The Meaning of Me

For those of you that think you know me... but have NO idea, I took the time to breakdown the true meaning of Radiance (Mentally).

Here Goes.

Rare
Absorbed
Divine
Instinctive
Adamant
Nurturing
Alluring
Cultured
Eclectic

Rai in a nutshell.

Any Questions?

The End.

~Radianceflowsfromtheinsideout...atleastminedoes!~

Josey B and Me!

I was having one of my self reflection days today. I thought (in Ode to my changed profile), if I could relate myself to any woman in history, who would it be? After thinking briefly, I came to the conclusion...

Ms. Josephine Baker...
Josey B. as I will call her.

Yes... Ms. J did have more "appropriate" pictures, but I absolutely adored this one. It shows how she appreciated her body, and did not mine showing it, by using the art form of burlesque dancing. No... not the "stripping" that can be seen in any given strip club. This was seductive and erotic, but in an artistic way. It was true entertainment of the time.

All in all... I salute Ms. Josey B., for being true to herself, and a true example of a woman who embraced herself and did not let society choose her destiny.

Thanks JB!

The End.

~OooohIseealotofJBinme~

Tequila and Salt

Okay... here's the deal. Normally I am not too keen about the forwards I get via email daily. For some reason I really liked the one that appeared in my inbox this week. I feel every one should realize all of the points displayed in its purpose.

Here goes...

You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die
for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want
to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they
don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes
from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take
another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received.. Forget about
the rude remarks.


Just when you thought life had given you more lemons than you could handle...

Take them and add Tequila with Salt, and lets hang out!

The End.

~GottaloveJoseCuervoooohya,andyourselftoo!~

God's "Rai"diance In My Life

The font color is changed due to the Glory of God. He truly Shines!

I wanted to dedicate this post to my Heavenly Father Above. He has been there for me in so many different ways. Just when I wanted to give up, write something (one) off, or do something detrimental to my well being, He was there.

When you truly have a relationship with God, you only seek acceptance from Him. Everyone else here with you on earth is imperfect (as you are as well). God is the only perfect creature. When we decide to open our hearts and soul to him, we will know true abundance in our lives. I am in know way here to "preach", or convert non believers. What I am here to do is to share my life with those who care to know, and demonstrate God's forgiving grace.

I am human. I make mistakes. My days aren't perfect. Guess what the beauty of that is? That is EXACTLY how He intended it to be. If we were perfect, we wouldn't need God's grace or mercy. We would have no need for Him in our lives. That is why it is important to praise God during the good and bad times. Just when you think things are going good and you don't need Him, He has a way of showing you otherwise. It's obvious, that when things are bad, he is the first one on our minds. That is how I developed my relationship with Him, I was at the breaking point, and I had NO WHERE to go, but to His arms. Pray hard and be strong. God will deliver you from whatever you are going through in your life.

I am a living testimony of his work.
Always remember this, it is not about a religion, rather a relationship. Your personal relationship with God is all that matters. It is not about a church, domination, or pastor. It is about you and Him. The Holy Bible is the only prerequisite for a relationship with God. That is so you can educate yourself about Him, and His will for your life.

Be strong and know that God is always there for you.
When will you recognize and appreciate Him?

The End.

~GodisgoodallthetimeallthetimeGodisgood~

The Changing of Seasons

In an attempt to be unlike my blog counter parts (Leggs and Essence Unknown), I will post something today. It's not like me to go too long with out posting SOMETHING. I know a lot of my "anonymous" readers have (due to certain events) really been looking forward to something new.

Let Me See...

This past weekend was great for me. I have began to get back in touch with my spiritual side. Not that I have ever lost touch with it, but I haven't relied as much on it as I usually do. People will come in and out of your life, but GOD will never leave you or forsake you. Circumstances in your life can be one way, and then change, all because of Him. King has been learning that valuable lesson over the last couple of months. Friends will come and go, as seasons do change... hum. . .


