My BDay His Way...
Hello Hiatus Readers!
I am back... it is two days after my crossover to 26, and I don't quite know how I feel. My party... well... we made the best out of what we had to work with. I will dedicate a post solely to that later. Back to me...
January 27th! My birthday! For 25 years everyone close to me has been making a "big deal" over my birthday. That day is always wonderful and it is all about me! At least I thought it was. You know when you are in a relationship with someone you like for "them" to make you feel special. Not everyone else.
Ok. I am rambling... let me get to the point.
Though his intentions were good King planned "my" bday around what "he" enjoyed doing. Don't get me wrong, it was really nice. We went to a nice bead store and he created a necklace for me (made with love). We then went to eat. Went back to his house. Went to a Jazz Club. It was a nice evening... however it didn't celebrate me on my day. I spend so much time worrying with life and not taking time for myself. This was the one day that I wanted everything to be about me. We did all the things he likes to do. It had very little to do with me. I was then "chastised" in way about how everyone (my close friends and family) makes a big deal about me... he compared it to a Puffy video with all the dancers, confetti, and trumpets. Lol... there is a tad bit of truth etched in there... if I am being honest with myself. He spent the night on and off of his Blackberry taking business calls. The night wasn't about me at all. I was being "fitted" into a schedule.
We took separate cars and I remember driving back to his house crying hysterically. Best believe I am not a cryer, but my feelings were really hurt. I just wanted his time and attention on MY day and I didn't get it. We have had conversation after conversation about it but I had to share the story with the world.
King is extremely private and won't want this published but this is bigger than him. This is about me and how I need to work through some issues that I am struggling with. So... was there a lesson learned from Rai's 26th birthday?
Sure was.
God has blessed me with a beautiful son, family/friends and a man who LOVES me his way. I love King for him and I would never attempt to turn him in to someone he isn't. He loves the way he loves. I love the way I love. He shared that time with me the way he does when he cares about someone. The fact that he is there when I need him is all that matters.
I am getting older and have more things to focus on.
Lets see...
What's next?
The End.
~26startedprettyrockyletsseewhereitendsup~
I am back... it is two days after my crossover to 26, and I don't quite know how I feel. My party... well... we made the best out of what we had to work with. I will dedicate a post solely to that later. Back to me...
January 27th! My birthday! For 25 years everyone close to me has been making a "big deal" over my birthday. That day is always wonderful and it is all about me! At least I thought it was. You know when you are in a relationship with someone you like for "them" to make you feel special. Not everyone else.
Ok. I am rambling... let me get to the point.
Though his intentions were good King planned "my" bday around what "he" enjoyed doing. Don't get me wrong, it was really nice. We went to a nice bead store and he created a necklace for me (made with love). We then went to eat. Went back to his house. Went to a Jazz Club. It was a nice evening... however it didn't celebrate me on my day. I spend so much time worrying with life and not taking time for myself. This was the one day that I wanted everything to be about me. We did all the things he likes to do. It had very little to do with me. I was then "chastised" in way about how everyone (my close friends and family) makes a big deal about me... he compared it to a Puffy video with all the dancers, confetti, and trumpets. Lol... there is a tad bit of truth etched in there... if I am being honest with myself. He spent the night on and off of his Blackberry taking business calls. The night wasn't about me at all. I was being "fitted" into a schedule.
We took separate cars and I remember driving back to his house crying hysterically. Best believe I am not a cryer, but my feelings were really hurt. I just wanted his time and attention on MY day and I didn't get it. We have had conversation after conversation about it but I had to share the story with the world.
King is extremely private and won't want this published but this is bigger than him. This is about me and how I need to work through some issues that I am struggling with. So... was there a lesson learned from Rai's 26th birthday?
Sure was.
God has blessed me with a beautiful son, family/friends and a man who LOVES me his way. I love King for him and I would never attempt to turn him in to someone he isn't. He loves the way he loves. I love the way I love. He shared that time with me the way he does when he cares about someone. The fact that he is there when I need him is all that matters.
I am getting older and have more things to focus on.
Lets see...
What's next?
The End.
~26startedprettyrockyletsseewhereitendsup~
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