A "Mental" Pause
Hey guys... I had no one to talk to so... I chose you all. I really need to take a "mental" pause from things going on in my life right now. The best way to go about this is to empty my mind and start fresh let's say... uh... tomorrow.
So... here goes a couple of random things that are wearing on my mind.
1. A friendship with someone who was "supposed" to be a close friend of mine. I assumed, but it was never actually stated. We had been friends for years. Went through lots of things together and out of the blue she started acting "brand new". I have attempted to reach out but, nothing has happened. Normally, I would just kick the whole idea and person to the curb but, I care about her as a friend, so it is really hard for me to do. Whenever she is ready I will be around but, as of now, case is closed.
2. An incident happened that was the fault of King and myself, but I ended up flipping the entire bill for the correction of it. He told me he would give me the money but never did. He then ran into some financial problems so, he never payed me. I am attempting to be understanding, but times are hard for me too. (... I know what you all may be thinking and NO... I do not believe in abortion so... it isn't that!)
3. I am in the process of starting a non-profit organization, and is having a hard time finding women that are really dedicated. Actually God blessed me with 7, that feel as strongly about the "WHEW Movement" as I do, but I wanted a few more members to start out with. I know I need to just chill out and accept what He has so graciously given me. It's just been on my mind lately.
Let's see what else...
4. My mom. Aaahh...my mom. I love her to pieces. We just can't reside in the same dwelling. At anyrate... she is in a marriage that is going absolutely no where. The AC at her house just went out (do to some business that should have been handled years ago) and she is still at home sweating it out. My momma is an asthmatic so it is not good for her health. I think she is really sick (worse then what she is letting on) and every conversation we have ends in an argument. My mother is a very strongwilled person, it's just, she is hard headed to. She doesn't like to ask for help. I wish she would let me help her. I have been asking her to move to Houston to stay with me for awhile (I realize the statement I made earlier about us living together but, this is an extreme circumstance). She doesn't want to leave her husband. I guess I wasn't meant to understand... 'cause I don't.
I guess those would be the 4 major things plaguing my mind right now. I have just "thrown them up" so to speak, so...
I welcome my "Mental" Pause.
The End.
~Thebrainneedstotakeabreaksometimes~
So... here goes a couple of random things that are wearing on my mind.
1. A friendship with someone who was "supposed" to be a close friend of mine. I assumed, but it was never actually stated. We had been friends for years. Went through lots of things together and out of the blue she started acting "brand new". I have attempted to reach out but, nothing has happened. Normally, I would just kick the whole idea and person to the curb but, I care about her as a friend, so it is really hard for me to do. Whenever she is ready I will be around but, as of now, case is closed.
2. An incident happened that was the fault of King and myself, but I ended up flipping the entire bill for the correction of it. He told me he would give me the money but never did. He then ran into some financial problems so, he never payed me. I am attempting to be understanding, but times are hard for me too. (... I know what you all may be thinking and NO... I do not believe in abortion so... it isn't that!)
3. I am in the process of starting a non-profit organization, and is having a hard time finding women that are really dedicated. Actually God blessed me with 7, that feel as strongly about the "WHEW Movement" as I do, but I wanted a few more members to start out with. I know I need to just chill out and accept what He has so graciously given me. It's just been on my mind lately.
Let's see what else...
4. My mom. Aaahh...my mom. I love her to pieces. We just can't reside in the same dwelling. At anyrate... she is in a marriage that is going absolutely no where. The AC at her house just went out (do to some business that should have been handled years ago) and she is still at home sweating it out. My momma is an asthmatic so it is not good for her health. I think she is really sick (worse then what she is letting on) and every conversation we have ends in an argument. My mother is a very strongwilled person, it's just, she is hard headed to. She doesn't like to ask for help. I wish she would let me help her. I have been asking her to move to Houston to stay with me for awhile (I realize the statement I made earlier about us living together but, this is an extreme circumstance). She doesn't want to leave her husband. I guess I wasn't meant to understand... 'cause I don't.
I guess those would be the 4 major things plaguing my mind right now. I have just "thrown them up" so to speak, so...
I welcome my "Mental" Pause.
The End.
~Thebrainneedstotakeabreaksometimes~
posted by CRay at 8:25:00 PM
3 Comments:
1) The subject of your 'brand new acting' friend: have you actually tried to reach out? A lot of people vary on what it is that actually constitutes keeping in communication with another person. If every effort has been made to actually keep this person as close as you portray, then maybe it was not meant to be. In that instance, I would think that if you cared then you would have to actually sit down and consider what is different about the relationship and what has changed in order take something from this experience and grow.
Also, communicating that information instead of holding it in can be very therpeutic. In the process of reavealing your feelings, you may be able to open the doors of communication that you are currently missing with that particular person. Heck, maybe they are not even aware of your feelings on the fact that they have supposedly changed.
Sometimes, it's all about timing and how you relay your words.
2) If this is a man that you truely care about, then just eat it. While the two of you are supposed to be splitting the bill, utimately sometimes, as I am sure you know, you have to take care of things on your own. If he is having financial difficulties, then be happy in the fact that you are able to support yourself, then support him mentally (and financially, if you got it like that) in his time of need.
3)Just because someone that has been supporting you misses a meeting, does not make them any less dedicated than they were when the WHEW movement first took off. I would word your statements just a little bit more carefully so that you do not hurt someone that is close to you, in the process of you venting.
But then again, it is your blog so...
Finally
4) Your mother is a married woman. She has made a committment share her life with that person. Regardless of if you believe that she is in a marriage that is going no where, there has to be something there for her to not want to leave his side, even temporarily for the betterment of her health. And if that is not the case, she is your mother. It sounds to me that the both of your are headheaded/stubborn. Letting on the she may be sicker than she portrays would be a sign of weakness. I do not picture your mother as someone that she would want to be fussed over.
I do not know her, but that's just my observation.
Keep up the writing; it is an interesting take on a different kind of life. Very entertaining.
1) People are in our lives for "a reason, a season, or a lifetime." You must be willing to ask God which of these is the case, and accept his answer. God knows I had to accept that bitter truth... but once I did, the truth wasnt so sour and I was able to identify the purpose in the relationship. I think it made me wiser in many ways.
2) You already know how I feel about it. And me being in the ME-MYSELF-I phase that i am in, I am NOT the one to give advise to anyone in a relationship. So I will save my ranting and raving for another day.
3) I see both sides of the coin. Why? because I'm a GEMINI and thats what we do! Your mother is a wise woman and she knows what she is doing. Offer her help, but if she resists, then just be there for her as best you can. But I agree 400%... GROWN WOMEN ARE NOT MEANT TO ABIDE IN THE SAME DWELLING. (i say this hypocritically, as i am about to enter into a new lease with our homie))
Pausing is sometimes the best thing. I, too, am in this phase of pausing. And ya know? Pausing is good because its like, you were moving forward and then decided to pause... to take a rest... to think and reflect. Its not a complete and utter STOP. Its a pause. There is a difference. And VCR/Cassette/DVD player manufacturers everywhere recoginzed the significance between 'stopping' and 'pausing', thus giving them their respective buttons.
If we did not pause, we would let the little things pass us by... the things we are meant to 'pause' and take notice of. Life can be so FULL and so BUSY that if we fail to pause, we miss our blessings.
I aint worried about 'cha! You are a strong sista... and positive chica... and an inspiring friend. You always have been. Take this time to embrace RAI and all thats been going on in her atmosphere. Take as long as you need to regain your center and then...
Get back on ya stroll.
Luv ya hun!
LEGGS
Very pretty site! Keep working. thnx!
»
Post a Comment
<< Home