As summer slowly leaves and fall creeps upon us, I realize that the atmosphere is not the only thing that is changing.

That leads me to the topic of this blog.

As Seasons Change...

As seasons change, I accept those in my life for who they are.
As seasons change, Friendships I thought would last fall apart.
As seasons change, I am birthed into my destiny.
As seasons change, I finally decide to take full responsibilty for me.
As seasons change, I began to truly appreciate my counterpart.
As seasons change, I stop making excuses for coming up short.
As seasons change, I began to blossom into womanhood.
As seasons change, I stop my quest to be understood.
As seasons change, I appreciate my reality.
As seasons change, With no inhibitions I celebrate being me!

Real talk. We should all celebrate ourselves, life, and those we care deeply about!

The End.

~AttheendofmyseasonIrealizeitisn'tasimportantasIthoughtitwas~

All in a Day's Work!

It is at the end of my work day and... I am ttttttttiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeedddddddd! So much for me to do tomorrow. I can't wait till it's all over. I have done so much today, it is unreal.

This whole "working" thing is surreal to me. I thank God every night for my job, health, and strength, but boy, I can't wait till I am financially worry free. I know things happen for a reason. I can't wait to officially know what that reason is.

A Recap of Today:

Woke up and did the morning routine with Sunshine.
Arrived at work around 11:30am.
Scheduled interviews for potential new hires in my department.
Had a meeting with the managerial staff in my company.
Work in the Child Center for a couple of hours.
Fed Sun lunch and dinner.
Worked a little more.
Headed home for the evening around 9pm.

Boy! What a day.

I have to wake up and do it all over tomorrow.
Good thing I am off on Friday!

The End.

~Whenwillalltheworkpayoff?~

Anonymity At its Best

This is probably the "realest" post I will ever write. It is truly astonishing to me how people that don't communicate with me regularly keep up with me via my blog. Don't get it twisted... I have never been, and will never be, a messy person, but this is truth.

I don't really know how to take it. Should I be flattered? Upset? Used?
Let me see...

I have always done well with flattery. It is so funny and amazing to me. The "anonymous" comments. The same IP addresses. It is really something. I would think, if someone was interested in the goings on in my life (assuming they are close enough to me that they have my personal numbers) you think they would call personally and talk to me about the happenings in my life. I will never truly understand women... heck! I rarely understand myself.

I guess it all boils down to this...

For all of the anonymous readers of this blog, who actually know me personally, and don't talk to me on a regular bases but, check my blog daily keeping up with what is going on in my life and the lives of those who I care most about, thank you. Thank you for caring about me enough to actually check up on my blog to know about the recent occurrences in my life. I welcome any of you who know me personally to give me a call. I have never held a grudge in life and I have not started now.

Forgiveness is beautiful.
Words to live by.

Ok. P.S.... here goes. After posting this wonderful work, I had a revelation, so, I had to edit the post and add to it.

I know the exact reason for the anonymity of a lot of my readers, that I may actually know personally. It is actually my fault. I am not exactly an "approachable" person. My ego gets in the way 90% of the time. Know that I truly mean well. I just choose not to get hurt in any type of relationship. My life is EXTREMELY exciting. Everyone who has ever hung out with me understands that. I am pretty sure that those that are not close to me anymore miss that aspect of my friendship. I have chosen to disclose EVERYTHING on this blog. I am honest and those who know me know the extent of my honesty. It is never ending. So... there it goes.
I figured it out all by my lonesome.

Thank you to all the anonymous readers for still being there(in some form) for me. I still love you the same (from the bottom of my heart).

~Rai~

The End.

~Anonymityistheresultofsensitivity~

"Rai"diant Strength.

I was having a conversation with a near and dear friend of mine, not too long ago. She was telling me about how much she admired me and how she wish she had a third of my strength. I was astonished, just by talking to her (hearing how she really felt). I have never really thought about my strength. But, I had to take a pause and just think about it.

