Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Embracing U...

ATTENTION LADIES...

It is time for us to cut the crap out and EMBRACE OURSELVES!

We are not crazy (as men will have us to think). We are AWESOMELY (a word of my creation) wonderful creatures that God made with care. It is okay to be...

Emotional
Quick to Fall in Love
Talkative
Nosy
A Gossip
Focused
Proactive
Strong willed
Determined

and many...many...more characteristics. We were simply made differently than men, and instead of trying to be like them, we need to learn to embrace who we are individually. It is ok to be unique. Actually, that is what makes us, US. Hummm... Let me explain my personal characteristics. It will make more sense then. I am...

Boisterous
Witty
Outgoing
Humorous
Compassionate
Sexual
Talkative
Spiritual
Emotional
Understanding
Caring
Loud
Responsible
Careless
Laid back
Uptight
Confident
... so on and so forth.

Radiance is...

God's Child
Sunshine's Mom
Momma G's Daughter
King's Connection (Mate)
WHEW's Inspiration
Confused K's Baby's Momma
Da Clique's Fun Chic
The Kiddies' Teacher

My point is... My life is a play and I have MANY...MANY roles. They are all me... as different as they are. Basically... what I am trying to say is... ENJOY YOU! You are all you've got!

The End.

~Whyhateonyourselfwhenyoucanembraceyourself?~

Humph... So Long Celibacy!

Ok...ok... I am being so so honest with this whole blog thing. It is extremely refreshing to be able to write from the heart. Sure, I am going to be EXTREMELY famous one day but... I can look back at this and really appreciate that from which I came.

I spent a WONDERFUL Memorial Day weekend with my connection (King). The more and more I grow with him, the more I want to be with him. We spent four days together. Without thinking (too hard), it just happened. Let me tell you... It was WONDROUS. The whole package. It was spiritual, physical, emotional, and mental all at the same time.

Ok...Ok...Ok...

I know what you are thinking... "I thought she was supposed to be this Christian that was living her life right"? Yes that is still me. I may not know what the future holds but... what I do know is, a feeling like this does not happen often. I am determined to enjoy ALL areas of this new journey I am taking. No... I will not be dumb and I will follow my Soul Mate Action Plan. I am a big girl now and I know I can handle it.

Sooooooooo....

My vow of Celibacy has ended and my journey with my Soul Mate has truly began.

The End.

~IwillneverbeastupidignorantfemalebutIwillenjoythistimeinmylife~

Friday, May 26, 2006

Live Life Day to Day

This will be a quick post.

I had a deep conversation with my dear friend "Che", last night. I was so positive telling her that only she controlled her life...her future...her destiny. It was an extremely wonderful conversation. I told her how important it was to live each day to the fullest and not worry as much about the future. She then asked a great question...

"If I only worry about today, how will I ensure that I have a wonderful future?"

I was stunned at first...to say the least. I then thought about it and it suddenly made perfect sense.

It's almost like a race, I told her. Let's say you are in a 10 mile race. You could A. spend the duration of the race thinking about how awesome it will be when you finish. You could think about the cold shower you will take, and the delicious meal you will eat. Or... you could B. pace yourself... work hard each moment of the race. Rest when you are tired... endure when you aren't. Then, before you know it the race will be over. With option A., you most likely won't win because you are not focused enough on the race itself but, on the outcome. Choosing option B. would be a better decision because, you will live in each moment of the race thus winning/completing it with no regrets.

The moral of the story is... if you work hard enough and enjoy your present, a wonderfully prosperous future is inevitable.

~Livinginthepresentensuresanoffthechainfuture~

!Out!

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Okay...Joke Was on Me... I Prevailed Though...

Hey Guys... you will never believe this. I posted a very, very HAPPY! post on Tuesday night. Well... after a long days work, my son and I head out to the parking lot.

WHADDAAYAH Know...

My car wouldn't start. I was just talking to myself (while walking to the car) reflecting on how I would live in the moment and be HAPPY! So... I took Sunshine (my son) out of the car and we proceeded back into the building. Luckily my friend, Princessa J was still working out because she took care of him for me while I dealt with Roadside Assistance.

