Decisions
October 12th, 2006, I cheated on Blog Spot. I put a blog entry on another website. I was so ashamed. I didn't think I would even be able to admit it to myself, but hey! I am human. I just want to preface this entry by saying... No, King and I are not breaking up! We are deeply in love and that will never change. I was going through some things at the time and I decided to let it out in a poem.
I have overcame that which I was going through. But, nevertheless it was a deep piece and I really would like to share it.
As I sit here pen and pad in hand,
I wonder about my master plan,
Things must change,
Life always presents us with a range,
Of options that is,
I was too busy with my own perception of the relationship,
I forgot about his,
I had it planned out to perfection,
Never did I realize his perception,
Of it all, I was so eager to fall,
Creating personal love songs to sing,
I had our wedding planned before any mention of a ring,
Then it came to me,
I'm so busy worrying about "we",
It's time for me to follow MY master plan,
Which is about ME and not a man,
Its a hard decision to make,
But hey, you can't cheat fate,
I have to let it go,
The best thing for me if I want to grow,
Defining myself with nothing to hide,
Getting tired of the coat tail ride,
Now that I've stated my position,
I begin to make my hard decision...
Goodbye.
~Rai~
~Sometimesthehardestdecisionsbringoutthebestoutcomes.~
I have overcame that which I was going through. But, nevertheless it was a deep piece and I really would like to share it.
As I sit here pen and pad in hand,
I wonder about my master plan,
Things must change,
Life always presents us with a range,
Of options that is,
I was too busy with my own perception of the relationship,
I forgot about his,
I had it planned out to perfection,
Never did I realize his perception,
Of it all, I was so eager to fall,
Creating personal love songs to sing,
I had our wedding planned before any mention of a ring,
Then it came to me,
I'm so busy worrying about "we",
It's time for me to follow MY master plan,
Which is about ME and not a man,
Its a hard decision to make,
But hey, you can't cheat fate,
I have to let it go,
The best thing for me if I want to grow,
Defining myself with nothing to hide,
Getting tired of the coat tail ride,
Now that I've stated my position,
I begin to make my hard decision...
Goodbye.
~Rai~
~Sometimesthehardestdecisionsbringoutthebestoutcomes.~
posted by CRay at 12:08:00 AM
1 Comments:
LOVES IT, LOVES IT!
This is how I've felt... sometimes feel... jumping the gun a bit and well, you know we women do that. We've planned baby names before we know their mother's first name. Crazy indeed. But yes, it it all about decisions and making them for YOUR destiny and being supportive of his...and yall finding a was to cohesivly exist. (spell check)
thanks for posting something today. i'll be stopping thru regularly again. Good to have you back sis!
leggs
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