I am an extremely strong (in EVERY aspect) woman. People's opinion (that aren't close to me) do not matter at all. I attack every task with victory in mind (it's the only choice). I am extremely comfortable in my own skin. A lot of people (women) are intimidated of this but, it is all based on their own insecurities. I am doing pretty well being me.

I thought about it, an I will share my findings with the World ;o)!

Why am I so strong?
~Because, no one else is responsible for paying my bills on the first.
~Because, I am the only one who determines my happiness.
~Because, I was raised by a strong mother, who would accept nothing less from me.
~Because, I am sole responsible for the upbringing of a man child, who tests all of the limits.
~Because, I was brought into this world alone, and I must work hard to get to where I am predestined to be.
~Because, no one puts clothes on "our" backs, food on "our" table, or gas in "our" car (but me).
~Because, people will treat you how you ALLOW yourself to be treated (I deserve only the best).
~Because, life is what we make it.
~Because, God is the only one with the proper credentials to judge or condemn me.
~Because, I have been "hated on" by jealous, envious females since Pre K.
~Because, I surround myself around only POSITIVE females (when I see they are driving towards Jealoustown or Enviville, they are 86ed out of my life).
~Because, I am the only "me" I have, and I must take good care of myself.

Basically, I am so strong because, Momma G (my mom), would have it no other way. The important part about having a strong personality is, knowing that everyone won't understand you, and you know what? They weren't meant to. You should surround yourself around your equals. People that have similar personality traits as you.

Embrace yourself ladies. Define your own reality. Don't let life define you.

The End.

~OhhI'msostrongandstuff~

The Arrival of Little Diva... the Saga Begins

Today, August 21st, 2006, marks the birth date of my very own niece (my brother's Daughter). Her name is Ryenn Alexandra (middle name after me), and I can't wait to meet her. She was born (by C-Section) this morning around 8am. Not sure of the hospital, but she was born in Dallas, Texas. My mom called this morning to tell me all about the Precious Princess.

Ok... Little Diva? Where'd that come from?

For the past nine months I have been known as "Aunt Diva". I received this name due to my nature to do things "fancy". The hair is always together (when it counts), clothes layed, accessories matched perfectly. I always do things fancylike. You know, the delayed entrances, witty "fun" personality. "Diva", in the positive way, thus Aunt Diva.

I plan on spoiling this baby. Remember, I have a little boy. I am not used to fancy frilly girl stuff. This is going to be quite an adventure. I plan on spoiling my new niece unbelievably. The official "Girl Time" saga has begun!

The End.

~Thisnewbabyissoexcitingtome~

WHEW... What a Saturday!

I am sssssssssooooooooooo excited about this whole Woman's empowerment journey I have spent the last four months embarking on. It has really made me such a strong, positive (even more than I naturally am) person, it has also shown me true (lacking envy and jealousy) friendship. All of the women involved in the network are truly on each other's side. They are uplifting and loyal, in each and every way.

We had our fourth meeting this Saturday (aug. 19th), and let me tell you! What a time we had.

We met at a really good friend, Bossy's house. She definitely lives up to her name, and you know what? We love her even more for it. We had lots of food and drinks. We brought our relationship trilogy to the middle, by talking about our relationships with our Mothers or as Mothers for some of us. We had a new member join the network, so that tops us off at a total of nine committed members. It brought such joy to my heart to see everyone believing in the vision I set forth months ago.

All in all the meeting was a blast. I see us going so far in the near future.

The End.

~Itissogreattohavesisterswhoaretrue~

p.s.
No worries. There will be more juicey topics to come.

The Count Down Has Begun... 10!

Okay...okay, I know you guys are wondering? What is the count down for. Well, I will tell you. This is my 90th post on the here blog. I began my Hiatus in April (5 months ago) and I had NO idea where this whole "web journaling" would actually go.

Well, well, well.

I soon found out that it is so soothing to be able to log your thoughts at any given time. My growth has been tracked and can actually be looked back on my CRAZY endeavors. I am looking forward to logging on in 20 years and laughing my butt off.