Okay... after talking to the operator, I awaited the guy who was supposed to revive Cammy (my car). Soon, a guy called... I gave him directions and he showed up pretty quickly. He called to tell me he was in front of the building. As I walked outside a short man (Middle eastern decent ) was standing next to a beat up old school Lincoln Town Car. He was smiling as he extended his hand. I was so nerved up about my car, I paid little mind.

Fast forward...

He charged my battery up... I turned the car off and on... again... nothing. He gave me a jump to get me home. I was so disappointed. I am not going to lie. I am so positive to everyone else but... I was trippin Tuesday night.

King (my connection...aka soul-mate aka...Boyfriend- ooooooooohhhhhhhh unless he reads this blog he doesn't even know I refer to him as King) Let me explain briefly... he is a MAN... in the sense God intended. He definitely has the potential to be my King. So, I will refer to him as such. Maybe I will tell him one day. Okay... so anyway... my King came to the rescue (which I had no problem with). He took off from work... and came to check my battery... take it out of my car... took it to the store to get a replacement... and install the new one.


All in all things worked out. It was pretty frustrating but... God worked it out for me!

~IamstillhappyandIknowitwhywouldn'tIbe?~

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

If your happy and you know it...Clap your hands!

If your happy and you know it clap your hands... (clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it clap your hands (clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it, then your face will surely show it
If you're happy and you know it clap your hands (clap clap)

I am sssssssssoooooooooo happy right now. I received a quote from a dear friend...

"To be happy, we must live in the present. Living in the past often brings painful memories and living in the future can bring worry and fear. Lord, when my thoughts slip away, help me quickly return my attention to where I am at this moment. "
~unknown~

I am so down with that. We (including myself) spend too much time either on the past or the future. Live in the moment and make each day a GGGGGGGRRRRREEEEEEEEAAAAAATTTTTTT one.

I will have some updates tomorrow.
Out.


~Don'tworrybehappyitmakesthemostsense~

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

I am Ready for Love... Or Am I? Yes... I am.

India Arie said it best on her '01 debut Album Acoustic Soul. Track #8 ... Ready For Love. It basically talks about being at a point in your life when you are through with running around... playing the field.


You are just ready...
Ready to what?

Be with someone that you can spend your life with.
Till death do you part.
Grow and learn from someone.
Evolve with someone.

You know what? I am cutting this short because I am getting too mushy right now.

I am ready.

~Beingwithsomeoneisawesomeespceiallywhenitisyoursssssoouuuuullmmmateeeeeee~

Check out the lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/indiaarie/readyforlove.html

What's on my heart?

I really, really want to bless this blog with something insightful before I retire for the night. What will it be? What will I say? I don't know so... I am going to do something cool. I am going to type randomly what comes to my mind.

Yeah! What's on my heart.
Okay! Ready...set...GO!

I love chicken.
Hold on...let me check this new email.
Oooh this job is getting old.
I wonder what my 'soul mate' is doing now.
Would they stop playing this loud music.
I need to read my bible more.
I need to go and pick up my son... even though he is probably not ready to go.
I am hungry.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

okay...okay... I zoned out for a minute.
Here we go...

I can't wait to be the person I am ultimately going to be.
Or can I?
Will that little girl in the hall stop crying!
I really want to impact the lives of those who surround me.
Does my 'soul mate' feel as strongly about me as I do him?
I am sleepy.
K. Time to go.

Those were my thoughts. What can I say? I am tired. Maybe I will write tomorrow.

~goodnightsleeptightdon'tletthebedbugsbite!~

God is not too good to be true... Indeed He is GREAT!

As I venture into this new relationship thing, I realize... I got what I asked for.

Let me explain.

I prayed an extremely specific prayer. I talked to God and told him that I wanted him to send me one of His kings who...

