested to me...

Sunshine: Mommy.
Rai: Yes baby.
Sunshine: You get on my nervous.
Rai: (in disbelief) What did you just say?
Sunshine: You get on my nervous.
Rai: (still in disbelief) Were did you hear that from?
Sunshine: Well Mommy, ALL kids have nervous.

Basically my 3 yr. old son was attempting to convey to me that I got on his nerves.

What do you do? I was holding back that laughter so, I couldn't reprimand him.

The End.

~Thenexttimethishappeneachofyouwillhearaboutathreeyearoldinhoustonbeingknockedthroughawall~
Not really... this is all in fun. I love Sun.

Greens and Hot Water Corn Bread...

2006-08-01T00:26:00.000Z

Hello All! Let's sum this post up to the fact that I am indeed home sick! I miss Dallas, TX sssssssssoooooooo much right now. It all started with my craving for...

GREENS AND HOT WATER CORNBREAD (a little Mac and Cheese wouldn't hurt ;0p).

Growing up that was pretty much the main dish my Grandmomma would hook up. Every Sunday. There it was... greenshotwatercornbreaddressingyamsandbakedchicken... whew! I had to get that off of me. I have been craving this wonderful "soul food", probably because I am heading home this weekend. I CANNOT wait. Sunday afternoon, I will be in GM's kitchen with a fork in one hand, a plate in the other... let us not neglect the napkin that will be tucked in my shirt.

I was feeling "home sick" so to speak so... I decided to write about one of the main things I look forward to when I am heading home to Dallas!

The End.

~OoooohhhIhopegrannymadesomesweetteatotopitalloff!~

I Got My Coochie Checked...

2006-07-30T00:38:00.000Z

Okay, now that I have gotten your attention... I know what you all are thinking. She is definitely at it again.

You would be right. Back in May I did a post on the importance of a Well Women's exam. It is indeed important. So important I felt it would only be right if I shared my personal experience with you all. I did receive my exam this past week.

I hadn't been in about a year. Which is fine because unless something is "wrong", Dr.'s recommend getting yourself checked annually. So let's see, where do I start?

It was raining terribly bad on this morning and I had to make arrangements for Sunshine to be dropped off at my job prior to my appointment. There was ABSOLUTELY NO way that I would take him with me. He is far too curious about the "lower region" as is. Where was I? Ok... I remember. I dropped him off so a really good friend (employee) could keep an eye on him. I then proceeded to the Dr.s office.

I was running about 15 mins. late due to the weather so, I called ahead of time to let them know. Maria, the office assistant that answered the phone didn't seem especially friendly, but she was understanding due to the fact that the weather was indeed a problem on that day. When I finally arrived, the office was fairly packed. About 5 to 7 people in front of me, which is a lot considering I would have to wait, because I was so late. I signed in and waited to see the Dr. As I nestled into my seat I heard the annoying (LOUD) voice of a man talking on his cell phone. I am assuming he was waiting for someone and attempted to "waste" time by talking on the phone. Let me just tell you, it was indeed annoying. I basically knew everything that was going on in his personal life.

"Rai, you can come back now." Those words were music to my ears. As I proceeded back to the examining room area, I had to make a couple of stops. First, the scale. Whew... it was soo scary. I had gained 5 lbs. Next stop, bathroom... urine sample time. Third and final stop, examination room. The nurse asked ALL kinds of personal questions, took my blood pressure, and asked me to disrobe and wait for the doctor. It was exactly 12 noon when the nurse left the room.

I sit there completely naked underneath the paper shirt and sheet they gave me to put on. It was pretty chilly in there. I had a 1pm meeting at work, so I was in a hurry to get the process over with. 12:10pm... 12:15pm... 12:30pm... the nurse comes in... the Dr. will be with you in a moment, she has one patient in front of you. I began to panic. There would be know way I would make my meeting. Had to give the J O B a call. Talked to my boss and everything was fine.

Around 12:55pm my Dr. finally comes in. She is sssssssooooooooo funny. Me, if I was an OB/GYN. She asked about me and Sun. She commented on how MARVELOUS I looked, even though, after that whole "scale" episode I didn't feel anywhere near marvelous. She checked my breathing and did a once over. she asked me to lay back and opened my make shift gown. After examining each of my breasts, she stated... "Spread 'em". I placed each foot on a stirrup... scooted and layed down and relaxed. We were holding an interesting conversation about my occupation as she took this BRIGHT lamp and placed it in front of my "area". She took the necessary tool and slowly placed it inside of me. I felt a tug and pull as she clipped a piece of tissue from my uterus. She then took the tool out (putting the tissue in the proper container) and placed two fingers inside of me. She moved her fingers around inside of me as she pressed firmly on my stomach. She pulled her fingers out, look at me and said, "looks good to me".

We talked about birth control methods. I told her I currently wasn't using one and she suggested Nuva Ring. I obliged. I guess we will see how this works.

I proceeded to the check out area to set up my next appointment. After briefly telling me when I would be needed back, the receptionist asked me to get my blood tests done. After that, I returned back to the window to confirm my appointment. She asked if I had changed my number because, when she called the male voiced seemed kind of surprised to have someone calling there for me. I said (in a joking way), "Yes, you called my Baby's Daddy's house, and I don't appreciate him all in my business!". She started to laugh. She told me of a reminder call she had made prior to mine, and apparently the "new" girlfriend answered the phone and was not happy. She wanted to know all types of personal info (when the girl was due, her last name). She even threatened to come to the Dr.'s office. Pure drama! We laughed. I received necessary prescriptions. That was it!