It's official.

Entry 90 is completed. Let the count down begin!

The End.

~Thishundredpostthingisprettycool~

ATTENTION WOMEN!!! HPV is Real.

Hey Ladies!

I felt it was extremely important for me to dedicate this post to you. Now, don't get me wrong. This is an issue for men as well but, the majority of women will find out about this condition before a man would (it is easier to detect it early in women, before the symptoms occur). What am I talking about? Let me tell you.

It is called Human Papilloma Virus and it affects roughly 60 million women around the world. Papillomavirus are a diverse group of DNA-based viruses that infect the skin and mucous membranes of humans. Some HPV types cause benign skin warts, or papillomas, for which the virus family is named. HPVs associated with the development of common warts are transmitted environmentally or by casual skin-to-skin contact.

A separate group of about 30 HPVs are typically transmitted through sexual contact. Some sexually-transmitted HPVs, such as types 6 and 11, can cause genital warts. However, most HPV types that infect the genitals tend not to cause noticeable symptoms. Persistent infection with a subset of about a dozen so-called "high-risk" sexually-transmitted HPVs, including types 16 and 18, can lead to the development of cancer of the cervix. HPV infection is a necessary factor in the development of nearly all cases of cervical cancer (Walboomers 1999). Some cancer-causing HPV types (particularly HPV-16) are also believed to cause a substantial portion of other genital cancers, as well as some cancers of the mouth, throat and anus (Parkin 2006).

Cervical Pap smear testing is used to detect HPV-induced cellular abnormalities. This allows targeted surgical removal of pre-cancerous lesions prior the development of invasive cervical cancer. In the absence of Pap testing or treatment, about 1% of women with genital HPV infections will eventually go on to develop cervical cancer. Although the widespread use of Pap testing has reduced the incidence and lethality of cervical cancer in developed countries, the disease still kills several hundred thousand women per year worldwide.

(Thanks Wikipedia!)

Ladies, this is serious. You can have this virus and not even know it. This is spread through sexual intercourse. Most women do have the virus, but the immune system fights it off so, the symptoms(warts *obvious* and dysplasia *detected on a pap smear, causes cervical cancer*) may not even occur.

My point is... GET A WELL WOMEN'S EXAM. You need to know what is going on in your body. It is very important. We spend so much time worried about "common" STD's, we need to be aware of HPV. Cervical cancer is serious. If it can be stopped ahead of time, it needs to be.

Be Safe.

The End.

~Itisimportanttoknowthatyouknowthatyouknow~

For more info on HPV, check this site out: http://www.thehpvtest.com .

Dallas... Mi Familia Time

Once again... Another "fun-filled" weekend in Dallas, TX. This past weekend I found myself in my backyard again (DTown). This time, it was not a great occasion that landed me there. I came to Dallas to mourn the loss of my Grandaddy. If you guys have read any of my posts prior to this you would know that I didn't grown up with that particular side of the family. This was my father's father. We all know, that up until a little while ago, I've always considered myself a "test tube baby". But... there is another person connected to me.

I saw cousins I hadn't seen in years. I had a chance to soley spend the whole weekend with them. It was truly wondrous. I will recap the weekend below.

Mi Familia Time

Friday, Aug. 11th, 2006

Drove up to Dallas with my uncle.
Went to my grandmothers house to prepare for the wake (for Grandaddy).
Drove my uncle, aunt, and grandmother to the wake.
Met cousins and family I hadn't seen in years.
Took the crew back to my grandmother's house.
Went to my cousins house (I spent the weekend at her house).
Went back to my grandmother's house to meet up with the other cousins.
We went to the bowling alley to bowl, hang out, and play pool.
Ended the night at 3am.

We were tired!
Time to prepare for the funeral.