Had a personal relationship with Him
Valued family
Was extremely intelligent and well rounded
Excelled in whatever profession he involved himself
Had integrity
Was a MAN and knew and accepted his role as such
Would comfort, support, and adore me
Would aid me in being the woman that I know I have the potential to be
Would be open, honest, and communicate with me
I could build a life with
Would accept me for who I am
Would be able to see past my outer beauty, into my soul
so on and so forth...

It appears (with the naked eye) that I have found such man. I am afraid (I will be honest). I want to think and know that he is indeed the one for me but... I often-times allow my past to affect how I feel about him. Let me explain... I basically (at times) feel this is too good to be true, because, I have never, ever, EVER felt this way about someone. I can talk to him, but I like to sort things out myself. I get clarity that way. So here is my...

Soul Mate Action Plan:

I will continue to open my heart to this new venture.
I will stay focused on being the woman that I am predestined to be.
I will be open to a new way of thinking (with out jeopardizing my own beliefs).
I will listen to his words but judge his feelings for me by his actions.
I will stay mindful and know a 'red flag' when I see one.
I will realize this meeting was set by God and I will use Him as my guide through this relationship.

The End.

For once in a long time, I am happy.
I will live in the moment.
I will have no regrets, regardless of the outcome of this situation.


WHEW! I am glad I got that off of my chest! I will refer back to this blog as needed! Lord knows I will.


~2 People 1 God~

Thursday, May 18, 2006

True Beauty. What is it?

Ok... I alway's start my posts 'keepin' it real so, I knew I should discuss the topic of beauty. Where does beauty derive from? So many young women watch music videos and incorporate the girating figures on the screen as beauty. Is beauty soley a physical thing? Is beauty only incorporated with one's inner being?

Hhhhuuuuummmmmmm...

Beauty is all of the above. Let me explain. A beautiful woman is one that will get your attention and keep it. A beautiful lady is the one seated across the room from you. She is quietly chuckling to herself and making subtle eye contact. You notice her and walk to her corner of the room. No doubt, she is wearing a face full of perfectly placed MAC make up. You can't help but notice her almond shaped/colored eyes. With full pouty lips and a perfect nose. Gorgeous diamond studs in her ears. Heavenly (Victoria's secret perfume) is ever so gently hugging her neck, ears, and chest. A backless Vera Wang gown hangs from her flawlessly toned body. Her pedicured feet are sporting glamorous Jimmy Choo 3 inch heels. What beautiful sight to envison. It get's better...

You approach her with a simple, "Hello, how are you?". That sparks a 1 hour conversation. She tells you about the book she is writing and women's shelter she volunteers at twice a month. You also find out she is a vegan who loves animals. She is not seeing anyone because she is on a self discovery journey. She compliments you on your approach and your nice Kenneth Cole shoes you are wearing. She listens entently as you talk about your career and life plans. You all exchange numbers and wait for the future.

That is true beauty assuming she is not some crazed physcopath and you aren't either.

All in all ture beauty is something that flows from the inside out. Yes...yes.. yes, you will certainly recognize outter beauty first, but the two walk hand in hand.


Are you beautiful?
I sure am!

They Tryna Get Me for My Paper!

OMG! I am just about through! First... the student loan people jackin' my check up monthly. Then, to top it off... my rent decided to go up by $100.00. I am too... too through! My lease will be up in 2 months and yesterday, I received a letter basically saying,

"You got over on us the first go round but... you are gonna have to pay."

So, that means that I am going to have to find a place for me and my seed to rest our heads. It is out of control! What am I supposed to do? I tell you what I am supposed to do. I am supposed to get off of my behind and look for an apartment just as nice as mine and affordable. OHHH... life will be so much easier when I am successful with my Women's Group. I mean, I will be so busy touring and interviewing with people I won't have time to worry about money. I will have too much of it. Ohhh... I can't wait to relax in my HUGE mansion with my husband and children!

WHEW!!! Let me get started on my Apt. search!

~Out~

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Ode to Bullet...


I promise... I am through with all these sexual posts. I am about a heck of alot more than that. I just have to share this with you. Anyone who knows me knows that I am in LOVE with Bullet. Okay...okay... this is how it all started.