LADIES-
It is serious out there. It is important to visit your GYN annually (at least) to check out the goings on in your body. The choice is yours. What do you choose?

The End.

~Ladiesitisextremelyimportantokeepupwiththegoingsondownthere~

Ooooh the Exhaustion

2006-07-28T02:04:00.000Z

I almost retired for the night with out blessing my blog. I couldn't do you all like that. It is almost 9pm and I am ssssssssssoooooooooo exhausted. Worked a 10 hr day, and peep this, just taught an fitness class.

Details will come later.

I worked out so hard, I barely know my name at this point. But I do know one thing though, I cannot afford to be tired currently. I have things to do tonight. Lots of things to do. Let's see... where do I start?

I have to grab Sunshine something to eat. He didn't necessarily want what I prepared so... what the hay! I am in no mood to argue... I pick my battles.

I have to perm this head. Whew! You all just don't know how close I am to pulling an India.Arie "I am not my hair" and shaving it all off. I am oh so close. This whole perm issue is getting pretty old, and lets just say, I have hair "from the motherland". Power to the people!

Uhhmmm... what else?

I just snaged Tyler Perry's play, "Madea goes to Jail", I really...really want to see it!

I have to wash and clean up my apartment. Sun is leaving to go with Confused K tomorrow so... I have to get him prepared.

There's always a phone convo with King and sleep!

Until the next time.

The End.

p.s. Attaining this whole Proverbs 31st woman goal is extremely harder then it seems.

~Ooohhexhaustioncausesconfusion!~

Jealousy and Envy... A Woman's two Best Friends

2006-07-27T01:40:00.000Z

Bare with me Ladies and Gents. I'm about to say it... Say it all. You may not like it but... the truth hurts a tad bit at times.

Why are women jealous of each other?
Why do women neglect to admit the extent of their jealousy and envy?
Why do women cover it up by bringing (making) up "crazy" personality traits about the other, that at times don't exist?
Why must a woman pass another, and instead of saying, "hi", look her up and down, judging her appearance?

There is one main answer to the above listed questions. Women are INSECURE! I don't care how pretty, fine, intelligent, they are. There is always a slight bit of insecurity in the formula. Ladies! We are ALL beautiful in our own unique way. Why must women feel they have to compete with each other? There are plenty men out there to go around. We are DESTROYING our relationships with each other, because of US.

You must first and foremost accept and love what you see when you look in the mirror. You must be soley comfortable in your own skin. We should be building each other up, not tearing one another down. We must find that hidden quality within ourselves that make us different. We should respect and love our fellow women. That's what it is all about.

How do we expect men to treat us with respect, when we don't even respect each other? It makes no sense to me.

On a personal note:
I have been dealing with women being intimidated and jealous of me since a very young age. The funny thing about it is, I have always been really friendly and thrived on friendships. All be honest. God blessed me with beauty, a nice physique, and intelligence. I have never been and will never be a threat to another woman. I embrace my gifts and I use them to better me, not tear anyone else down. I am in a managerial position at my job (supervising around 22-27 women), I have a beautiful son who gets EVERY weekend with his father and is financially taken care of, I am pioneering a women's movement, and lots of other things. I am extremely outspoken and strong willed. I do not accept mediocre and I live a stress free life. I do this by CHOICE. Other's opinions of me (while I take into consideration loved one's), do not matter. God's opinion of me is the only thing that will be reflected by the passing of my day's. I am a positive person and I choose to be this way.

Why would someone be jealous of that?

I can take criticism from "man", but only God can judge me.

LADIES!

Love your self. Do your thing. Embrace your fellow women. We are in this struggle together. Let's know, fully understand, and embrace our purpose. Until we do that, we can expect little to nothing from our male counter parts.

The End.

~Trueunderstandingofselfoverseestrueremption~

Friendship...

2006-07-26T20:54:00.000Z

What an interesting topic. Friendships!

Did you know that friendships are the most important relationship there is? Often times we put sole energy into our romantic relationships, meanwhile we neglect those friends that were there before and will be there after the romantic fling has ran it's course.

Don't misunderstand me. We must first know the meaning of "true" friendship and attributes of such. Everyone we are acquainted with is not our friend. Just like (I hope) one wouldn't sleep with someone until they have knowledge of their character and intentions; we should fully know and be at peace with the person before we call them friend.

Our friends should be on the same page we are as far as spiritual and mental mind sets are concerned. I by no means am saying that your friends should be your clone, but you both should respect and understand each other equally. Friends are delicate entities.

A Few Attributes Important to Friendships...
Communication
Understanding
Nonjudgement
Honesty
Trust
Sincerity

Just to name a few.

Friendships are priceless. EVERYONE is not your friend. Statistics show that only 3% of acquaintance's that people interact with are their true friend. I agree with B's post on an interesting blog (Titled: "Just a Few Thoughts" on Memoirs of the Grown and Sexy), that people either come in your life for a Reason/Season/Lifetime. True friendships are for a lifetime, actually, true friends become family that you meet on your journey through life.

We should cherish true friendships. There is nothing wrong with having Ladies Night Out, with a few of your lady aquaintances. I will say, it would be wise to keep it that. Never allow your self to get trapped into potentially hazardous friendships (if you can control it).

On a personal note...

I have just a FEW TRUE friends. I can count them on one hand. I know that they will forever be there for me. I love and will do anything for my girls (and guy- one of my BF's is actually a guy)

That's the important thing.

The End.

~Itruefriendshipislikeyourfavoriteblanky~