Saturday, Aug. 12th, 2006

The "Cousins" and I woke up and prepared for the funeral.
We headed to the church to set up the sound (My cousin Nique prepared a song for the viewing of the body)
We headed back to my Grandmomma's house to meet with the rest of the family.
Funeral Time.
Headed to the burial site.
Heading back to Grandmomma's house to change.
Off to Grandmomma's church to eat.
Headed back to Nique's house to rest.
After waking up, more cousins flooded the place (25 of us total at her house).
We had fun in Nique's music studio (I didn't realize I could rap ;o))
Headed to a hole in the wall (club)- had fun nevertheless.
Sleep at 3am.

Whew...

Sunday, Aug. 13th, 2006

Woke up and ate breakfast.
Chatted it up with other cousin's that spent the night.
Prepared to go to my Grandmom's house (Momma G's mom).
Went over to grab some greens and hot water cornbread.
Got full and head to my "other" Grandmother's house (Dead Beat J's mom)
Hugs and kisses to relatives over there, then scooped up my aunt and uncle so we could head back to HTown.
Dropped the fam off.
Awaited the return of my Sunshine, he had spent the weekend with Confused K.

The End.

~Itwasatruejoytoseemethroughthem~

Confused K... At it Again.

I have been so careful about posting about my BD (read: Baby Daddy). I just figure, let lying dogs ly. But, today I had to vent. You guys know the routine. Here goes.

I am going to my "Daddy's" funeral this weekend. Thus meaning I am traveling back to my hometown, Dallas, TX. I chose to leave Sunshine here with his family. There is going to be so much going on, that I didn't want to have to deal with a 3 year old.

Confused K is off tomorrow, so I thought it would be perfect, because he could pick Sn up from me (we work next door to each other) when he got off, in anticipation of keeping him the entire weekend. CK gets off at 5pm. It is now coming up on 5:40pm and I haven't heard a word. It would take CK (on a good day) at least 2 minutes to come over to pick Sun up.

To top off the whole situation, he doesn't even want to keep him tonight. He is taking him over to his God parent's house. I want so much for him to take an active part in the life of his son and stop pawning him off on family members. I try so hard not to say anything, but it gets hard sometime.

I know I do all I am supposed to do as Sun's mom, but I am only human.

The End.

Enough venting for today. More good, spiritual stuff to come.

~IfonlyIcouldgetawaywithalieviatingmysituation~

Blahzay Day for Rai...

Today has been so blahzay, to say the least. Things have just been steadily moving along.

I came to work and had a meeting with my boss. It went pretty well considering, he is one of little words. I basically told him I had things under control, due to my absence for the burial of my grandfather.

King called me with GREAT news. He had just been offered a position with this company that he was extremely excited about. I am happy about it too. Always good to see loved ones preserver through rough times.

I went to find an appropriate outfit for the funeral of my granddad. I looked in my closest and was shocked to find out I have few "church clothes". When I go to church, I am extremely laid back. I rarely dress "fancy". I had to amp it up in respect of my grandfather.

I am about to head upstairs to teach my group fitness class. It is always a fun experience for myself and the members involved. Afterwards, I plan to head to happy hour briefly and then home. I have so much cleaning and packing to do. King is coming over, so that is something to look forward to.

Random Thought
I think that is about it. You know what? I am going to have to watch out how much info I divulge on this blog. There are a lot of you all reading who actually know me! ;o) If that is correct, as you can see NOTHING has changed. ;o)

The End.

p.s. Maybe I will post again before I leave for the night.

~Alwaysgoodtohavetherighttosayyouentertainedablahzayday~

Donde Esta Mis Pantalones?

Once upon a time there lived this sexy fly chica. She went by the name of Angelica. Angelica was really amigos bueno con (with) Jose. Jose was muy muy interested in Angelica romantically. Angelica did not reciprocate those feelings for Jose at all.

One night after hanging out and drinking, Jose attempted to kiss Angelica. She was not feeling it at all so she moved out of the way of his puckered lips. He then began to caress her. Gently on the shoulders, was the approach he attempted first. He hands then began to move vicariously all over her body.