A friend of mine had a sex toy party. Guess who she invited... ME! It was a 'girls' party and we had fun indeed! She introduced us to all types of gadgets and gizmos. I was pretty tipsy that night so, I didn't recollect what I purchased, but I know that when I looked in my wallet the next morning, my $50.00 bill was gone! It took about two weeks for the order to come back but, when it did, I realized I had received this gadget named "the silver bullet". The picture above is self explanatory (as far has how it looks) but the sensation it gives is AMAZING. So at any rate, I went to the corner store to purchase some AA batteries. I was in for a BIG treat. I achieve my first orgasm in life that night. It was a done deal from there. I had 'encounters' with bullet as much as eight times daily.

Sounds sad huh?
There's more...

After two weeks I broke that bullet (almost electrocuted myself). I had a ceremony for him... the girls came over and we had a candle lit visual. It was quite a sad occasion. Then off to the Flick Shop to get a new one...

It was really sad. I craved bullet daily. I could have an orgasm with 'him' in about 35 seconds. It was wondrous. I had sex a couple of times after 'being with' bullet but it has never been the same. Thus, this celibacy thing is pretty easy. I know what you are thinking... "You are not truly celibate if you rely on bullet." Let's just say I am a work in progress.

I actually with two weeks once with out opening the top drawer of my night table. Then something happened. I had trouble sleeping so... Bullet helped out. Another night I was stressed so... Bullet helped out. Then I was down right horny so... Bullet took it on in for me.

Okay... okay... okay... I am so through with sex today. Tomorrow with be my "You can do it!" inspirational day!

One Final Thought

I love you
Like a human
You are human
To me
Sleepless nights
You were there
Stressful days
You were there
Sexually tense times
You were always a buzz away
I thank you for that
You are my one
My only
My bullet
I love you.

HHHHHHHEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHEEEEEEEE
I had to chuckle on that one.
Ok. Let me go take my meds.


Check out this funny article about bullet: http://wired.com/news/culture/0,69637-0.html

Mmmmm... Masturbation!

Okay... okay... I know what you all are thinking. Ewww... she spent all day with her mind in the gutter. If that is your thought, you are truly immature and you should stop reading this post now.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with Solo Sex. Actually, it is really relaxing and if you have self control, you are able to continuously do it and not crave for a partner. Ladies... understand this... orgasms are natural. They feel AWESOME and if you have not achieved one... live a little longer. Self exploration is indeed powerful. We spend so much time yearning for a partner, we stop taking time for ourselves. How are we going to tell a partner what to do if we don't feel comfortable with ourselves. Sex is such a touchy topic... people associate it with lust and all things 'dirty' but, in all actuality sex is AMAZING. But... it all starts with you...

So...
Set the Mood
Relax
Turn Yourself on
Have a Look
Explore yourself (let your fingers do the walking)
Feel the Buzz (Toys are GGRRRRRRREAT!)
Breathe Deeply

You don't have to tell me but, go for it. You won't be disappointed.

The End.

And yes... I am a celibate Christian- understand this is my hiatus and my thoughts!
iVillage has a great article on this topic: http://love.ivillage.com/lnssex/sexsolo/0,,s4jv,00.html

Get a Coochie Check!!!


Now that I have caught your attention. Ladies... let's be real. When was the last time you had a Well Woman's Exam? If it has been longer than a year you need to leave your computer right now and schedule an appointment. As women we need to know our bodies. Especially due to the fact that we are (I was) sexually active individuals. So, long story short...

GET YOUR COOCHIE CHECKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Check out Baylor's site for more info: http://www.bcm.edu/crowd/?pmid=1467

OMG! Imma Baby's Mamma!!!!!!!!!


When I think of the phrase "baby momma", I think of a...
Ghetto chick with a long human hair ponytail
She'll have on a halter top and short shorts
Some old dirty house shoes will cover her feet

Her baby will be...
On her hip with a bottle in one hand and a sucker in the other

She will have...
The baby's pacifier in her mouth (it fell on the ground and she was simply 'cleaning' it off)

The baby daddy was a...
Drug dealer/user that drops in and out of her life

Both baby momma and baby daddy 'kicked it' on and off for years but the relationship was hardly healthy. He fought her, she fought him. They fussed, they cussed. Momma and daddy both did there thing on the side. They live on section 8 in the hood and drive an '82 Skylark.

Humph! I dare not stereotype again in life!

I am a baby's momma and my story goes nothing like that, but, something like this...

Girl goes to college
Girl meets boy
Boy impresses girl
Boy wines girl
Boy dines girl
Girl has sex with Boy
over...
and over...
and over...
Girl gets pregnant
Boy stays by girl's side
Girl has baby and evolves into Woman
Boy remains boy

The End.

Thus, adding me to the long list of baby's mamma's!

Girlfriends! REAL Girlfriends ;o)


As I sit here breaking from my day to day grind, I realize the importance of friendship. Female friendships. Growing up, I always had to deal with jealousy, envy, and deceit from females. I found solace in male friendships. Don't get me wrong, I still have really close male friends but, there is something different about woman-woman bonding. There are four really special friends in my life and this post is dedicated to them.

Me and Princessa "J" (The Bohemian Bombshell)- It is funny because we have known each other since high school but, in the last couple of years we have been closer than conjoined twins! We are so different, but that is what makes our friendship so awesome. We can talk to each other about anything. PJ is an extremely intelligent, strongwilled female that knows what she wants out of life. She is very driven and knows directions! She has a wild side (which a few people in TX and the whole ATL know about)! ;o) I know that I can depend on her no matter what- she will always be in my corner. She is going to be on the red carpet one day and I know she is gonna take me with her (she better). She is a shining star and I am honored to call her friend.

Me and Busy Body "M" (The Workaholic) - I LOVE "M" 'cause she is an AMAZING, wonderfully understanding person whom I adore. We met through Princessa, and that was it. I have never me a sweeter soul. "M" is caring and will achieve so much here in the near future. She always has a ear for whomever needs to talk. She spend a great deal of time listening to and aiding Princessa and I on figuring out our issues. She says little about herself. But, little does she know, I feel her deepness. She spends 110% of her time working. I know she will be successful, but she never, ever, EVER takes time for herself. This will definitely HAVE to change. She is sweet as apple pie and I am blessed that she calls me friend.

Me and Quiet'n'Spi"C" (The Wonderer) - OMG! What can I say? How can I say? Spi"C" and I met in college (during the crazy years). One of my earliest memories of her was her running down the hallway of the dorm in her bra! We partied together... those early years were a blurrr... That explains why I left school after that semester. When ever I wanted to 'hang' out or get into mischief I would call "C". Years passed after I left school and we didn't talk much. I got pregnant with my son and I slowed my roll completely. She called me out of the blue one day to check on me. During that convo, she shared with me that she was 3 months pregnant. It was such a coincidence because I was 7 months. We both have boys with biblical names. The second phase of our friendship started that night. We are now responsible single moms, we work together, and 'play' together. She is really quiet but, don't let that fool you. She can twirk it with the best of them. I love what she stands for and were she is going in life. WE can party, cry, and laugh together. I am proud to call her my SUPER FRIEND!

Me and Dontgetittwisted "K" (The Christian Diva) - Humph... Words cannot express how I feel about this friend. I love her soooooo much. I also met "K" through Princessa. We became instant friends. She is the one person I know who lack less sense than me. She is also the only person I know that will curse you out and pray for you all in one sentence. This is what I adore so much about her. She is true to herself. "K" cares less what the world thinks of her. She is loud, boisterous, and full of energy! She is ramped up 200% of the time. She is truly a rare find and... that's why I am excited about calling her friend.

I have special females that I did not mention in this post but, they are all dear to me in such vast ways. The woman-woman true bond is a rare find. When you are able to develop this relationships, you should cherish them and not take them for granted.

I LOVE YOU SISTER FRIENDS

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I Have a "Man"-Friend!


I just started a new relationship. The term "boyfriend" is not proper (so he says). So out of respect I will refer to him as my man-friend, or not? That sounds pretty cheesy, what do you think?