Before she new it, Jose's head was between her legs. He was gently licking her ever so sensually. As Jose's tongue lapped her clitoris, prior thoughts of him being simply a "friend" temporarily vanished. Jose stayed down on Angelica for what seemed like hours.

He then looked up at her. Still on his knees, her sweet juices were slightly dripping from his lip and chin, he assumed sex was next. She quickly shot that thought in the foot. He then suggested she go down on him. That was also a negative for Angelica. Jose spent what seemed like eternity attempting to get some reciprocation for his effort. Angelica, then came back to her senses. She had won the battle and wasn't giving in. She just had one question,

Donde esta mi pantalones?
(Where are my pants?)

The End.

Quite the lust story huh? My imagination is truly something. Seriously, I have been pondering writing erotica, with a spanish twist. ;o)

~Angilicagothers...poorJose~

A Peculiar Situation

Something cute to think about.


There we were .
Finally being honest with ourselves.
Inhibitions lost.
The drinks began to do the talking.
We began to let go.
Indulge ourselves.
Forget about the world and her boundaries.
We were in our own world.
That of sexual exploration, with little to no contemplation.
You grabbed me and pushed me down.
Opened my shirt and began to nibble gently on each of my breasts.
Your mouth moved downward.
Kissing a trail to my valley.
Then you did it.
You took the forbidden fruit.
It was indeed pleasurable.
I saw the ocean, sun, moon, and prairie.
This was what I had been contemplating on all that time.
This was the summation of my thoughts.
Hum.
I came and went.
Then, taking a deep breath.
I whispered.
Okay... my turn.
The prior was reciprocated and I was pleased.
What did all of this mean?
I had just birthed my fantasy.


I have a creatively vivid imagination. Good stuff huh?

The End.


~Beingfreeisfreeing~

Dallas in a Nutshell

It seems as though so much happened in my life with in the course of three days. I went to Dallas the weekend of August 4th-6th. This was a Friday to Sunday situation. So much happened during those 72 hours.

I stayed with a girl buddy of mine, Leggs. We had such and interesting time. I hung out with friends that I hadn't seen in, let's say years. I learned some interesting things about myself. My grandfather passed. My mom felt neglected. There is a ton more.

But... in a nutshell.

Friday, Aug. 4th:

Saw my first drug transaction.
Saw my father for the first time in 10 years.
Saw my grandfather alive for the last time.
Spent time with my aunts, grandmother, and father (on my father's side).
Spent some QT with my mother.
Met a really cool person (Bigg) face to face after writing and conversing via the phone and texts.
Saw a special friend that I hadn't seen in awhile.
Saw my bestest guy friend (Head). Man it had been awhile since we hung out.
Had an interesting event occur that was indeed pleasing.
Went to sleep, finally at 6am.

Saturday, Aug. 5th:

Couldn't erase Friday out of my mind. I really went out with a BANG!
Leggs and I got dressed and headed to my brother's baby shower.
I went to the shower and saw friends and family that I hadn't seen in awhile.
Spent some time hanging out with Leggs, spending priceless "girlfriend" time.
Went to a bar with Leggs, and her friend Tatt. His girlbuddies were there as well.
Went to a known gentleman's Club and had tons of fun.
Ended the night meeting up with Smokes. Truly interesting. We had lots to catch up on.
Went to sleep around 5am.

Sunday, Aug. 6th:

Received a call at 5:45am (shortly after I went to sleep), that my Grandfather had passed.
Hung out with Smokes, Tatt, and Leggs briefly.
Went to brunch with Leggs. Wrapping up the weekend.
Went to my grandparents house to grieve.
Headed back down 45, to HTown.

I will repeat the trip this weekend, considering that will be when they will be having the funeral and wake.

I know you guys would LOVE to have the juicy details, but, there are certain things I will keep to myself... for now at least.

The End.

~Toomuchgoingonforoneweekend~

Grandaddy's Gone

This past weekend I went to Dallas for two main reasons.