I feel weird. I know I am supposed to be able to talk to him about everything but I don't want to be (as my Momma would say...) worsesome. I really, really, like him. I am actually falling in love with him. Each day I crave hearing his voice. He is an intelligent guy who is doing OUTSTANDING things with his life. He is ambitious, smart, goal oriented, loving, affectionate, kind, understanding (when it counts). He is everything that I want in a man plus... some stuff I could live with out ;o) and more! I cannot believe I said that! What the heck it is true. I cover my feelings really well because I have been hurt too many times. I want to spend the rest of my life getting to know and love him more and more each day. I want us to have babies and live happily ever after. There... I said it.

The End.

P.S. - I figured I would record this because... tomorrow is a new day!

A Celibate Sex Addict... What?

DISCLAIMER... I am about to reveal so real stuff in the reading below. This is MY hiatus and I do what I want to do so, if you don't like it... stop reading... now!

We all encompass multiple thoughts and characteristics that complete us, thus creating a unique identity. Let's take me for example. I am indeed a strong will, beautiful (from the inside out), Christian female. But, that is not ALL that I am. I too appreciate affection and adoration from my companion. ...I know you are thinking... what does that mean...

I was tryna BS around it but I love SEX! I know what you are thinking, "She say she a Christian and she loves sex? What does that mean?". My point exactly! I am currently practicing celibacy. It has been quite awhile since I have acted on any sexual desire (with another person ;o)). This is the reason for this entry. More than ever I have learned that SEX does mean a great deal to me. The catch... the right person. I have enough self-restraint to wait until I know that I know that I know Mr. Right has entered my life. Then reality sets in... as a Christian I should save myself for my 'husband' not boyfriend, that I think I am madly in love with. I know but my feelings are my feelings. Believe me! I am getting them out right now. Let me start from square one...

You are about to learn quite alot about me but... that's the whole point of this right? I was not sexually active until the age of 18. I had a boyfriend since 16, but let's face it.. you cannot miss what you have never had! When we became sexually active it was a little weird at first. I mean, I wasn't use to it so it freaked me out. I had dibbled and dabbled with oral sex (which was a turn on from both ends of the spectrum). We continued dating (we were engaged as well) for about 2 years. I then met another guy who I dated and began a sexual relationship with. The only interesting thing he taught me about sex was how to have it over and over again with no inhibitions. I was too young to realize that it was not good at all. The only positive thing that came from the relationship was my son. I am being honest. So let's fast forward to 24 (last year). I had been with a few people, enjoyed decent sex, but I wouldn't say that I was a sex addict. Then it happened...

I met him... and whew (and I am not talking about the name of the support group I founded)! I have never ever, EVER craved sex like I did with this person. We clicked perfectly! The bedroom, kitchen, bathroom, car,... every where. My body craved his at one point. The only problem with him was that he was ... a married (supposedly going through a divorce), father of two (one whom he neglected to claim at any givin time), who smoked and dranked (excessively), with a beat up ride (if you don't want much for you, how are you going to want something for me), who had no ambitions and was content with were he was in life. Let me tell you something... though I adore sex... I will never ever EVER pay the bills! So... I let him go.

I can honestly say, that relationship taught me more about sex in five months than 6 years of having it. I had my first 'real' orgasm. I began to adore oral sex more than ever. I made fantasies that were once locked up in my brain come true. I embraced my body more. I learned to feed off of my partners body. I eventually got really in to porn, toys, and strip clubs (the ladies were my fav.). (I am keeping it real! Judge me if you wish but, I wasn't then and is not now ashamed of my past) I was into...you know... the usual sex idols. I worshiped them(I am being honest). My girlfriends would tease me becuase the guys at the sex shop knew me by name. I had all kinds of gadgets and toys. I would really get into it. Then... slowly... I began to change my life and live for Christ. It was extremely hard at first. I would leave Sunday service and drop off a DVD at the Flick Spot. Until one day I stopped. I decided to become celibate and really focus on me.

Why did I live that way? I got life twisted. I began to confuse the act of sex with love. The two are separate entities. I realized that God's love was the most important. I also began to understand that he was my creator as well and he instilled the sexual desires in me for a reason. To fulfill and satisfy my husband. I am still waiting... I will be honest! I take everything one day at a time.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

BEP... Who Would Have Thought?

Man! I remember hearing "Joints and Jam" back in the day but... I had no idea.

Back then the group didn't have Fergie but... they were still completely off the chain. Fergie hooked up with Will.I.Am, alp.de.alp, and Taboo in 2003. The group originally started with three neosoul rappers, who were (and still are) talented. They acquired a beautiful singer (Fergie) to complete the group. Her sultry, soulful voice makes perfect addition to the group.
I heard certain songs... "Where's the Love" and the smash hit from 2004, "Let's Get it Started" (2004 Elephunk), but I had no idea what I was in store for. Obviously, "My Humps" (2005 Monkey Business) completely caught my attention. I initially thought it was simply a fun "Girl/Club" song. I listened to a few cuts from the cd and I knew I had to have it. They are a real funky group that discusses real whord issues. "Union", is an awesome song on Monkey Business that talks about the state of the world to day and what people can do individually to make a difference.
I am definitely a new BEP fan for life. I wish the group continued success, I know the will continue to go far!

Check 'em out...
http://www.blackeyedpeas.com

Monday, May 01, 2006

Michelle McKinney Hammond- Girlfriend Christianity!

Three words... Michelle McKinney Hammond!

What an outstanding woman. Where do I start? At the beginning I presume.

I was browsing around Wal-Mart when I suddenly made it to the book section. I am so in to inspirational books so I check out that section. The saying is normally true, "You can't judge a book by it's cover" but let me tell you, when I laid my eyes on that beautiful black woman, I had to pick it up. Michelle is not only beautiful but, there is something in her eyes that denotes confidence and strong will. I instantly flipped the book over to read the contents on the back cover. The book I help was "A 101 Ways to Keep His Attention". Don't get me wrong the title sounds very forward but, it definitely got my attention. The book discusses how women should take note of themselves and how God fashioned them to be. Every idea in the book is backed up by a bible verse. To sum things up it basically empowered women with the knowledge that they had to first and foremost look at themselves before they decide to plunge into a relationship. It was interesting, so I threw it in the cart and took it home.

I was totally impress with how profound Michelle was in her knowledge of the bible and how she applied it to her everyday life. I also loved her, girlfriend-in-your-face-tell-it-like-it-is attitude. Michelle is a real woman. She has lived life. Did things she was not so proud of. She re-focused her life and centered it on God. Everything has worked out from there. Plus... she is really fancy (fashionable, hair, make-up, dress). I then looked her up to find out more about her. Michelle is an Author, Speaker, Singer, and a Co Host for Aspiring Women. She is a Christian woman who proves that we can incorporate and acknowledge God in day to day life. It is the complete package. While we (as women) are no were near perfect we can and should inspire to do AMAZING and WONDERFUL things.

Michelle has tons and tons of books. The one I saw as being refreshing is, The Power of Being a Woman this book empowers women to be the woman that God wants them to be first and foremost and the rest will fall in line. All of Michelle's thoughts are backed up by scriptures from the bible. It really is amazing! She does an awesome job of conveying how it is important to embrace who God wanted us to be as women (our initial purpose) first and then our relationships, dreams, and aspiration will in turn fall in line. I would definitely recommend Michelle's books to all women who want to change there lives for the better.

Ms. Michelle... I want to be like you when I grow up!