1. To attend the baby shower for my new niece (my brother's baby).
2. To visit my Grandfather who is ill with cancer.

Upon entering the metroplex, I went directly to my Grandparents house. As I entered the house I saw my father (after 10 years), that was emotional in and of itself. I gave hugs and hellos to my aunts and grandmother. I entered the room where my grandfather was and, let's say, I wasn't prepared for what I saw.

He was lying in his hospital bed. His skin had turned slightly gray. He had an oxygen tube in his nose. His eyes reminded me that of a newborn baby. I felt sadness when looking at him. I had to immediately leave the room. Let me explain a little about my grandparents.

These are my parternal grandparents. I grew up in a single parent family. It was soley, my mom, brother, and me. My brother and I had different fathers. He grew up extremely close to his side of the family. Me, on the other hand was strictly with momma. I would go by every holiday to see my grandparents. Sometimes, aunts and cousins would be over, and I would catch a glimpse of them. Mainly it was my grandmother and grandfather that I had interactions with.

I loved "Daddy" (my grandfather- as I would call him). He was the closest piece I had to my biological father. I would always see him around town. He represented that side of the family. When I became an adult (with my own child), I always said I would make an effort to visit and learn more. I would extend the effort to make up for 25 years.

That was cut short the morning of Sunday, Aug. 6th, when I received a call from my aunt saying, "Granddaddy's Gone".

The way I feel inside, well... words cannot express. I will miss Daddy Roc ssssssssssoooo much. I will miss what wasn't, what was, and what could've been.

The End.


~Youwillbemissedmorethananythinggranddaddy~

Hey DALLAS I'm BACCK!!!!!!!!!

OkAY. Rai is back in Dallas and just let me tell you, I have had an interesting trip thus far. Right now I am tipsy as I type and ccelebrating day 2 in this wonderful city. I am not even going to use spell or grammar check because I want this post to relect my sate of mind right now. Let see, what happened first.

Friday, Aug. 4th, 2006

As I drove intp my grandparents neighboorhood I saw my first drug transatction. I "white" guy on a bike rolls up to this black guy. They talk briefly, then BAM! That quick hand to hand transaction. I was on the phone wit my girl Essence (by theway she has an awesome blog ya'll need to check out: essenceunknown.blogspot.com). I paused long enough to noticce it. I couldn't believe it! My first actual viewing of a drug transaction. It was truly something.

Then... we pull up to my grand mothers house... (my aunt and uncle whrer with me). We nock on the door and wham... My father answers the door. For those of you that don't know, I haven't seen my father in 10 years. /I grew up in a single parent family. I kept clse tabs on my grandparents and aunts/uncles, but never saw my dad. It was emotional and happy for me. We embraced for what seemed like forever. We just looked at each other in shock. Do to my mental state right now I will dedicate a whole post to it later so I can really express how I felt.

I got a chance to see my grandfather, who is extremely ill. He has cancer and is expected to go any day now. He is 80+ years old so, he has lived a long life. It won't make it easier, but it is fact. He was lying in his hospital bed with a tube up his nose. It was sad to see.

Then... met up with Momma G (my mom). We hung out for awhile. I briefly told her about King. It was wierd 'cause we have never really talked about us. She was supportive. Who would have thunk it?

I then headed to Leggs' apartment downtown. It was sssssssoooooooooo good to see my girl. I am actually typing this post from her computer now. I always hang at her spot when I come to the good ole DTown. When I arrived at her apt. Bigg was there. It was really interesting to see him, considering, we met through this whole blog thing. He actually knew Leggs personally, so thats why I was cool with meeting him. He is a really cool cat. Obeys all the rules. Lives life right. Makes, little to few mistakes. Really cool... too "good guy" but cool all the same. I am an edgy chick. I disobey all the rules. So, it was interesting. We talked while I did my hair (Leggs and I went out). Cool artistic cat...with a cool artistic blog.

Let's see...

Net stop... the club!

Too much to post here. There will be more to come on a later post.

The End.

This alchol is really getting to me. I have to pause for the cause. I will be back sooner then you think.

~DallashasbeenAMAZINGallready~

It's August... and I made It... WHEW!!

Hey Hiatus readers. I am back, black, and alive.

Tuesday morning (Aug. 1st, 2006) I woke up feeling HORRIBLE. I had a horrible cold sweat. My head was throbbing, and stomach bubbling. It was indeed "not pretty". I thought I could shake it off but, I couldn't. It was then that I knew I wouldn't be coming to work. It just wasn't achievable.

Sun and I spent the day lounging around. He probably watched 30 movies yesterday (probably more like 7). I was in and out of sleep. Couldn't stand for more than a few seconds with out getting dizzy. Then the tricky part came, preparing Sun something to eat. I made it though. I was able to hook him up some red beans and rice. It was nothing but God. Nothing but.

I ran out to get me some meds (around 7pm). King had called around 2pm to check on me. Said he would come by to make sure I was ok. He arrived around 9pm. I am not complaining... I really appreciate him caring enough to drive 45mins. out of his way to check on me. I am just a spoiled little princess, that's all. I'll write a post about it later. At anyrate we hung out... watched some tv, I took my meds, and went to sleep.

I woke up this morning and... good thing I feel better now, I totally despise being sick. Just thought I would fill you guys in on what was going on with me. I will post a little more later.

The End.

~Ooohitfeelsgoodtofeelgood~

A New Rai Day...

It is official. I am starting back with my work out regime. Due to work, Sun, and the sister circle situation I took a Hiatus from getting my "fine" on. Well... I am back. I teach a group fitness (aerobics) class at my gym, so I have to be consistent with my workouts. So... today marks the official...

Rai Work Out Day!

I ran a mile on the treadmill. Did upper body on the weights (a little lower was included). Then, I brought it home on the stair master (cardio my friends). I feel so much better by just taking those small steps.

I am in pretty good condition as I type this blog, but let's face it... I can get a tad bit closer to perfection. I am staying true to my regime and I plan to lose 5% body fat and 10 lbs. That would put me closer to competition condition.

I can't wait!

The End.

~Mytempleindeedhastobeasbeautifulasmymind~

Out of the Mouths of Babes

After a 10hr. stint at work, Sunshine and I prepared to take it in for the night. As we were walking out of my place of employment he suggested to me...

Sunshine: Mommy.
Rai: Yes baby.
Sunshine: You get on my nervous.
Rai: (in disbelief) What did you just say?
Sunshine: You get on my nervous.
Rai: (still in disbelief) Were did you hear that from?
Sunshine: Well Mommy, ALL kids have nervous.

Basically my 3 yr. old son was attempting to convey to me that I got on his nerves.

What do you do? I was holding back that laughter so, I couldn't reprimand him.

The End.

~Thenexttimethishappeneachofyouwillhearaboutathreeyearoldinhoustonbeingknockedthroughawall~
Not really... this is all in fun. I love Sun.

Greens and Hot Water Corn Bread...

Hello All! Let's sum this post up to the fact that I am indeed home sick! I miss Dallas, TX sssssssssoooooooo much right now. It all started with my craving for...

GREENS AND HOT WATER CORNBREAD (a little Mac and Cheese wouldn't hurt ;0p).

Growing up that was pretty much the main dish my Grandmomma would hook up. Every Sunday. There it was... greenshotwatercornbreaddressingyamsandbakedchicken... whew! I had to get that off of me. I have been craving this wonderful "soul food", probably because I am heading home this weekend. I CANNOT wait. Sunday afternoon, I will be in GM's kitchen with a fork in one hand, a plate in the other... let us not neglect the napkin that will be tucked in my shirt.

I was feeling "home sick" so to speak so... I decided to write about one of the main things I look forward to when I am heading home to Dallas!

The End.

~OoooohhhIhopegrannymadesomesweetteatotopitalloff!~