Check out her site- http://www.michellehammond.com

Rise

I wrote this awhile ago. Women... we hold ALL the power. We must use it... along with our influence to get to our final destination (and keep going from there).
Rise

As I sit with my pen in hand
I wonder, What is my plan?
In life that is,You know what happens when you think you've got Life figured out
Things change
People be dying
Babies be crying
Jobs lossed
Friendships tossed...to the side
'Cause of some man
Who don't want you or she
Thanks to JL's book we know it's a 'he' that is being peeped
Ladies feeling like there's no hope...
For tomorrow
Just more pain and even more sorrow
My response to these circumstances?
Do you really want to know?
I mean really, really want to know?
Rise Ladies!
Do you...
Take your baby and that sorry excuse for a child support check and..
Make it through
Times will be hard
And times will be rough
But I know a mighty God that can handle all that stuff
Take what you have
Use what you've got
Add extra prayer and...
Make it to the top
Of your condition
Know your position
Play it with pride
You have nothing to hide
You are a strong womanRunning all the land
Remember that dream you've had since you were a tot?
That dream you've dremt a lot
Use that, along with God to develop your plan
Don't worry about companionship, when God is ready he will send you that man
So use your past to fuel your future
And your enemies...
those fools
Use them as your step stool!
~Radiance (Mentally)~

Kendrick is Missing!



IMPORTANT! A Houston boy is still missing. It has been about a month since authorities were notified that Kendrick Jackson was missing. They still have not located him but we will not give up and hope and pray that he is still alive awaiting to be reunited with his family. I couldn't imagine life with out my 3 yr. old. Lets get Kendrick back home!

Stats:
Name: Kendrick Jackson
Age: 3
Last Seen: Fri. April, 7th around 10am at father's apartment in Southwest Houston.
Dress: Kendrick was last seen wearing a white shirt and pajama bottoms
Height: 3 feet
Weight: 30 lbs

If you have ANY info at all, please contact the Houston Police Department at 713-308-3600!

My prayers are with his family.

W.H.E.W A Sister Circle


I am in the grass roots process of creating my very own Sister Circle! No words can describe the excitement I have about all the possibilities of this group! Okay...Okay... let me start at the beginning. Here goes...

About a year ago (after going through a rough period with my son's father) I evaluated my life. I was in a city (about 300 miles from my family) with a young child to support and no immediate family to lean on. I was lost mentally and my life was headed in a downward direction. I turned to alcohol and men to ease the pain I felt deep down in my soul. I hit rock bottom and came to the realization that God was the only one who could truly save my soul and restore my life. He slowly began to piece my life back together. I eventually moved out of my (then) boyfriend's house and got my own apartment. That was the best thing that could have happened to me. I began to learn more about myself and came to the realization that I didn't need companionship in my life and it would better benefit me to get to know myself better instead of relying on a man.

Cutting the story short... I began to confide in close friends and soon figured out that they were going through similar issues in their own lives. Here I am a year later, a completely different woman and I can definitely empathize with women going through their own crisis in life. I talk to countless women daily consoling them and reassuring them they can change the outcome of their lives (as I did). I also equip them with the necessary tools to do it and keep it up themselves. Then it hit me! A Women's Support Group! Thus, the idea was formed.

What is a Sister Circle? I Sister Circle is a group of women who convene in support and fellowship for whatever issues they have in common. Different groups represent different things. I birthed W.H.E.W.

What is W.H.E.W!?
W.omen H.elping E.mpower W.omen- The mission of the group is: To unite women from all walks of life into a Sisterhood that focuses on empowering each other to realize and utilize their full potential in every aspect of their lives. Our goal is to secure and maintain the balance of our physical, mental, and spiritual lives as singles, parents, and/or wives through each other. Our vision is to create an environment where women can aid in raising the bar for each other's respective expectations for their lives. The purpose is to meet monthly in Sisterhood while sharing experiences and advice while also absorbing it from each other.

I recruited friends, and co-workers to aid me in getting this off the ground. I know (with all the wonderful personalities) we will definitely all be able to sponge off of each other while helping through experience from our own lives. I want this to eventually skyrocket into a non-profit organization that aids young women in knowing the importance of femininity and self worth. The possibilities are endless... Trips, conventions, volunteer work... I am too ready!

I am so EXCITED about where this is headed! Our first meeting is scheduled for this Saturday, May 6th, 2006! I will keep you posted on how it turns out.


For more info and research into Sister Cirlces check out http://www.sphereswomenscircles.com